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Josh didn't normally go to loud and obnoxious gay clubs. He was the type of guy who would stay at home, put on a movie, and swipe through an app until he gave up. He lived in a small town in Ohio. There wasn’t much to do in the area, but when there was a place to go, it was always packed. It was especially packed that day because it was the “Half-Off Thursday” after the Fourth of July, so it was “America” themed. 

 It was the day before a crucial interview. Brendon convinced him to go out and get out his jitters before he became part of the corporate machine. Josh was pretty sure he could go out to a club no matter what job he had. But Brendon was convinced that no one would want to sleep around with an actuary. He said that most gay men wouldn’t know what that even was. 

Once Brendon had an idea, he was not one to give up on it. Brendon swore up and down that he could figure out a way to get Josh to have fun. Josh thought otherwise. There was an important rerun tonight that he did not want to miss. The odds of him having fun were higher if he was just allowed to relax on his own couch. 

But there he was, covered head to toe in glitter, staring at a glass filled with brown liquid. He had no one was sitting next to him. It was like the crowd had sensed his vibe and decided he wasn't worth it. 

Brendon had already found someone to take to the bathroom. He hated being left alone in loud, and public places like this. He wore something simple to the club. The most "club-like" attire he had was an orange, striped button up shirt that he tucked into a pair of jean shorts. He also allowed Brendon to slick back his usually messy black, curly hair because it "looked sexier and guys liked it more." 

Josh felt out of place amongfrom everyone else. They all looked like they were having the time of their life. It wasn't Josh's scene and Brendon knew it and forced him to go anyway. 

Josh was a different person than when he was younger. He used to be more into the emo scene. But he was forced to grow up and change his look once he got out of college. He would have loved this back then. But he was thirty-seven now. 

He was stuck with his gauges, and he was stuck with his lip ring hole. Those he had to keep. They made him seem at least a little more interesting than what he had become. He wore glasses and he dressed more plainly than he used to. Josh was practically unrecognizable from what he used to be. He had to grow up, and he dealt with it. 

He could see his mother's face now. She always begged Josh to let her take him to find a nice wife. She knew he was gay. She had even told him a few times that she accepted and loved him for it. She just thought that he hadn't found the right girl yet. Josh knew it was just because she wanted grandchildren. She would also tell him that sitting at home was not going to solve any of his problems. She would hate that he was going to a club, but at least it would get him out of his apartment. 

He was already thirty-seven and still single. He never kept a relationship for longer than a few months, and sex was minimal. He could count on one hand the amount of times he had spontaneous sex the same way that Brendon did. Josh enjoyed sex as much as any other man he knew. However, he was awful at initiating anything. He never went out, and he hated the apps made specifically for sex. 

Josh hadn’t always been  like this. Maybe if he had met the right person at the right time, things would’ve  been a little different. But he didn’t. 

The longest "relationship" he had was with Brendon. The two had a mutual agreement to never sleep with each other after their many failed attempts. He was okay with that, Brendon was not his type at all. He partied too often. Josh had no idea how he had the time to do everything he did. But the two were roommates. Their living situation worked perfectly because Brendon would be out all night, and Josh would be asleep by the time he brought a guy home. They'd usually spend afternoons and dinners together before going their separate ways. Josh didn't see the need to find a partner if he already had a good life. 

He turned his head toward the crowd on the dance floor. There were men wearing next to nothing grinding against each other. Their cares were out the window. To those people, the only important thing was the moment. Josh wished he could join them. He would’ve been like that when he was younger. 

"Josh! What are you doing!" Brendon came over to him and slapped him hard on the back, “I thought we came here for you to get some. You can’t get a guy by sitting here. You should at least be dancing.”

"I'm having a drink." Josh responded, "You seem like you’ve had one too."

"I'm always having a drink." Brendon laughed and sat in the empty seat, "I just got my ass blown out by a dude wearing cat ears and a tail. Isn't that insane?" 

"That's great to hear." Josh raised an eyebrow and shook his head.

“What?” Brendon frowned. 

“You’re so much,” Josh laughed, “I’m fine where I am. I’m having fun enjoying the scene and listening to the music.”

“Josh, I just got fucked in my ass by a guy and that is the gayest thing I’ve ever heard.” Brendon motioned to the bartender to get him a drink.

“I’m not made for this. I’m sorry. You drag me here, this is what you’re going to get.” Josh sipped through the little straw in his glass.

“You need to loosen up, baby.” Brendon wiggled his body, “maybe you need more than a sad little drink.”

“I am not taking acid. Not after what happened to me last time.” Josh sipped his drink faster. Brendon was annoying when he was out and drunk. 

“I was going to suggest Molly but that’s okay. I knew it would be a no anyway.” Brendon grabbed his drink from the bartender, “You’re also not going to get anything dressed like that. I told you that you could borrow my clothes. The people in this place don’t want to fuck a guy with an orange button up.”

“What? My clothes are fine.” Josh frowned.

“If you want to think that.” Brendon handed the drink he got to Josh, “Now, I want you to take this drink and walk somewhere else. You’re not allowed to sit here anymore. Something about your aura is people repellant. If you talk to a few people, I’ll be happy.”

“You sound like my mom.” 

“I take that as a compliment. She’s a wonderful woman,” Brendon winked, “Get up! Don’t force me to be your wingman!” He acted as though he did not want to be Josh’s wingman. But Josh knew better. He would not rest until he helped his best friend. 

“I’m getting up.” Josh sighed and got out of the chair. He turned around and looked around the room. The crowd blended together in a mosh of bright colors and sweaty skin. He did not want to step into that crowd. Josh was fine sitting in his chair where it was comfortable and he didn’t have to be around a bunch of strangers. People could come to him if they really needed to. 

“Look. There’s more than just the dance floor. There are a few private lounge areas that you can look around in. I can’t promise you that people won’t be naked in them though.”
“Why did you have to bring me to the horniest club in town? You know that I can’t talk to people in situations like this.” Josh fixed the part of his shirt that started to wrinkle up. 

“Please. Drink your drink and just go. I promise you, there are plenty of men who will grind up with you. I ended up meeting my kitty guy because I just went up to him and danced with him. He asked me to go to the bathroom and I said yes. Here, take my condoms.” Brendon took a few condoms out of his pocket and gave them to Josh. 

“I’m surprised you could keep more than one in those tiny pockets of yours. I’m surprised your privates don’t fall out of them.” Josh laughed and sipped his drink. It was overly sweet and pumped full of alcohol. 

“Oh, you would be surprised what can fit in these pockets.” Brendon smirked, “I don’t need them anyway. I already fucked around tonight. Now I’m on the case to get you some tail.”

“I really don’t need your help. I don’t want to have sex just because. I told you I was having fun sitting by myself. If I find someone, I’ll find someone,” Josh looked down at his feet.

