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everything was blurry , dazai felt tired really tired , at the moment chuuya was dragging him towards the dorms , there was a bunch of teens and their teacher in the living room , the teacher looked like a homeless man , there was too many people there and hi head felt so cloudy , it used to feel like this when was only him and grandfather , or him and father or him and mother or him and the servants , he couldnt remenber alot from his life before mori, mori was his savior and he was very grateful for that , its been almost two years withouth grandfather he missed him , missed his hands and how hed say how better than anyone else he was , he missed feeling special like that , sure mori explained to him that what grandfather did to him was wrong but thats just a bunch of yada yada yada , he wasnt even human so why would it be wrong
suddently he felt himself back at the real world , apparently chuuya had guided him to his dorm room now both were sitted at dazai's bed with the romm very dimly lit as chuuya hadnt had the time to turn the ligths on yet, chuuya apeared as if hes been calling dazai for some time , his head still felt cloudy and murky , maybe even fuzzy , if one heard his description theyd probably think he was slipping into regression wich he was if he were being fair but also not exacly it , but now it was not the time to dwindle onto his feelings , he needed to push this down and give chuuya a good explanaition
'' dazai , hey , stupid mackerel , you in there , dazai you ok , daza-' the ginger started talking once again '' course i am slug is your brain so tiny you cant comprehend me being on my own body '' the brunett said with the fakest smile to exist on the whole world , his dark black eye looking directly into chuuyas soul if it even existed , '' shut up shitty dazai , i can see you lieing trough your teeth , simply shut up and let me help you '' , '' shut it chuuya leave me alone '' the younger said to the ginger , '' you know i wont , i cant possibly do that , i know you and i know that when your like this youre only a few minutes away from a serious suicide attemp and im not about to have to save your ass so shut the fuck up and let me help '' the ginger said with a frustrated and at the same time worried sound '' leave me alone '' the boy said once again , '' no way in hell im letting you here alone like this , we are firstly in a place we do not have control over ,secondly , i have no ideas if you got meds or blades on your bag so you being here alone isnt an option and thirdly , ive got not fucking idea of why you are so out of it today so i wont leave your side until i know what the hell is wrong with you and god knows koyou would kill me for leaving someone alone when they are like this '' the ginger says with a mix of anger and worry on his voice , dazai has his breakdowns or shutdowns every once in a while but this one was weirder in a way he couldnt exactly pinpoint , even worse , mori wasnt even here to do something about it and he shouldnt be calling koyou or hirotsu so soon on the mission
''leave . me . alone '' as soon as the phrase gets out of the brunetts mouth once again but with more poison onto the tone chuuya loses it , if he was going to act like a litlle trowing fit then he was going to be treated like one , dont get chuuya wrong , the ginger understands that there is something seriously wrong with dazai and he isnt doing this just to be annoying , but if the younger boy wasnt going to tell him whats wrong and continuously scream at him to leave him alone then he needed to get him to calm the fuck down first before comforting dazai , look it isnt te ideal situation but or dazai calms down a bit or their supossed classmates are going to suspect someting is wrong and if chuuya is certain of something is that dazai would hate ot have people nagging him about his personal life
it shouldnt be to difficult to deal with this rigth ... dazai is much like a little and if life on the slums with a gang with a bunch of children and littles thougth him anything as a caregiver it is how to deal with a crying , screaming kid , at the moment he had dazai kicking and swing his limbs towards chuuya while with his head on the croock of his neck blabbering and screaming words he couldnt make out what meant but where probably some iteration of leave me alone while he was crying
after a while dazai seemed to calm down a little well at least enough for him to be able to breath a little easier, the ginger couldnt understand why the boy was acting so much like a little today , and dont et the hm wrong , it wasnt something that uncomon but never to the point of dazai actually- oh oh oh
fuckity fucking fuck
no way in hell he was a little , the smelly fish couldn’t be one , littles were supposed to be soft And sweet and cuddly, but the mackerel wasn’t it. He was loud and always had breakdowns and outbursts And was always skiing something there was no way he could be a little well he could, but it didn’t make sense. Why would mother nature make him a little and look? He did have some similarities in his behavior with Littles like how sometimes he got very very grumpy and we’re like trow tantrums, but It was always smiled enough to not be a problem while they were in battlefield , The ginger‘s best guess is that he simply didn’t notice which is weird considering they were together almost 24/7 ever since … well , the flags death , Add a time to have been going through something and he was having a really bad time and that was I also wasn’t in the best place mentally so they just started to stick together at every moment in the day that they weren’t in need to be separated, which, if someone told chuuya from like one or two years ago, that he would be Work partners and ‘ friends ‘ With the most annoying person, he could imagine young chuuya would probably say that knowing hell this was gonna happen and really he couldn’t Blame his young self to this day it was still truly weird having formed a friendship with the mackerel
