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can't buy me love by amongtheshadows
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Jun 2026
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“And next up we have a one-on-one evening with the one and only Shane Hollander.” Hayden gestures towards him like he’s bringing out a car on a game show. “Spend an evening with Shane Hollander, my best friend and the greatest hockey player of the generation. Not to mention lifelong Ottawa sweetheart.”
“I’m going to kill you.” he whispers through his teeth as the crowd applauds, but also in the crowd, Ilya is glaring like he’s going to absolutely murder Hayden.
(or - hayden puts an evening with shane up for auction and ilya could not be less thrilled about it)
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- Part 10 of shane and ilya are (not) co-dependent
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Zoey lives in a sheltered evangelical Christian household where she is forced to be closeted until she is kicked out of the house for getting caught kissing another woman. Zoey moves to Seattle to fulfill her true academic dreams, where she meets Park Ranger Mira and Teacher Rumi. They each work at the park and discover various beasts in the national parks that the public can’t discover, as they’ll fulfill a biblical destiny to bring about the end of the world. They toggle between this world and their normal lives, and their ability to live their double lives wavers over time. They are also incredibly gay for each other, but because of growing up in a strict environment and their need to focus on maintaining the strictness and discipline of living a double life, Mira and Rumi are hesitant.
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all this blue by Yoursplural
Fandoms: 鬼滅の刃 | Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (Anime), 鬼滅の刃 | Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (Manga)
12 Jun 2026
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The claws are sharp and rough, splintering as they force their way into Giyuu's skin. Tanjiro's face is twisting in a way it shouldn't, in a way Giyuu didn't think possible. The demon blood, Muzans blood, is destroying him. Everything Tanjiro fought for, everything he believed in, is in tatters at his feet.
Or: Giyuu dies and gets reborn during his final selection. He isn't the only one.
[updates every Friday]
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- Part 1 of death blessed me (with you)
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He leans in and presses a quick, trembling kiss to Bunny’s head. It feels insane, leaving a goodbye on the forehead of a stuffed rabbit, but he does it anyway. His voice comes out rough and hoarse, barely air.
“Take care of him,” he whispers into fake fur.
If he brings Bunny with him, she’ll have to see. She’ll have to watch him turn himself into a corpse, rather than a living, breathing being who loves her more than anything else in this world. He can’t do that to her. Can’t do that to Frank, either—not the part that consists of watching him slip away at least.
If he dies, Frank should have Bunny and Bunny should have Frank. They deserve each other. They deserve a version of Anthony who didn’t drag them into his own personal sinkhole.
Anthony deserves neither.
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Anthony feels like he doesn't deserve to live. Frank disagrees.
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baby boy
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Suicidal anthony
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But Elliot made a crucial mistake, he may have killed his dad, but he did not kill Mecha Man.
Because the Mecha Man Armor was sitting in his dad’s garage right now, absent of a pilot to put it to use. People may be mourning that Mecha Man is dead, but they are also expecting a new Mecha Man to appear.
And this mantle falls to him to pick up.
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When Elliot Connors shot Robbie Robertson, Robert was only 11 years old. Instead of going to therapy or continuing schooling. Robert dedicates himself to becoming Mecha Man in his father’s absence. This leads to a 15 year old Robert being the Mecha Man that the SDN and Team Z will have the misfortune of dealing with.
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Essentially child soldier Robert. I love this, but it's probably not coming back :(
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back and forth from new york by alphalupi
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Apr 2026
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After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.
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Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.
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- Part 1 of back and forth from new york
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A continuation of Shane and Ilya's story post-Long Game.
Starting with Canada facing Russia in the 2026 Winter Olympics, and including all of the moments that come before and after that.
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- Part 1 of Visions from the Future
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The Other Option by AllieHollanov
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
15 Jun 2026
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Ilya. He is still sleeping fitfully in Irina’s bed, face crumpled and lips turned down. Irina leans over him and presses a single kiss to the crease between his eyebrows, and then leans back just enough to watch Ilya’s big, blue eyes blink open at her.