“You’re literally being a buzzkill.” Brendon whined.

“I am not. We’re just two different guys. You like to go to clubs and have sex with strangers. I like to sit at home, read, watch TV, and scroll through Pinterest. You can’t make me act like you.” Josh sighed. 

“Hold on. Let me go find you someone. Do not move from this spot. I know a guy,” He completely ignored Josh’s words. Brendon slapped his back again as he ran off without another word. 

“Oh my God. Please stop,” Josh let out a loud groan. He glanced around the giant room again. He could not do this anymore. Maybe ten years ago, but not anymore. He finished off the last few sips of his drink and stood up. 

He made his way through the crowd as best as he could to find the exit. If Brendon was going to try to force him to go out of his comfort zone, he was just going to leave. He pushed a few guys aside and made sure not to rub anyone the wrong way. The room was so loud and confusing that Josh couldn’t figure out where the room ended. The bright lights blending with the silhouettes of men made him dizzy. 

There wasn’t a single space  in the entire club that could help Josh find peace. He just kept walking straight until he found a wall. He put his hands against the cold brick wall and moved sideways until he found the exit. He ignored any glances made in his direction. 

Josh texted Brendon to let him know that he’d made his way out. He just could not do it anymore. 

Brendon was his ride. 

He sighed in defeat. 

Josh looked around to try to figure out what he should do. He hated this. He hated this place and he hated Brendon for convincing him to come here. He wasn’t the most social person on the planet. Josh felt himself start to hyperventilate. He was drunk, out of his comfort zone, and tired. He could have been doing so many better things. 

He eventually decided to find an empty space against the wall outside to calm himself down. There were people around, but Josh could deal with a few random people. He walked over to the wall and started to pace to himself so he could decide what he was going to do. 

Walk home? Get an uber? 

Why did he let Brendon drive him anyway when he knew Brendon would get fucked up?

“Hey. Are you doing okay?” A man asked. He was leaning against the brick wall with a cigarette in his mouth. He was the same height as Josh, skinny, and he had short messy brown hair. The top of his hair was very fluffy and stuck out everywhere. He seemed so casual but uptight at the same time. He was wearing a black tank top, black shorts, and red socks that went up to his knees. It was certainly a fashion choice. 

He also had a lot of black and blocky tattoos. 

“I’m fine.” Josh shrugged.

“You look disheveled,” He let out a drag. 

“I’m okay. My friend dragged me here and I decided it was too overwhelming for me.” 

“First time?” The man laughed to himself, “I was the same when I was younger. This place can eat you alive.” 

“It sure can. My friend, Brendon, comes here almost every night. He thinks I can get used to it easily. But I never go out.” Josh explained.

“Brendon? Loud, black-haired white guy?” He asked, “I think I’ve made out with him before. I might have even given him a handy too. I can’t keep track of what I do in this place when I have too many drinks in me. But if it’s the right guy, horrible dick.”

“I wouldn’t be surprised. Not because I know anything about you, but I’m sure he’s done something with everyone in this club.”

“Is he your boyfriend?” The man took another hit. 

“No. God, no,” Josh laughed, “He’s my roommate. We’ve tried, but it just never worked out. We’re not compatible romantically or sexually.” 

“Makes sense. You’re too cute for him,” the man smiled, “I usually come out here for a smoke. I can only handle being inside there for like twenty minutes at a time. Otherwise, I get overwhelmed and start acting like a total weirdo.”

“You don’t seem like you’d be a weirdo.” Josh said. 

“You’d be surprised. It’s a great place to unwind if you’ve had a bad day at work. Sometimes I have this pent up energy I can only get out in stressful places like this.” He shrugged and took one more hit. 

“Which is probably every day.” Josh teased.

“Yes! Exactly! Fuck my job.” The man laughed, “Looking at you, I bet you work an office job, right?”
“Yes. I work in sales right now. I finally decided to go chase after my dream job. That’s why we’re here.”

“Oh. I see. Your friend wanted you to come here to have fun before work takes you over? But he doesn’t understand that you can still come here after work?” The man raised his eyebrows.

“Yes. Exactly.” Josh laughed harder. “Down to every detail.”

“I’ve been in the same situation. I’m good at assessing people and things. My ex-girlfriend did the same thing to me. Sucks to be her, because I still come here all the time despite having an extremely demanding job. I get more action from guys here than I did with her anyway,” The man finished his cigarette and mashed it against the wall.

“That’s fun.” Josh wasn’t sure what else to say to this guy. “And now, I’m stuck out here. It’s too overwhelming there, and Brendon was my ride. He said he was going to find me a guy to have sex with, but I ran away before he could bring me one of his friends. I think I’m just going to hang out here and hope it’s not too long.”

“Oh. That sucks major balls. We do not have a public transit safe city. You’re going to be stuck out here all night. Although, I think you’re more likely to find a guy out here that you’d actually want to spend the night with than you would in there. A nice, calm, and collected guy seems like your type. Your glasses give it away.” 

“Yup. At least I found one person here who was normal enough to talk to me for a few minutes,” Josh leaned back against the wall next to the man.

“I’m glad I was here for you in your difficult time. But trust me, I am not really the calm and collected type of guy.” His eyes flutter slightly at Josh. 

“Are you planning on staying out here for a bit?” Josh wasn’t sure why he was asking this. He probably just needed some kind of person to cling to while he was stuck outside.
“I wasn’t planning on staying past my cigarette, but I can stay out here for you. You look like you’ll have a breakdown if you have to go back inside.” The guy moved away from the wall more and stepped closer to Josh. 

“Yeah, I probably would. I have no clue how long he’s going to take in there. He’s probably having sex with a stranger in the bathroom again like he usually does.” Josh’s heart jumped a bit when the man stepped closer to him. 

“Sounds like every guy in here. We’re always looking for someone to take to the bathroom. Call me Tyler.” Tyler jokingly stuck his hand out. Josh just looked at him and shook it. Tyler laughed louder than he should have. 

“Josh.” He peered at Tyler. 

“Cool, Josh. Sounds like a good name. Fits you. Do you want to just go in my car?”

“For what?” Josh asked nervously. He couldn’t explain why, but Tyler intimidated him. 

“So I can suck you off.” Tyler chuckled, “You’re hot. It’s late, I’m bored, we’re both drunk, and I’m sure you’d rather do that than stand here waiting for your roommate to finish up in the bathroom.” 

“Oh, sure.” Josh could not believe how quickly he said that. He hated casual sex. But Tyler was right. What else was he going to do?  At least Tyler seemed more normal than everyone else he saw there. Brendon was right. He needed to calm down before his big interview.

“Sure? Damn, most people would be a little more excited to get a blowjob.” Tyler laughed again. 

“You’re right. Let’s go,” Josh nodded. 