that really wasn’t the time to dwell into that , he needed to get Dazai to calm all the way down , look Chuuya had cared for a few littles before but caring for regular littles is fairly easy but Dazai isn’t your regular person , and probably much less a regular little , the ginger did not know that much about dazai’s life before he met the younger boy ( and he doubts even Dazai himself knows a lot of his life before he met Chuuya if the shorter boy were to consider the few things Dazai told chuuyas he remembers and how he claims to not remember that much more ) but oh dear arahabaki knows Dazai is not your avarage boy , be that because of the mafia or because of how weird his behavior is
apparently Dazai has calmed a little more , not enough to be left alone for any amount of time but enough he was breathing ok-ish , not exactly sobbing anymore anymore but weeping slight, ok from what he remembers from the last time he had to comfort a crying little he now had to comfort Dazai , he could do it yeah , he could
“ it’s ok , mackerel, it’s ok , it’s ok “ that should do the job , shushing Dazai shouldn’t be that hard , apparently the brunnett even appeared calmer , the already calm wheeping almost non existent now , they both just needed to survive the night now and Dazai should be back to an older headspace tomorrow for their first they on the new job , Yeah it’s all going to be fine
Dazai and Chuuya behavior is a bit weird… , not that midoria was someone to judge them it’s just that , we’ll even if he wasn’t the most normal person it the room ( that would be tsuyu probably or maybe ochako ) they seemed … different
for one , Chuuya looked a bit angry and maybe even a little anxious, if you looked hard enough on his would you’d see it clearly , not that he’d comment on that since the short ginger hadn’t commented on his starring behavior like many before , which he would be faie he did so , he was aware his staring was considerably creepy , and the Dazai looked , distante and blurry , out of it even , his one eye that could be seen freely looked … cold , maybe a but distante of it all l the best comparison he could give to the image of the boy’s look would be a photo midoria himself while in middle school
and it also dint help the fact that both boys are short very short , not short in a mineta level but surely short enough that the green haired boy himself thought that they were eleven or twelve year olds ( maybe even a little younger ) , they also looked so thin , worrying thin , he probably shouldn’t directly comment on it tho , maybe he should bring his concerns to aizawa sensei, if they were at actual risk he sure would help
his class hasn’t recived that much information on them besides what they had just told them , but At least they knew the informations that mattered the most , they knew their classifications, names , ages , the fact that they were here for a villain rehabilitation program and they would probably get to know their quirks tomorrow, Chuuya was apparently a caregiver and Dazai a neutral , Dazai was a … weird neutral , if he had to give him a classification without having known he was a neutral first he’d surely say he was a little but you know what , he isn’t trying to become a conspiracy theorist like shoto
He wanted to make both the boy’s feel at home , it would be easier to rehabilitate them if they felt loved and wanted , well that’s at least what he heard from present mic and it made sense so he’s just going to go by that , and either way they looked so tiny and a bit scared , how could izuku ignore these tiny fearful eyes and , yeah they were the same age as the rest of the class was by what aizawa sensei affirmed but they looked like they were soo young and god knows izuku has a soft hearth for anything that looks like a little children or animal
The problem was just , how should he do that , look he never was the best at social ig but he had to atleast try , Maybe he could ask his class to try to include them more in class activities like in their next movie night or maybe he could ask Kaminari To play video games with them- Wait, would even like video games , Oh goodness, they would hate hate him for asking Kaminari To play with them oh my God, they would Kaminari And they would hate me - Be ratioonal midoria Be rational, they would not hate you for asking Kaminari To play video games with them not what they hate Kaminari, He could simply ask them if they like video games tomorrow, Yeah, that should work, Just let them rest for today and let them get in and ask them to more if they like video games and try to befriend them maybe , Yeah, that should work
one of them should call them to come back down to eat dinner soon , maybe could volunteer to cal them to come down , yeah that should work, stay calm midoria stay calm it’ll all be just fine and dandy with them , but for now he should just enjoy ochako and Mina rambling to him about a show they are obsessed with while aizawa sensei cooks