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An Older Version Of Me

Summary:

Sam goes on a journey to gather scattered pieces of himself. When he’s down to the last one, he realizes all that’s left is his soulless past… and it looks like you beat him to it.

Notes:

Takes place during S6 “The Man That Knew Too Much” but also heavily inspired by the song “You Oughta Know” by Alanis.

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Sam ran through the woods, occasionally hopping over large pieces of branches. He lays his back against a tree while catching his breath. In the far distance he hears you shouting, calling out for him.

 

The Winchester began running again until he stopped at a small cabin. He crept up slowly to the door and peered into the window. There you were, laid out on the bed in bra and underwear smiling at something Sam couldn’t see. 

 

The figure entered Sam’s view but their back was facing him. There was something oddly familiar about the man standing in front of you… shirtless with a toned back, shaggy brown hair.

 

He watched as your lips said “Come here.” The brother inched closer to the window watching the figure walk over and pin you to the bed. Sam slammed open the door and the figure turned. It was the soulless version of himself. 

 

Your eyes snapped between the two Sams. They were exactly the same but yet completely different in the way they carried themselves. Your Sam, stood there out of breath and you could hear the million thoughts running through his brain. 

 

The soulless version was calm and collected. He smirked at you and his soulful counterpart. The only thought on his mind was how well this could turn out for all three of you. “You’re late you know…”

 

Sam’s brows furrowed trying to process everything quick enough for a proper response. “This… this isn’t happening…” The soulless version shrugged. “No, not exactly but… it feels completely real.” He caressed Sam’s cheek and he flinched at his touch. 

 

Soulless Sam turned his gaze back to you. “We were just about to get started without you…” His lips formed a smirk and he walked over to you. Placing his lips against yours, this version of Sam kissed you differently too, slower and more sensual. 

 

Your Sam watched the way he kissed you, his soulless self teasing your lips with his, pulling away making you crave more of him. Tearing yourself away from him, you called out to Sam, breathlessly. “Sam… come here.” 

 

There he stood at your side, resting his hand on your arm. “I heard you yelling…” Nodding, you responded best as you could as your boyfriend’s soulless version of himself began kissing your neck. “When we got separated, I was calling out for you… I was lost but then I found you, well… him, I mean.” 

 

Soulless Sam peered his eyes up at him, his face a breath away from your neck. “She was so glad to see me… wouldn’t let go. Isn’t that right?” He placed another wet kiss against your collarbone and you nodded. “Mhm.”

 

He was aware all of this was happening in his head… no matter how real it felt. If Sam was going to wake up to the real world, he needed to know all the parts of himself that he’s hid away for so long… including his soulless past. 

 

It was an out-of-body experience watching a version of himself kiss and touch you. Something ignited inside the deepest part of Sam that he couldn’t quite explain, nor wanted to at first. 

 

The other version of him pulled himself away from you and looked up. “I know what you’re feeling… I am you… you know that right?” Sam stood quiet but his other half continued. “Don’t be ashamed to say it out loud… it’s all in your head isn’t it?” 

 

The Winchester combed his hair with his fingers deep in thought. His soulless version rolled his eyes then looked back at you. “He wants to watch you get fucked.” Sam’s eyes widened. “That’s not what I want!”

 

Your brows rose and watched your boyfriend’s expressions carefully. The other version of him laughed and corrected himself. “Not by just anyone of course, but he’s always wondered what it’d be like to watch you get off during sex just by knowing he’s there. Not pleasing you physically… just from his own presence.” 

 

“That’s a gross way to put it…” Sam gruffed. “It’s more of a meaningful climax… yes you’re getting fucked physically… but more so coming just because he’s watching.”

Said his soulless other half, hand rubbing against your hip. 

 

Sam pushed away your hair that fell across your face. As he attempted to apologize for his shameful desires, the perverted version of himself groaned. “I’m sick of waiting. Let me show you how you should be pleasing her.” 

 

Sam’s soulless self kissed you passionately as his hand unclipped your bra. Breaking apart the kiss, he focused his lips onto your nipple, sucking on your breast while rubbing the other with his freehand. 

 

You tossed your head back and ran your hands across his back. He popped his mouth off of you and kissed the valley of your breasts. Pushing them together and motorboating you while he rolled his hips over your crotch. 

 

Lifting his head up, he smiles with a devilish grin and slowly takes off your underwear with the hook of his fingers. You look up at Sam who stood there mesmerized. He had always thought about how you look beneath him from a third part perspective but was not comfortable with the idea of another guy involved. This was his only exception.

 

It wasn’t that you and Sam didn’t experiment in the bedroom, you’ve had a couple of talks with him about trying new things. Sam was always down as long as you felt 100% comfortable. Safewords for new things were a major part in having sex with Sam, mainly just for you to make sure he doesn’t hurt you. 

 

You head snapped back to your boyfriend’s other half as you felt his breath against your pussy. He smirked. “Focus on me baby.” Slowly, he placed tongue up your folds and your breath hitched. Gripping your thighs for support, soulless Sam got right to work and began teasing your clit with his tongue. 

 

Sam jeans felt tighter and before he knew it, his button was undone and his hand was hidden in his briefs. He quickly looks down at himself and you call out to him. “Sam… don’t be ashamed. I really… fuck.” 

 

Tossing your head back, you let out a moan and grab a handful of the other Sam’s hair. He looks up from between your thighs and grins. Taking a look back at Sam, he let out a chuckle. “Doesn’t it feel good Sammy?” 

