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the long week by throughadoor
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
23 Feb 2026
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In between when Shane and Ilya return to their teams after getting benched and the start of the playoffs, there's still one more week of the regular season. During that week, there is therapy by proxy, a request for emotional support nudes, a romantic declaration about pizza toppings, a disagreement about who turned who gay and another disagreement about whether Montreal Voyageurs games are better than porn.
Ilya: Reporter got my number and is asking what I think about parliament trying to ban conversion therapy
Ilya: What the fuck is conversion therapy?Shane: No idea, maybe it's actually good my team won't let me talk to reporters
Ilya: Am googling this is evil shit. Lucky you didn't know about this you would have tried to send yourself before I finished converting you to my dick
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06 Jun 2026
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Trying to Forget Everything That Isn't You by OrYouCouldHaveMine
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
01 Mar 2026
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“Fuck, that’s good. You feel so good,” Shane moans above him.
He pulls him down again, and this time he holds him there, his hands firm on Ilya’s head. Instinctively, Ilya fights it, his throat spasming around the intrusion, and he tries to pull off, but Shane holds him there.
“Ah, ah. No. That’s not how you say it’s too much. You tap my leg, remember?”
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Immediate sequel to 'I Keep Telling Myself, I'm not the Desperate Type'
Stoner frat boy Ilya x cool, jock ShaneSeries
- Part 2 of Stoner Ilya
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03 Jun 2026
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Stranger: a/s/l
You: What?
Stranger: age sex location
You: Oh.
You: 24, Male, Canada
You: You?
Stranger: 24m usa
You: Do you like hockey?Bookmarked by poly_styrene
02 Jun 2026
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- Part 1 of HR Long(ish) Fics
- Part 2 of fucked up and evil
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- English
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- 6/?
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02 Jun 2026
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Something Borrowed / Something Blew by Fangirl_Shrieks
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 May 2026
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Shane is in the front pew. His face is—Ilya does not have words for what Shane's face is doing. He has seen Shane angry and afraid and exhausted and soft and undone. He has never seen this: living at the very bottom of a person, surfacing only when every single thing above it has given way.
This is what it looks like when Shane has nothing left to manage.
Ilya reaches for him.
His hand passes through air.
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Or: Ilya Rozanov turns the same age his mother was when she died. Featuring strange dreams, tarot readings, and a woman with her back to him who keeps appearing where she shouldn’t.
A man who spent twenty years preparing to die, and one husband who refuses to let him.
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02 Jun 2026
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You Deserve a Star by Icyhot_Kem
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Feb 2026
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“It's a sticker Hollander,” Rozanov says, arms crossed over his chest and it takes all of Shane’s willpower to keep the annoyance in his face directed at Rozanov and not looking down at where his arms are pulling tight across his chest.
“Do you need glasses to see it better?”
Shane huffs in exasperation before moving to turn around, mirroring Rozanov's stance and hitting him with a look.
“I know it’s a sticker asshole. Why is it on my face?”
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Ilya buys a little book of stickers and shane maybe looses his mind.- Language:
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22 May 2026
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In the Softness of You by Icyhot_Kem
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Mar 2026
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“You liked that didn’t you?” Shane said with a smug little expression on his face.
Really too many people called Ilya an asshole when Shane was just as bad, or worse. Shane just hid it better, because Canada’s perfect golden boy could do no wrong.
Ilya moved to cross his arms over his chest and lean back against the headboard, hating how it put even more space between them, but not being able to let Shane think he was right.
“I don’t know what you are talking about.”
“Sure you don't, baby.”
Ilya was definitely not starting to turn the slightest shade of red.
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Or: Ilya Rozanov learns he is in fact, Shane Hollander's baby.
Chapter 2: Everyone else in their lives learns he is too.- Language:
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22 May 2026
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book boyfriend by lanallite
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 May 2026
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finn @jjsvoyagos
I was scrolling on the tl and apparently some hockey romance novel is getting adapted?? And the streets are saying that the main character is sort of like shane hollander?> marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
please don’t mention riding the edge on voystwt, it’s a triggering subject for us all 😭> > finn @jjsvoyagos
?? i’m new here, pls explain the lore> > > marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
it’s a really weird smutty book that inadvertently sexualizes shane. the main guy is literally shane hollander with a different name. elite player, youngest captain in montreal franchise history, golden boy, half-japanese half-canadian, same exact personality and looks… idk even if the character is somehow not inspired by shane hollander, then it’s kind of suspicious how similar they are…> > > > finn @jjsvoyagos
Oh… that is weird as fuckor; a straight hockey romance becomes the biggest show on the planet. The internet is convinced (correctly) that the male lead is 100% based on Shane Hollander. Too bad almost no one knows Shane Hollander is gay.
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22 May 2026
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And yeah, Shane knew that Ilya hadn’t been okay last time he was in Russia, but Ilya had had the very real excuse of a funeral to blame things on. Ilya had downplayed it as much as he could, and Shane hadn’t been there, he’d heard the fatigue and he’d seen Ilya’s tired smile, but he hadn’t felt the way Ilya’s hands were cold the entire time he was there, hadn’t seen through the screen the way Ilya dropped eight pounds in three weeks, hadn’t kept time when there were twenty hours in Ilya’s day instead of something closer to sixteen. Or, on the flip side, for the week or two after, when there had been approximately ten conscious hours in a day.
