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  1. Public Bookmark 17

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    via NTBTS kinkmeme: "It's 17 years after the split of the band and either have spoken or seen each other in person. Matt and Jay meet up anonymously in a hookup app without either of them knowing who the other is. Maybe they exchange headless nudes and Jay can't quite put a finger on what's so familiar about the person he is talking (and jerking off) to."

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    06 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 19

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    The whiteboard is the catalyst, but it really isn’t. It tips over a series of dominoes that lead to Jay’s bedroom, get under his feet, and walk him out the door. But, in the morning after, when the whiteboard has that big, capital D ‘Don’t’ on it, and Matt won’t be honest about having written it, despite it clearly being his handwriting, the whiteboard isn’t the catalyst, because Matt gets up on the couch and erases it, and it’s almost like it wasn’t there to begin with.

    A retro/prospective on Jay McCarrol's fame.

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    30 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 41

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    Two key truths had remained constant for Jay McCarrol since his childhood: one, Matt was always there; and two, Jay had no real sense of direction in his life.

    On the rare occasions in which he had allowed himself to reflect on it, Jay had always ended up reaching the same conclusion: a change in number one must be the key to changing number two.

    After experiencing a timeline without Matt at his side and making the decision to go back to set things right, though, Jay realizes how much he values the life that they have together, and it finally occurs to him that maybe the purpose that he’s been searching for his whole life has been right there in front of him the entire time.

     

    Or, Jay decides to propose to Matt.

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    29 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 5

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    Jay is reading a book.

    Which isn’t anything, which doesn’t affect Matt in the slightest.

    It doesn’t matter if he looks really, really good. It’s not like Matt is going to break after decades of pushing his feelings away, just because of that. Right?

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    09 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 8

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    “I should quit and we could— I don’t know, do this all the time?” He opened his eyes and found Jay focused entirely on his mouth. “God, dude. What the fuck. You’re so pretty."

    “Someone’s gonna see us.” They couldn’t have been more in public unless they were splayed out over the car hood, dry humping for the whole of Ontario to come witness. It didn’t sound like much of a warning, nor did it seem like Jay wanted Doug to come to his senses and fight back against his shameless show of desperation. It was just something they both needed to be reminded of, the fact that the rest of the world existed around them and they weren’t alone in their little bubble, free to do whatever they wanted.

    “I don’t care.” The stick shift dug into Doug’s soft belly as he leaned over and crowded himself into the passengers seat as best as he could. The space was lacking and he wondered momentarily if he should have taken up the offer of a company car, if only now to have the space to fit himself against Jay like he wanted to be. “Do you?”

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    28 Apr 2026