 

The Winchester tightened his jaw and kept a steady pace of jerking himself off. The other version of him smiled and turned back to you. “Why don’t we put on a little show for him, huh?” 

 

He takes off his jeans and briefs, slowly stroking himself. You crawl over towards him, moving your hair out of the way. “Let me take care of that for you.” A devilish grin plastered over his face as you began kissing the tip on his cock. 

 

Your tongue swirled around the tip and you licked him from the base to his head, then slowly took him into your mouth. As you began to pick up the pace on his cock, Sam’s other half’s breath staggered and he grabbed a fistful of your hair to move you faster. 

 

Just before Sam intervened, he noticed how you moaned louder and your movements became more fluid. Maybe he could pick up a thing or two. The way your eyes looked up at him, well the soulless version of him, made a pool of arousal fill his stomach. 

 

Sam began stroking his cock faster and letting himself become slightly more audible. “Mhm.” The other half of him smiled and raised his brows. “Looks like you’re finally enjoying yourself.” Sam nodded, his eyes still tied to you with him down your throat. 

 

You took him out of your mouth with a pop noise escaping your lips. He pinned you down into the bed with your head pushed against the pillow, arms behind your back. “Does he ever fuck you right baby?” Looking up at your boyfriend, Sam, you nodded. “Always.”

 

The soulless version laughed. “You know, he’s always wanted to try this with you but… he never had the guts to try it. Poor Sammy.” With no warning, he shoves the tip on his cock into your tight hole and you wine. He grits his teeth and slowly enters you deeper with each thrust. 

 

The pornographic moans, sound of skins slapping against each other, your eyes in pure ecstasy… Sam was in a stimulation overload. Pumping himself faster, he could feel the tug in his groin… he was going to come soon. 

 

Sam quickly tugged off his jeans and briefs, then walked to the foot of the bed. “I need her…now.” His other half laughed. “I was wondering when you were gonna break.” He steps away and Sam flips you over. You buck your hips. “Sam, baby, I need you.”

 

Breathlessly, he nodded. “I’m right here baby.” Sam pushed his cock inside you and he let out a much needed moan. Your pussy clenched around him like a reflex and it wasn’t long before the two of you were reaching your high point. “Sam… I’m…” His hands firmly held your hips. “Me too.”

 

With a few more thrusts, Sam bucked his hips one last time and pulled out. Covering you in his spending across your stomach and chest. The other version of your boyfriend leaned over you and began licking the come off of you. 

 

His eyelids were low and predator-like making your breath hitch. You felt your lips quiver at the sight of him. Normally, Sam would never make you nervous but this wasn’t exactly the Sam you knew. 

 

Soulless Sam chuckles and turns to his counterpart. “Why don’t you tell her what you’re thinking of?” Sam turns away, his cheeks rosy. You peer up at him and cup his face. “What’s the matter Sam?”

 

He takes a deep breath and then places a gentle kiss on your hand. “I wanna try something else…” You sit up and whisper in his ear. “Go for it.” Sam turns your head and kisses you passionately down into the mattress. 

 

His soulless half already knew what Sam was planning and started teasing your sensitive clit. You moaned into Sam’s mouth as you felt a familiar pair of fingers circling you. Slowly removing his hands away from your pussy, soulless Sam sat you up and began leaving sloppy kisses on the left side of your cheek and your Sam doing the same on the right side of you. 

 

It was complete heaven. One Sam does the job but two? It was enough to make you come again. Your Sam teased one breast with his free hand while the other played with your pussy. Thrusting much faster and bringing you closer and closer to your own high. 

 

Sam…” The two pulled away from kissing you. “Which one?” They said in unison. You could feel your own climax within reach but you needed more friction than just this. “Almost there…” 

 

Your Sam nodded and positioned your pussy to his cock. His hand gripped your thighs as he thrust into you slowly. The other version of him was behind you groping your breasts and teasing your nipples. 

 

Soon Sam’s speed picked up as he felt your pussy clench around him. You wined as you felt him throb inside you for release and when you felt it coming, you arched your back off of the mattress with a loud moan escaping the two of you. He fell next to you on the bed out of breath. “I love you.” 

 

“I love you too.” You smiled, taking his hand and placing a small kiss against his knuckles. The soulless version of him snapped his fingers and you were gone along with the bed and the room itself. 

 

Sam found himself back in the woods fully clothed, his counterpart staring him down. Before he could ask any questions, his soulless half answered for him. “You know it was never real right?”

 

It was silent but he continued. “But it sure felt real didn’t it?” He glanced at Sam’s bulge in his jeans. “You have to accept that part of yourself with her.” 

 

“But what if she doesn’t…” his other half shook his head. “You’ll never know until you talk about it.” 

 

When Sam opens his eyes again, you’re standing over him cupping his face. “Sam are you alright?” He slowly sits up and realizes he’s in the bunker. “Yeah… I’m alright.”

 

You brush the bangs out of his face and Dean raises his brows. “You sure made a lot of happy noises while you were out… What were you doing?”

 

Sam’s cheeks reddened and he swallowed hard. “Wasn’t dreaming of anything in particular…” Dean chuckles and you roll your eyes. “Don’t listen to him, I’m just glad you’re okay.”

 

The younger Winchester smiles and kisses you on the cheek. “I love you.” You returned the kiss and nodded. “I know… I love you too Sam.”

 

 When Dean left the room, you whispered in his ear. “Can I hear about that special dream now?” Sam chuckled and shook his head. “I’ll tell you in bed.”