It was one thing to see something. It was another to feel it in your hands.
Ilya and Shane are so, so happy for their first year married. They’re playing in Ottawa together, they’re fucking winning, they’re together and out.
So now, after a year, Ilya should be fine. He should be great. He should not be flinching at small noises or nearly punching people off the clock or feeling like he’s drowning whenever he’s not on the ice.
Or: Ilya Rozanov, meet your PTSD.
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19 May 2026
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One Hundred and Thirty-Eight New Messages by Fangirl_Shrieks
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Apr 2026
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Ilya is not going to do anything. He knows this. He's also standing very still.
He thinks about his mother's arm, hanging over the side of the bed. He was twelve. He'd thought she was sleeping.
He closes the cabinet.
The face in the mirror is someone he recognizes in the way you recognize a city you lived in as a child: the basic geography is familiar, but you can't find anything you're looking for.
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Or: A closer look at Ilya’s first year in Ottawa, set against his first in Boston—featuring a long-lost answering machine he claimed he’d never listen to, the family inevitably left behind when you move, and the mostly self-imposed pressure of loving a man as large and looming as the great Shane Hollander.
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17 May 2026
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Latex & Talking Points by sugarfreegingerale (pacificrainydays)
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jun 2026
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When Public Health Canada approaches Shane about being the face of a sexual health campaign targeted at queer men, Shane’s old fears bubble to the surface. He never wanted to be known as a gay activist but he is sick of feeling like he is letting his new-found community down as he tries to focus on his first season as an Ottawa Centaur. A new friendship with a PWHL star and the unswerving adoration of his husband Ilya help him navigate questions of guilt, identity and what we owe each other, all while he tries to win another damn cup.
Part of a series but can be read alone.
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- Part 3 of bad at being gay
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16 May 2026
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baby, you're not the only one by throughadoor
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Apr 2026
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After they came out, Shane was ready for people to be weird.
It was weird with other guys in the league, weird with reporters, weird with angry fans who thought his relationship had tanked their fantasy teams and their sports betting parlays, weird with sponsors and their very enthusiastic pride campaign pitches, weird on all the social media that he avoided like the plague.
What he hadn't expected was for things to be so fucking weird with other gay people.
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- English
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15 May 2026
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a history by laundry (lovesjar)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Dec 2025
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Shane opens his eyes and tears spill onto his pillow and into Ilya’s hand. He has that apologetic stare again. He says, “Love you.”
“Nothing in the world could make me stop loving you,” Ilya says. “Do you understand?”
With hesitation, his eyes darting around, Shane breathes out, “I understand.”
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- Part 1 of hard times
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22 Apr 2026
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Growing Sideways by BriefExhalation
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Jun 2026
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“Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”
“How bad is it?”
“Shane, please.”
“Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”
He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”
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After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?
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- English
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20 Apr 2026
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World on Your Shoulders by Latigra
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
22 Feb 2026
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Shane's new rookie is blackmailed by a previous (male) hook up, which is something that he can handle. This won't ruin his line for the season.
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- English
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- 1/1
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18 Apr 2026
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Please don't leave (I won't ever) by 17darwinism
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Mar 2026
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“What did you actually think?”
He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”
“Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.
Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”
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Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.Series
- Part 2 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
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- English
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- 33,429
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16 Apr 2026
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a place between by Thementalistlover2013
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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Ilya crumpled against Shane. Outside, the lake was black glass. A bat cut across the moon again, quick and gone.
“She would like this place,” Ilya murmured softly, sniffling and failing to smile. “Quiet. No shouting. No boots.” His voice dropped. “She would love you.”
Shane pressed his mouth to Ilya’s hair, careful, reverent. “You are so beautiful, Ilya. So perfect. Your mother was right. I know she loved you so much because I can see her in you.” Ilya whimpered softly, eyes closing and lashes fluttering against his cheeks.
(They make it to the cottage but Ilya's got a lot of unresolved trauma and wakes Shane up in the throes of a nightmare. In the quiet of their cottage they work through some of it).
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“You’re my good boy, aren’t you, Ilya?” Shane’s voice was soft and deep. He loved watching how Ilya reacted-biting his own lip and closing his eyes, a tear spilling down as his thrusts became erratic. Ilya was a really emotional person and, deep down, wanted to be told he was good, even if he would deny himself it.
“Please, please, please l-let me.” Ilya mumbled out, words heavily accented and wet as he gasped for air.
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15 Apr 2026
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pretty (kind of dirty face) by angeluvxx
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Apr 2026
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Shane Hollander, a well booked, in demand model is back for the summer for a well deserved break. It was all going so well until his car decides to break down. Unsure of what to do, he calls the first garage he can find, not expecting to meet the most infurtiating, aggravating and beautiful man he had ever seen.
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Shane's a brat who is used to getting what he wants, Ilya Rozanov doesn't give into a pretty face that easy.
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15 Apr 2026
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Shane and Ilya are different behind closed doors.
A multi POV fic that allows other characters to get a glimpse behind the wall.- Language:
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14 Apr 2026
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Shane’s fingertips lazily trace down the middle of his back, and then tap their way back up. Ilya wants to die here.
“If you could be any animal,” Shane asks, yawning in the middle of the sentence, “what animal would you be?”
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13 Apr 2026