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    Ilya Rozanov-Hollander woke up on the sixth anniversary of the day he told his husband he loved him for the first time, and thought: I want Shane to fuck me.

    Shane, tucked under his arm and snoring softly into his armpit, warbled on unaware.

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    21 May 2026

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    Ilya knew, right from the very moment he met Shane Hollander, that he would never be good enough for him. He’d seemed so…pristine, when they first met. Untouched. And Ilya knew his unclean hands would only dirty him up. He’s always been selfish, though; his father used to tell him that.

    So it’s no surprise, really, that Shane has finally gotten tired of it. Of him, always needing more from Shane than he deserves - always begging for more than he has earned.

    Ilya would leave himself, too, if he could.

    (Or, five time Ilya thought Shane would leave, and one time he knew he wasn’t going anywhere.)

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    16 May 2026

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    “You are not broken, Ilya,” Terry says, sounding a little stern now. “I told you to keep an eye on the side effects. How long have you been experiencing this?”

    “Since last night.”

    “What?”

    “Since last night,” Ilya repeats. “Or afternoon, technically.”

    And Terry…Terry fucking laughs.

    Ilya is going to die, and Shane will be sad forever and Terry fucking laughs.

    “It hasn’t even been a day?” Terry clarifies, still chuckling. “Well, this could have nothing to do with the medication. It could just be an off day—”

    “Off day?” Ilya repeats incredulously. “Have you seen my husband? There are no off days with an ass like that.”

    OR: Ilya starts taking antidepressants only to realise it's fucking up his sex life. And, he acts totally very chill about it.

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    13 May 2026

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    Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart.

    The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

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    20 Apr 2026

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    Ilya swallowed audibly. “Maybe it will do nothing.”

    “Yes,” Shane said suddenly, like he hadn’t thought of the possibility. “You’re right, it’s…they’re probably just sugar pills. A placebo. They can’t legally sell anything more than that…right?”

    Or, Ilya receives a bottle of gas station erectile dysfunction pills as a birthday gag gift.

    Shane accidentally takes one. By accident. As a mistake.

    There are consequences.

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    15 Apr 2026