“I bet you don’t do this usually.” Tyler smirked, “Don’t worry, I’ll do all the work.”

“I don’t think that would be entirely fair. I can give you a blowjob too. I’ve done that plenty of times.” Josh shook his head. 

Tyler took his head, “Nonsense. I’m a giver. I don’t take anything in return. Just getting to have a cock in my mouth is good enough for me.”

They walked across a parking lot to a black, massive, and expensive looking SUV. 

Tyler leaned against the driver’s door. He licked his lips and stared at Josh in the eyes. Josh stood in front of him awkwardly. He had never done anything like this with someone he had just met. He didn’t know Tyler's style or how quickly he wanted to move it along.

Tyler laughed and rolled his eyes at Josh. 

“You don’t have to feel awkward,” Tyler put a hand on Josh’s chest, “I can tell you don’t get out much.” Tyler pulled Josh down by the collar so their lips could meet. 

Josh kissed back and placed his hands on Tyler's hips. They made out against the door, Josh’s blood rushing downstairs already. The kiss got hungrier and more intense by the minute. He tightened his grip on Tyler as he slipped his tongue through his lips. Tyler shoved his tongue back against them, not giving Josh the chance to breathe. 

It was very sloppy for Josh’s tastes, but he was surprising himself already. He could see himself flipping Tyler over and fucking him against this car. Something about this stranger made the butterflies in his stomach threaten to fly out. 

Tyler turned his head to the side, “Let’s get inside the car so we don’t get in trouble. I could get on my knees if I wanted, but I can’t afford an indecent exposure charge right now. I need your cock in my mouth.” He bit his lip and let out a sharp breath.

“Okay.” Josh pressed his lips against Tyler's neck. He wasn’t used to being talked to like that, and it was turning him on. He started to pepper kisses on him. Josh licked up to Tyler’s chin and then kissed his lips again. Tyler laughed into the kiss and pushed him back slightly.

“I told you. Get in the dang car.” He slipped away from Josh’s grip and opened the back door. 

“Yes, of course.” Josh backed into the car, “How do you want me positioned?” 

“Whatever makes you comfortable.” 

Josh leaned back against the door. He made sure to lock the door behind him. Tyler crawled inside and got on top of him, connecting their lips again as he ran both of his hands through Josh’s hair. Josh slid his hands down Tyler's back and cupped his ass. 

Tyler moved one of his hands down Josh’s chest. He stopped at the band of his shorts. He started to suck hard on Josh’s neck as he slipped his hand into his pants.

“Damn. You’re hard already.” Tyler moaned into his ear and nibbled on the lobe. He started to stroke him in his pants, keeping a desperate pace. Josh moaned and leaned his head back against the glass. He could tell that Tyler had experience in handling cocks - it was as if it came to him naturally. He knew exactly how to make Josh squirm, unraveling him already at such a small touch. 

“Take it as a compliment.” Josh let out a breathy laugh. 

Now, Tyler was practically panting into Josh’s ear as he sped up his hand. 

“I am.” Tyler said as he moved his lips back to Josh’s. He wasted no time before he shoved his tongue down Josh’s throat in a disgusting manner. Tyler finally pulled Josh’s pants and boxers down so he could stroke him easier. Josh moaned again, letting his hands wander aimlessly on Tyler’s back. 

He needed to feel Tyler's lips on his cock. It wasn’t so much a need as it was: ‘I am going to explode if I don’t feel your mouth right now.’  The night was already better than he was expecting - all Josh wanted was the small chance to have fun. Now, Josh was feeling desperate and needy. He was melting in the palm of this stranger’s hands and he only knew him for a half hour. 

Tyler pulled away from their kiss and shimmied himself down. He pressed his lips against the top of Josh’s cock. He spit on the tip and continued to stroke him. 

“You know. Your dick isn’t that big, but it sure is pretty.” He licked from the base to the head, “Just letting you know, I’m used to having cocks in my mouth. You do not need to worry about hurting me. I want you to use my mouth like it was your pillow.” 

“O-Okay,” Josh moaned. He was never one to be dominant in bed despite being a top. It was one way that sex never worked out with Brendon. He wanted men who were mean to him. He wanted his face shoved against the wall, his ass to be bruised, and his neck to be choked. Josh was not that type of guy. However, something about the way Tyler looked at him provoked the worst instincts in him. 

Tyler took Josh’s cock in his mouth. He started to bob his head, swirling his tongue and keeping his eyes locked on Josh’s. Josh spread his legs a bit, getting himself grounded more. 

Something in Josh was clawing at his insides as he watched the man’s eyes tear up slightly. 

All his cock was telling him to do was grip Tyler's hair and fuck his mouth until he was gagging. He wanted to make Tyler his cockwhore, and use him whenever he pleased. Tyler looked like he would be so good for Josh, so nice and pretty on his knees.  

What was he turning into? 

Tyler started to stroke what his mouth wasn’t reaching. His saliva was covering Josh’s cock, making it glisten. He massaged Josh’s balls with such care that it would make anyone melt into the seat. Tyler was really trying to do it all. 

It was making him feral. He couldn’t help himself as he gripped Tyler's hair and bucked his hips up. Tyler closed his eyes in response and started to move his head faster. He was able to take it all in. Josh groaned lower and tightened his grip. 

He started to fuck his mouth. He listened to what Tyler told him. He heard him gag a bit, but that didn’t stop him. He wanted to use this man while he had him. He just wished he could fuck his ass too. 

Tyler's mouth was fine. It was getting the job done and Josh hadn’t felt this way for a person in a long time. But he wanted more. He wanted to claim this man as his own. Josh was never the type of person to think like that. He wanted what he couldn’t have.

Tyler never even came up for air. He just continued to suck his cock like it was his job. Josh knew he wouldn’t last much longer. He was too lost in bliss to even think about lasting longer. He continued to thrust into his mouth, ignoring any gags or gasps. He was getting exactly what he came to the club for. Josh let his shyness disappear. 

“I’m so close. You’re going to make me cum.” Josh panted. 

Tyler hummed. 

“Fuck, I haven’t had a mouth like this before,” Josh grunted. 

Tyler ran his nails across Josh’s thighs. It stung, but he didn’t care. The pain just added to his pleasure. The two men were letting out any frustrations they had with the day on each other. Josh almost forgot how stressful tomorrow was going to be. Josh was sure that Tyler's nails even drew blood. He responded by tugging hard on his hair.

“You’re being bad, aren’t you? You may be sucking my cock like a good boy, but you’re being so bad. Fuck… Take my cum, slut.” He gasped again. He was so close. He knew he was going to cum at any minute.

 It was sensory overload for him. He just needed release. He was blacking out, not caring anymore what happened. 