She holds a finger against her lips, waiting until Ilya nods before she straightens up and beckons him to get out of bed. When Ilya is standing, Irina helps him into a clean sweater, his coat, scarf, and hat. Ilya looks terribly confused, but allows himself to be dressed like a toddler, watching his mother curiously but without question. He is twelve years old, certainly old enough to dress himself, and maybe Grigory has a point when he insists that Irina coddles Ilya too much, but, good heavens, that face, how could she not?
It is not until Ilya notices the suitcase by the bedroom door that his expression changes. His eyes darken at first, and then his face screws up minutely, looking at Irina with thinly veiled horror.
“Be completely silent, solnyshko,” Irina breathes. “We have to go.”
Irina Rozanova chooses differently.
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Crawling back to you. by yourethemoon
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Jun 2026
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I want to wake up to you tomorrow. If you don’t want that, that’s okay, but give me my agency, Ilya. Believe me when I say I want you or let me try to pick up the pieces without you.
Five months ago, Ilya walked out of Shane’s life and their marriage. Shane has been trying to pick up the pieces. A late night phone call could either unravel everything or be the start of a new beginning.
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The Great Pretender by lady_st4rdus7
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Jun 2026
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Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.
The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.
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Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.- Language:
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Not Yours to Say by martha_sighs
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Mar 2026
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“You won’t say anything?” Ilya asked again.
Andrei unbuckled his seatbelt. “No, Ilya, I will not say anything.”---
Ilya’s estranged brother, Andrei, arrives unannounced.
Something breaks.
As Ilya unravels, Shane does everything he can to keep him from falling apart.
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a moonbeam in your hand by strange_ghost
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Feb 2026
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"We have newest member of the team with us today, as you all have seen.”
Shane glanced up again, watching as the captain gestured vaguely toward Shane without looking at him. “Shane Hollander.” The name came out of his mouth like it was laced with poison.
Shane became very aware of many eyes turning to him now. He felt a few claps on the back and tried to force a tight smile. But his eyes wandered back up to Ilya Rozanov, who was looking at him with so much quiet contempt, that Shane started to understand the phrase ‘if looks could kill.’
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OR: Ilya spirals into a deep depression when Shane breaks things off with him definitively after a horrifying run in with their feelings (and tuna melts).
They go no contact for close to a year until Shane is unexpectedly traded to Boston the following season.
Shane finds his new captain is a version of Ilya he's never seen before: dark, icy, and distant.
But their newfound proximity mixed with old feelings creates a complicated dynamic that they can't ignore forever.
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You have no energy to do anything today, not even getting out of bed. Thankfully they understood and let you take a day off.
A certain jester wants to see you again.
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“Lou?” he says, whispers. I hum, “Would it be easier…” he trails off, keeping his eyes trained in front of him.
I rest my head in the crook of his shoulder, pressing a fleeting kiss to his neck. “Would what be easier sweetheart?”
He takes an unsteady breath, “If we didn’t exist.”
Or: After watching Harry struggle for so long, Louis decides to take him away for a little while.
Title from Daylight by David Kushner
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- Part 3 of 1D One Shots
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“There’s something undeniably satisfying about making someone stronger than you kneel.”
Shane Hollander is an architecture professor who managed to build a successful career at a young age, all while carrying a past known only to those closest to him.
Ilya Rozanov, on the other hand, has been expelled from two universities thanks to his inability to stay out of trouble. now, his last chance at securing his inheritance depends on studying under Shane Hollander.
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One of Shane Hollanders worst nightmares is if his partner wont make it to his pregnancy labor, so what will happen when Ilya makes his worst nightmare come true?
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I Keep You Safe by ShutUpGwen
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Apr 2026
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How did he let this happen?
Shane's not sure.
One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's
gorgeoussweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...Well.
Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.
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Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.
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- Part 1 of Finding Family
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If it wasn't for that meddling kid by ARustySpork
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
30 May 2026
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If it wasn't for that meddling kid - ARustySpork