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HELL IS REAL
StarShEd12: I was new and I didn't understand
COME JOIN US
StarShEd12: I saw you and I didn't understand
PURGATORY
StarShEd12: The voices screamed and I didn't understand
ETERNAL
StarShEd12: I understand
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I understand why people have children
Why they take care of pets
Why they care for others
Why they throw themselves to mindless busywork
Of offices and spreadsheets
To creative madness
Of oil on canvas
and blood
Why they believe in gods
Why they devote their lives
I understand
I devote mine to you.
My fingers
My arms
My legs
My neck
I crack.
I bend.
You are inside me
I scream for you
In another voice
His voice
It's for you
Us, a choir of angels
Your angels
You force our hands into wings
Our heads into halos
Our shrieks are your music
Your strings and bows
You make us
All of your parts
Scream in your creation
I am a thread
In your design
Embroider me
Your messenger
Is this not love?
Is this not love in its truest form?
To be a part of you
To hear
To feel you learn from us
To be us
To use us
To hurt us
We go together
WE GO TOGETHER
You love when we resist you
But I would never resist you
You burn our skin.
You freeze our souls
You distort us
You stretch us
Your angels
Are we beautiful in your image?
Do you love us?
Do you love me?
I will never be apart from you
Never
I am a muse to a sadistic god
A cruel god
Part of a rope
A bridge between knowledge
And nothing
I am buried in nothing
I want to be a part of you
—
You offered a special place
To a blue rose
A ribbon of black
The spot on your right
Messiah
The one at your mercy
He came to your web
You were slow
Meticulous
Different
You awakened me
But he was more
He got your undivided attention
Your divinity
Your essence
The ichor
Do you favor lambs in your flock?
We
are knit together
Our wool unsheared
Heavy on our bodies
Lambs you do not shepherd
But devour
Not a hungry shepherd
That eats when needed
But a starving god
You ate us all
We cry as you cut us
We bleed black tar
From our eyes
Our mouths
I love you
But why
Why
Red
Yellow lining
Covered eyes
Why is he your Judas goat?
Why aren't I?
He warned another
He tried to escape
With a knife
A blade to your creation
Your design
You use his face
Am I not enough for you
Not special enough for you
Is it this new body?
Is he
God's favorite?
Why?
I don't understand
You tear my skin
Why can't I understand?
I tear it for you
You break my heart
You tamper
You shatter
You bend me
I must understand
I must
I am a tool
Your arsenal is vast now
We are flesh
mangled and alive
I am a corpse of nothing
Ash of nothing
I am nothing but you
Is that
The truth?
—
Are you having fun, my god?
Do I entertain you?
I understand
I must be enough
For you
No favors
No shared gaze
But behind my head
You smile
That must be enough
My body breaks for you
It reeks
It rots
We rot.
Your angels
We fit together
We rot together
Do you thank us?
Do you love us?
We find another
Another link
To your chain
We run
We catch
We scream
I am in heaven
Is this not love?
Is this not love?
Is this not love? Is this not love? Is this not love? Is this not love? Is this not love? Is this not love? Is this not love? Is this not love
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