Josh bit hard on his lip as he let himself buck up one more time. He shot cum into Tyler's throat. He pulled out of his mouth to let more streams of cum cover Tyler's face. 

“Damn. I never thought I’d hear words like that out of your mouth. I don’t know you well, but you do not seem like the type,” Tyler laughed as he swallowed, “That was fucking hot. I love having my mouth bred like that, damn.”

“Are you sure you don’t want me to suck you off either?” Josh asked, “I will.”

“I’m okay. If you ever come back here, find me. I want to do that again. That was so hot I could feel my cock twitch the entire time. I was soaked down there,” Tyler wiped off his mouth, “I don’t let anyone here touch me, sorry. Not even cute guys like you.”

“Let me give you my number then. We can meet up for coffee or something. Then I can take you back home with me. You can help me celebrate if I end up getting this job.”

Tyler shook his head, “I don’t give out my number either.”

Josh nodded slowly. He was disappointed. The club was not a place that Josh ever wanted to visit again, so he wasn’t sure he would get the chance to see this guy. The thought that Tyler would be here if he ever came back was tempting. 

“Fuck it,” Tyler groaned, “I’m not going to meet up with you. But I will give you my number.” he leaned over to grab a pen from his dashboard. He wrote numbers on Josh’s leg. He pulled Josh’s pants back up, “Don’t expect me to ever respond though. But I would appreciate a picture every now and then.”

Josh laughed, “Okay. I don’t see a point in getting your number then.”

“Like I said. Don’t expect me to. Doesn’t mean I won’t.” Tyler said. 

“Okay. Maybe I’ll text you. Or send a picture.” 

“Good. Now, get out of my car,” Tyler said, “I think you should go find your friend.”

Josh raised an eyebrow, “What happened to staying with me?”

“It’s getting late. I’m sure if you ask your friend to take you home, he’ll take you.”

“Why don’t you drive me home? I’m pretty sure he’s high on Molly tonight.”

“Fuck,” Tyler laughed bitterly and leaned back with a groan, “You suck.”

“Actually, I haven’t because you don’t want me to.”
Tyler laughed again at Josh’s joke, “I sucked your cock, and now you want a free ride? You’re asking too much of me.” 

“Hey, I offered. You didn’t want to. Don’t blame me.” The smile didn’t leave Josh’s face. 

“Where do you live?” Tyler asked. 

“About two minutes away.”

“Let me just walk you home, then. Why would you drive here?” Tyler furrowed his brows. 

“I think because Brendon wants an excuse to bring people into his car the way you just did with me.” Josh said. 

“Can’t he bring people home to fuck them? He sounds like he’s too much. I’ll walk you home, okay? Then you can protect me in case there’s any weirdos around,” Tyler got out of the car and took out another cigarette from his pocket. 

“Wouldn’t the weirdos still be there when you walk home?” Josh laughed as the two started walking towards his apartment. 

He was shocked that Tyler agreed to walk him home. He was joking for the most part. Maybe he could try to convince Tyler to let him return the favor once they got into Josh’s apartment. 

“So, if you don’t usually go out, what do you do with your free time?” Tyler asked.

“Most everything else. I read, play games, swipe on useless dating apps, watch TV, and sometimes I go to a bar with my friends but that’s rare.  I usually work out at the gym every day for an hour or so. I work in sales right now, so I’m usually bored when I get out. But having a quiet night is my kind of fun.” Josh explained. He was probably saying too much. Tyler was not going to care. 

“You are kind of boring. I work in insurance, so I try to be interesting outside of work. I usually come here, play piano, and sometimes I host my coworkers at my house for board games. That one sounds lame, but it usually gets violent. You’d be surprised how competitive insurance adjusters are.”

“I can imagine,” Josh nodded, “You sound interesting. I don’t think I’m boring, though.”

“It’s okay to be boring. It’s safer, statistically,” Tyler shrugged, “I work in insurance but I do not follow what I preach. Don’t tell my employees that though.”

Josh didn’t directly respond. He gave directions to Tyler as they silently walked to his apartment. It was not far at all. Josh could have probably walked there easily by himself, but it was better to have company. 

“Do you want to come in for a drink?” Josh asked, “I’m sure Brendon won’t be home for a while.”

“I don’t know,” Tyler sighed, “I don’t usually go to people’s houses. I’m strictly a blowjob at the club kind of guy.”

“Why?”
“I don’t really trust most people to have any other kind of sex. Usually going to someone’s house could end up in sex. I don’t like it. It’s complicated. I never do it.” Tyler looked down, “I don’t need to unpack all of that with you.”

“Okay. I won’t argue with you. But, I had a lot of fun tonight. You’re really attractive and skilled. We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to. I just liked talking to you too. You’re really cool.” Josh shrugged. He didn’t want to press. But he couldn’t imagine letting Tyler go yet. 

“Thank you for being respectful. I’ll come in for one drink. I’ll suck your dick on the couch and then I should head back.” Tyler followed Josh up the stairs. 

They got inside and Tyler immediately started looking at all of Josh’s decorations. He hummed a few times, pointing things out, and trying to start small talk. 

Josh raised his eyebrows once they got to the liquor, “What’s your poison?”

“Give me a light beer if you have it.” Tyler said.

They did exactly as Tyler had planned. They shared a drink, made out, and Tyler sucked his cock again. It didn’t take long for them after they both had their drink for them to be down each other’s throats. 

 Josh wanted to fuck him so badly. He understood that Tyler had his limits, but he couldn’t help but pray Tyler would change his mind. 

He wanted to pound his ass so roughly that he would break their couch. Whenever Tyler would look up to him with his mouth full of cock, it made Josh go crazy. 

He wanted more. It was like he was falling in love with a guy he had just met at the club.

Tyler wiped the cum from his mouth, “You’re so hot. I’m serious about coming back around to the club. I could do this with you every day.” He straddled Josh’s lap again and pressed kisses on his neck and lips.

“I could too. I feel so connected to you.” Josh felt his cock rubbing against the fabric of Tyler's pants. 

“I do too. I’ve wanted to get into your pants since you came out looking so nervous at the club. It was like lust at first sight. You looked so awkward. I love people who aren’t normal.” Tyler ran his hand down Josh’s chest. 

“I don’t know what that’s supposed to mean.” Josh laughed and put his hands on Tyler's ass. He was going to have to cover up all the hickies he had in the morning. 

“It means you’re hot. You also give off such nasty energy. In a good way.” Tyler wrapped his arms around Josh’s neck, “Like, I bet you’re a freak. It’s always the awkward quiet ones.”
“But you’ll never know.” Josh needed Tyler to get off of him. He felt like he was going to get hard again if Tyler kept this up. 

“You’re right about that, probably.” Tyler moved back to Josh’s lips. 

“I’ll take that probably as a maybe. Maybe we’ll meet again in a crazy way, and I’ll get to cum inside of you instead of on your face.”

“You’re so weird,” Tyler laughed. He got off after a minute of making out, “Maybe I’ll see you around? Get some sleep, you apparently have a big day tomorrow.”
“Oh, you’re right. I do.” Josh shook his head, “Can I kiss you goodbye?”

“Yeah, of course. Kisses are like nothing to me. I’ll kiss my neighbor, like, I don’t care,” Tyler leaned up and pressed their lips together. It was quick. He patted Josh’s shoulder and walked away to leave.

“Hey, uh. Get home safe.” Josh said. 

“I will. Thanks.” Tyler smiled at him and left through the door.  

Josh wished their circumstances could have been different. 

He wished he had the courage to ask Tyler to stay the night. But he wasn’t the type of guy to push someone else out of their comfort zone. 

He texted Brendon that he was home and went to bed without another thought. 

—

Josh woke up four hours after he went to bed. He couldn’t believe he stayed up so late the night before an interview. He walked into the kitchen and awkwardly waved at the guy Brendon had brought home. They were usually out by seven in the morning, so it was new to see the guy still there. 

“Are you his boyfriend?” The man asked in broken English and a heavy European accent of some kind.

Josh shook his head, “No. We’re friends. I have an interview this morning.”
“Oh, cool. Your friend is in the bathroom cleaning his asshole so I can eat.”

“Sounds like a lot of fun,” Josh rolled his eyes and pounded on the door, “Brendon! I need to take a shower.”

“Fuck, give me a second.” Brendon shouted from the bathroom, “You can come in, I’m only naked.”

Josh went into the bathroom. Seeing Brendon naked was not anything new. He was almost always naked anyway. Josh took his own clothes off and stepped into the shower.

“So. You went home early last night without getting any, huh?” Brendon asked.

“No, actually.”

“You took a guy home?” 

“Not really. We made out in his car, he sucked my dick, and then he walked me home. We made out again, he sucked my dick again, and then he left.” Josh sighed, “He didn’t want to do anything more than that.”

“Hey, my man! That’s better than nothing. You got your dick wet, that’s what’s important. Next time we go, you’ll find a guy who will let you fuck him, I promise.” Brendon sounded more excited than Josh did. 

“I don’t know if I want that. This guy felt different. He…” Josh sighed happily to himself, “I would take it again right now if I could. It brought out another side of me. I felt some weird connection to him. Not even just sexually, but I felt like he could be my best friend if I let him. And I felt like a different person. Like…he made me want to just throw him around.”

“Oh, so this stranger can bring the dom out of you? But your poor roommate can’t?” Brendon laughed, “Maybe if you go to the club again, you’ll find him.”
“I got his number too.” Josh said, “I think I’m going to text him later. I want to get through this interview in one piece first.”

“I wish you good luck. I’m going out of the bathroom now to get fucked. Do you mind if I do it in the kitchen?”
“Gross. Just don’t cum inside the pan cabinet again. I hated washing those dishes.” 

“That was an accident and you know it!” Brendon shouted into the bathroom as he left. Josh finished his shower, got dressed, and walked briskly back to his room. He did not want to accidentally watch Brendon having sex with his “friend”. 

He hated that Brendon always did that. But he was used to it by now - that was their friendship. 

He made himself look better than presentable and headed out. 

His interview was at an office that he did not recognize. It was just out of town in a large brick building. He found the directory and made his way to the correct office. He was trying his best not to be nervous.

 He walked up to the receptionist, “I have an interview with…” he looked down at a paper, “Tyler Joseph today.”

“Oh! Hello. You must be Josh Dun. You had your first interview with Chris Salih last week, correct? Take a seat, Mr. Joseph will be with you shortly. He’s just finishing up his current interview.”

“Thank you,” Josh nodded and took a seat. He held on to his resume and cover letter for dear life. He needed this job so badly. It was what he was working on for so long. 

It was a few minutes before a man in a gray suit opened the door. Josh did a double take. “Tyler” was "Tyler” from the gay club the night before. 

He should have put the pieces together. He was interviewing at a local insurance company. Josh knew that the man performing his interview was named Tyler Joseph. 

He just assumed everything was a coincidence. 

“Come on in, Mr. Dun.” Tyler stepped aside and let Josh walk in first. He moved a seat back and motioned for Josh to sit. 

He had his cock down this man’s throat the night before, and now he was giving Josh the most important interview of his life. 

“So, Mr. Dun. What made you choose our company? You have a very impressive resume here. You’ve worked as an actuary in sales, as well as for hire. Why would you choose a small health insurance company like ours?” He asked.

Tyler was acting as if nothing had happened the day before. 

“Oh. I… I have always had a passion for making things right. I… appreciated my job working for a corporation. However, learning that a local company needed an actuary, I knew that it was exactly what I needed. I needed somewhere that I would be able to help real people and businesses in my area.” Josh’s voice was shaky. 

“We supply insurance to half of the town. We’ve done a great job, but we’ve needed someone to come in and help us assess the risks certain individuals present. This job requires judgment of individuals. But it seems as though you have over ten years of experience,” Tyler read over Josh’s resume again, “I must say. For someone who has been out of college for twelve years, you have a long list of accomplishments. Looks like you’re someone who is all work and no play.”

“I understand. I’ve been able to deliver important decisions to determine what is best for the company. I can separate personal opinions when needed. I also have to say, I am able to get out every now and then. I’m not all work.” Josh pressed his lips together so he wouldn’t smile. 

“Hm. Clearly. Although, you don’t seem like you really get out much.” Tyler wrote something down. 

“I’m dedicated to my job. I’d rather make sure that I do my job well. I can enjoy my life when I’m dead.” Josh said. 

Tyler let out a laugh for a second and then stopped himself, “Well. You can’t forget that enjoying your life is important too.” 

“Yeah. But, I think I have a good life. But you’re right. I should probably go out more.” Josh said. 

Tyler pursed his lips, “Hey, whatever you go outside of your job is up to you.” 

The interview continued for another twenty minutes. Josh couldn’t tell if he was doing well or not. Tyler asked so many serious questions that Josh almost forgot who he was for a second. 

Josh thought he was doing a great job at hiding his fear and discomfort. He was fucked. There was no way that Tyler would hire him. Josh would have to figure something out. 

Tyler put all of Josh’s papers back into a folder, “I’m not going to lie to you, Josh. I’m not sure I can consider you. You’re perfect for our company. You might even be too perfect for us. But you are a conflict of interest.”

“What?” He frowned.

“I cannot hire someone who I’ve had any type of… relations with. It doesn’t matter how little it was. It’s a liability. I have to be professional.” Tyler said. Josh could tell by the look on Tyler’s face that he was just as upset as Josh. 

“That’s unfair. I understand the risk. However, you should know that it would have absolutely no effect on my work performance.” Josh insisted. 

“I would be your boss.”

“We can pretend that last night didn’t happen. I’ll change your name in my phone if you want to, even,” Josh crossed his arms.

“I don’t think that will work the way you want it to,” Tyler sighed, “I really like you. I like you for the company. You’d be an important asset. But if word came out what happened last night, I would be fired. A scandal like that isn’t one that our company needs right now. I have to tread carefully as it is.” 

“I know for a fact that your company is drowning. That’s why you need me. Let me help you, and then you can fire me if you want. I can help you get back on your feet. I’ll even work from home if that helps. I need this job.” Josh was trying too hard to fight for it. 

“You sound desperate,” Tyler shook his head. 

“I am. I need this job. It’s… it’s my dream job right now.” Josh started messing with his hands to help with his anxiety. 

Tyler sighed again. He took a few seconds to think about it. Josh could tell he was trying not to look at Josh, because it would only make it harder to make a choice. Josh felt like his body was getting heavier by the second. 

“Fine. I will take your offer. However, you need to understand that no one can know the events of last night. You are also not allowed to visit that club again. If I catch you there, you will be terminated immediately. Do you understand?” Tyler looked pissed off. 

“Yes,” Josh nodded. Tyler was such a different person at work. The night before he was carefree, fun, and loose. At work, he was stuck up and acted like he had a stick up his ass. He seemed bossy, petty, and sassy at work. It was so different from the person Josh let suck his dick. 

Josh just wanted to devour him again just to show him that he could be in control. He shifted in his seat and let the folder cover his crotch. Tyler was already causing his body to freak out and they were barely talking. 

“Good. Talk with my receptionist outside for your paperwork. It’s a shame you came here for an interview today.” Tyler was reading over his resume again and motioned for Josh to go away without even looking. 

“Why is that?” Josh asked, still covering his crotch.

“I wanted to see you again.” Tyler looked up. 

“Oh.”

“I had a lot of fun last night. I never had anyone treat me like a person the way you did. I was even thinking about texting you back if you started a conversation. I wanted to get those pictures periodically from you. I wanted to…” Tyler glanced at the door, “I’ll see you first thing next Monday. Don’t be late. Please leave.”

“But-“

“Leave, Josh. Please.” Tyler’s hand was shaking, “please.”

The second please was quiet. 

“Okay, thank you,” Josh nodded and left. 

He was conflicted. 

Josh was overjoyed that he was promised the job. 

But now things were about to be a lot more complicated.  

—

Once Brendon got home, Josh explained everything to him.

“You have to be lying to me!” Brendon exclaimed. He was in the middle of getting ready for the night out. 

“I’m not,” Josh sighed.

“You’ll find another guy. It was just one guy that you had a good time with. There’s millions of guys out there who want to be with you.” Brendon turned around from the mirror. He gripped Josh’s shoulders, “We’re going to go back to the club tonight to find you someone else.”

“My boss told me if he sees me there, he’ll fire me.” Josh groaned, “I don’t want to go anyway. I hated that place.”

“It’s the only fun place in town!” Brendon shook his head, “He shouldn’t have the power to forbid you from a place like that!” 

“Well, he does. He’s my boss now. It could be some kind of breach of contract if I do that.”

“I think it’s because he knows he won’t be able to control himself if he sees you again outside of work.” Brendon nodded, “I think this is exciting for you.”

“Exactly how is this exciting?” Josh frowned. 

“You have a guy who likes you! That doesn’t happen often!” Brendon moved away so he could get a drink for both of them to celebrate. 

“Ouch?”
“I mean it with love. You really don’t put yourself out there often and I feel like you should. It sucks balls that the one time you actually find someone, he turns out to be a dickhead boss!” Brendon came back with beers and patted his back. 

Josh took his beer and opened it, “he’s nice. He’s not a dickhead.” 

“He’s your boss now, he’s a dickhead.” Brendon chugged his beer. 

“I don’t want to think like that. He’s really chill, I don't think he'll be a dickhead.” Josh shrugs. 

Brendon turned back towards the mirror to finish putting on his makeup. He glanced at Josh, “Do I look slutty enough?”

“You always do.” Josh laughed and rolled his eyes, “I’m going to leave the bathroom and go watch something. Have fun tonight. Let me know if you’re bringing a guy home tonight.” He headed out of the bathroom.

“Oh, I will. Don’t worry.” Brendon nodded, “I’ll make sure not to bring home your boyfriend either.”

“Don’t make jokes like that.” Josh yelled from the living room.

—

Josh arrived at work a few weeks later. He had someone named Mark train him. 

Mark was chill. Awkward, but chill. They got along well enough. But Mark wasn't who Josh had to sit next to now that he was fully ingrained in the company. 

Her name was Debby, at least it said so at her desk. 

“Hi! Are you Josh? Tyler told me about you the other day. Said you were our new actuary. He did not say you were so…” Debby looked him up and down.

“So what?” Josh sat down and took everything out of his bags. 

“You’re cute, like in the beefy nerdy way. What kind of guy looks like that, but also works in this job, but also wears glasses?” Debby nodded to herself. 

Josh laughed awkwardly, “I guess so, yeah. I’m just happy to be here. Everyone seems so nice.”

“Yeah, everyone but our boss. He’s… he can be a word I shouldn’t be saying at work. Don’t get me wrong. He means well, and he’s a good boss. But he does not know how to let loose and have fun. He gives off boring vibes, you know? Like he just sits to himself at home and plays on his piano or something without doing anything fun.” 

That took Josh aback. 

Tyler? 

He seemed a bit stern at the interview, but there was no way a general consensus was that he was boring. 

“I don’t know.” Josh hummed, “I don’t know him like that.”

“You will soon, I’m sure.” Debby motioned to his office, “he’s always in there.”

“That’s good.” Josh said before he could catch himself. That was good to hear - he wouldn’t have to see Tyler very often. 

“Josh.” Tyler peeked his head out of his office.

Josh’s body fell out through his ass hearing his name coming from those lips. Tyler was very clearly staring at Josh and trying not to look him up and down. It took Josh way more time than it should have for him to respond to Tyler. 

“Yes?” Josh held his breath. His leg immediately started to bounce, fighting his urges. He hated this, because he was being so obvious. 

“Welcome on your first real day. Just wanted to say that.” Tyler nodded once and didn’t stay around to hear Josh respond with anything.

That was the first interaction they had since Josh was hired. Tyler was not involved at all in any of his training. He had never even seen Tyler walk into work. 

Josh had to calm his heart down before Debby noticed.

“Whoa. You look so nervous. I promise you, he’s scary, but not that scary. You do not need to get all worked up when he talks to you.” Debby laughed, “you’ll be fine, really.”

“I know. I know. I just feel… nervous at this job. I know I’ll be fine. But… I’m…” Josh didn’t finish his sentence.

“Girl, how are you going to handle meetings when he’s right there? Are you going to throw up? He’s just a boss. He’s not the president. You’ll be fine.” Debby laughed at him again. 

If only she knew. 

--

The meetings were awful.

Josh sat as far as he could during his first staff meeting, but that didn’t help. 

Tyler’s lips moving did it for him. Tyler using a firm and demanding voice as he talked to employees really really did it for Josh. They way Tyler would purposefully avoid looking at Josh. The way he would roughly point to charts and his eyebrows would move when he tried to speak. Tyler seemed like such a dominant person when he spoke to his employees. 

Josh knew the other side of Tyler. 

The one that begged to be used. 

Josh knew he would never see that version of Tyler ever again. He knew now that working here was a horrible idea. He shouldn’t have cared that it was his dream job if he was going through torture every second he was here. 

He had only been here for eight days and Josh wondered if it was worth it. 

The first time their eyes met, Josh noticed Tyler’s face turn red. Josh had to cough a few times and excuse himself for a minute just to calm down.

Maybe Tyler was just as miserable here as Josh was. 

Maybe Tyler spent all his time in his office just to avoid seeing Josh, because it gave them both spiders under their skin. Josh didn’t think he could feel this way about someone. He was too old for crushes - too old to feel so nervous around someone that he had already practically had sex with.

But he couldn’t have Tyler.

And that was what made him so fucking nervous. 

—

Josh spent the next few weeks at work just barely surviving. The job itself was great. He was soaring with bright colors. Josh was able to get by every obstacle in his way, and he was sure he’d be able to save the company and then some. His colleagues constantly thanked him, and he felt like he was part of a welcoming community.

It felt way too good to be true. 

However, he still couldn’t handle having Tyler as his boss. Josh could not look at him. If he did, he’d notice Tyler's soft pink lips. He wanted to kiss them again. He wanted to see them wrapped around his cock one more time. He would hear Tyler laugh and it would set him back. Tyler would bend down to pick up a piece of paper and it would make him go nuts.

Josh never had such carnal feelings for a person before. He couldn’t even masturbate and think about him because it was not the same. He even tried to meet up with someone from an app but it couldn’t work for him. He was down for Tyler so badly that nothing helped. 

 He was glad that they only ever had to interact during meetings. It was almost as if Tyler purposefully made sure they were never alone together. They had a silent agreement with each other that being alone would be a bad thing. 

Every time there was an opening, they would both make an excuse to have another person in the room. Or Tyler would pretend like it didn’t have to happen.

Tyler usually only emailed Josh when they had to communicate. It was professional. No need for one-on-one meetings when emails worked just fine. This worked perfectly for them, and Josh could use the excuse of being new to avoid any suspicious looks. 

The few moments they did have together were tense. They couldn’t even speak to each other. Tyler and Josh would almost run into each other and spend moments with intense eye contact until one of them sheepishly looked away. 

Josh felt like he was in too deep. Those eyes did more for him than lust. He could find himself loving them, even if Tyler could be a dick sometimes. 

Josh had an addiction, and Tyler was constantly waving a relapse right in his face. 

He wasn’t sure if Tyler had the same feelings for him. The most that Josh knew was that Tyler lusted for him in the same way he did. But he had more options than Josh did. He could go do whatever he wanted. Josh was sure that Tyler still went to the club and sucked every other guy’s cock. 

It was fine. Josh was fine with that. It was barely a one night stand. Josh felt as though only crazy people would fall so hard after one night. But the idea of someone else’s cock in Tyler’s mouth filled Josh with so much anger that he’d have to calm himself down. 

The first real interaction they had with each other alone went exactly as Josh expected. 

It was company policy to check up on workers after their first month to make sure they were a good fit. Josh was aware that it was going to happen a week in advance. 

He prepared himself to make sure he would be able to behave himself. He was sweating at his desk. The screen on Josh’s desktop was starting to fuzz into one color. He could feel his heart crawl out of his chest and plop on the keyboard. 

“Are you okay?” Debby poked his shoulder.

Josh snapped back into reality, “Yes. I’m just nervous for my review.” 

“Oh, come on.” She laughed, “He’s a hardass, but he’s not scary. Tyler is just tightly wound. You’ll be fine.” 

“I just don’t like having reviews in general.” Josh shook his head, “I’ve never been alone with him. What if he actually hates me and chews me out?”

“Oh, come on. You’ve been here a month and I feel like we’re doing better than we ever had. I’m sure it’ll be nothing but praises from him. He’ll be practically sucking your dick by the end of this year.” She turned back to her computer.

Josh gave her a side-eye. Did she know? 

“Sorry. That joke was a little far.” Debby sighed.

“No, y-you’re fine.” He laughed nervously. She was just making a joke. Josh calmed down.

“Are you gay?” She asked, “I’ve been meaning to ask you. You give off gay vibes, but I didn’t want to assume.”
“Uh. Yeah…” Josh raised his eyebrows.

“Oh God. That made my joke worse.” She shook her head, “Please don’t report me. I’m bisexual, so it’s not like I’m trying to be hateful.”

“Calm down. You’re fine. I don’t care.” Josh looked back at his computer, “You’re distracting me from my little panic attack at least.”

“Good! Glad I could help. You’ll be fine, Josh. Trust me. I was awful my first month and he handed my ass to me. Look, I still have a job here.” Debby smiled at him, “Oh shit. He’s coming out of his office. Pretend you’re doing work.” 

Tyler walked out of his office, “Mr. Dun. Do you mind joining me for a minute?”

Josh nodded and followed him inside. Tyler motioned to a chair and sat on his own.  Neither man spoke for a solid minute.

Josh was going to die. 

“Uhm. Let me get my file for you out.” Tyler typed something on his computer.

“Okay.” Josh nodded. He fiddled his thumbs and looked around the office. 

“How has your day been?” Tyler asked, staring at his computer instead of at Josh.

“Good.” Josh shrugged. There was silence again. 

“You’ve been a solid employee here.” There was still no eye contact between the two men. Tyler continued to type, “You’re a very welcome asset to the team.” 

“Thank you. I try my best.” Josh nodded. He should have left his heart back at his desk. It was a clear giveaway.

“You really do.” Tyler turned his chair so he could face Josh, “Do you have any questions for me?”

Josh felt stunned when his eyes locked with Tyler's, “I…I don’t have anything. All good.” He gave Tyler a thumbs-up.

“Wonderful. I believe neither of us want to spend any more time here than we have to. This is supposed to take about twenty minutes. I believe we can agree that it wouldn’t be in our best interest to do that.” It was interesting to Josh how punctual Tyler spoke when he was trying to avoid certain conversations. It was the way he talked during their interview. 

“Yes. I agree.” Josh looked around, “Should I leave?”

“No. It would make others suspicious. If I don’t give you a longer review, they’ll think something is up.” Tyler shook his head, “You can just go stand over there while I get work done. I don’t want to have to look at you.”

“That’s very normal of you to suggest.” 

“I don’t know what else to tell you. I don’t want to have to talk to you more than I have to.” Tyler sighed. He looked back at his computer, “You’re giving me a headache. I feel like my brain is going to turn into liquid.” 

Something about the words Tyler was saying was making Josh pissed off, and also turned on. Why was it when Tyler gave him an attitude it just made Josh want to be all over him? Josh stayed in his seat out of defiance. He wasn’t going to stand in a corner like some sort of dog.

“You heard me.” Tyler glanced back over at him, “I don’t want to have to see you. I gave you your review.” He bit his lip and glued his eyes back to his computer.

“Are you going to try to force me?” Josh laughed. Why was he giving attitude to his boss?

“I could have you written up for that kind of language.” Tyler stood up from his chair. 

“Would you? Wouldn’t you have to give context to our conversation? I’m sure telling an employee to stand in a corner so you don’t have to look at him would be write-up worthy.” Josh stood up as well.

“Stop.”

“And, you’d have to explain why you don’t want to look at said employee. Should we discuss that in my review?” Josh should have shut his mouth. 

Tyler grunted out a laugh, “You’re a real pain. You’re so lucky that you’re good at your job. I can’t stand you.”

“Is that the truth?” Josh asked.

“Yes. Now just get out of my office please.” Tyler pointed to the door. 

“Why don’t you come over here and push me out?” Josh couldn’t stop himself once he opened his mouth.

“Oh. I could go over there and push you alright.” Tyler walked around his desk and stood in front of Josh, “I want you out of my office. Right now. Before I -” He peered at him. They were close enough that it made multiple parts of Josh jump. 

“You-you got it, boss.” Josh stepped back. He was backing down because he knew what he would do if he stayed in there any longer.

“Good. You don’t have another review until the end of your first year.” Tyler said, “Try to behave yourself at that one.”

“Sorry. I stepped out of line.” Josh sighed, “I just don’t know how to act whenever you talk to me. I hear you speak to me like that and I just want to…”

“Don’t finish that sentence.” 

“Right, right. Leaving now.” Josh turned around. He looked back at Tyler, “I really think it’s best if we don’t have a meeting like this again. I don’t think we should ever be alone. Give me a buddy system or something.”

“I agree with that. Fix your pants.” Tyler sat back down and began to type again, “You don’t want the rest of the group to get any ideas.”

Josh blushed, “Sorry…”

“I’ll take it as a compliment, but don’t make it a habit.”

Josh closed the door behind him and kept his notepad in front of his crotch in a way that made it inconspicuous. 

“That bad, huh?” Debby whispered, “You look so shaken up.”

“I’m fine.” Josh smiled, “I just get nervous. It went fine. He basically just told me I’m doing a good job and let me out.”
“Oh! Good.” Debby smiled, “You’re going to fit in well here! If you can manage to avoid getting your ass handed to you by him, you’re golden.”

“Thanks.”

—

The pair kept up their end of the deal. Another month passed by without another incident. He still had to endure meetings, emails, and other businesses. The two refused to give each other time. Their texts and emails to each other were short and punctual. They never talked about anything else. Josh didn’t even talk about Tyler to Brendon, because he knew that would add fuel to the fire. 

Josh would always catch himself stealing glances when he could. He couldn’t help but fantasize what would happen if things were different.

He just wanted to go back to that club one more time and wear a mask to hide his identity. Josh just wanted another taste of his lips. It was barely lust anymore. It was a desire that dug deeper than just being horny for one person. 

He wanted everything from Tyler. He wanted to know the real man. Josh knew the two sides of him, but not the genuine person in the middle. He just needed a minute alone with the man so he could express how he felt. Rejection was the last of his concerns. Josh needed his brain to give him a break.

He just needed to stop letting his cock take over his mind every time he saw Tyler. 

“Hey everyone!” Tyler announced to the group at their desks. It was the Friday night of Josh’s seventh week at the company. 

Everyone turned their heads to look at him. Josh turned his head but didn’t look Tyler in the eyes. He just looked behind him. 

“I’m going to be hosting another game night at my house tonight,” Tyler said, “Everyone is invited as usual. That includes Mr. Dun.”

“Ooh! It’ll be your first game night! That’s exciting!”  Debby patted his back.

“Oh. That sounds like a lot of fun, yeah. I’d love to go.” Josh nodded, “I love…playing games with other people.”

He should not go. 

Why did Tyler mention him by name? 

“Good. Be there at seven. It’ll give everyone a few hours to get their bearings together.” Tyler nodded and walked back into his office.

“He’s so stuck up about these game nights,” Debby huffed, “We only ever go because we’re obligated to. Tyler has no friends, really. He never comes to anything we invite him to. But we’re forced to go to his.”

“Really?” Josh raised his eyebrows, “He really doesn’t have a lot of friends?”

“Who would want to be friends with him anyway?” Debby rolled her eyes and shut her computer off, “He’s a pain in the ass. He’s judgemental, stuck up, and don’t get me started on his temper. I liked him better when he was a woman.”

“Huh?” Josh frowned.

“Yeah. I knew Tyler in high school. No one else here knows. But you’re very gay, so I’m sure you’d understand. He was so nice in high school back when he was in cheerleading. But I guess when he became a man, he got all the male traits.” Debby’s face sneered. 

“Oh. Well I don’t know if it was really your place to tell me that…” Josh looked around at the others who were already on their way out. 

“I don’t really care. He’s an asshole. Plus, you’re part of the community. So I feel like you’d understand more than these other people. You know how it is. I think he was hotter as a woman too.” Debby sighed. 

Josh was becoming increasingly uncomfortable with the conversation. He didn’t care that Tyler was transgender. Nothing about that bothered Josh. 

If anything, it made sense now that he was so hesitant to let Josh suck him off. Most guys would not think twice if another guy offered to suck his dick.

He just didn’t like that he had to learn it from a woman at work. He knew from one of his friends that you shouldn’t tell people without permission. He would have hated to be outed to someone he didn’t want to come out to. 

Josh put his laptop in his bag. He watched Tyler come out of his office. 

Debby rolled her eyes again and rushed out. She slammed the door behind her so she didn’t have to interact with Tyler.

This left the two of them alone for the first time in almost a month.

“So. I’m looking forward to going over to your house tonight for a game night. I remember you mentioned them to me a few weeks ago. I’m glad I’ll get to experience it.” Josh smiled 

“I can give you my address.” Tyler said.

“Okay. Should I bring anything?” Josh asked, “Like food, snacks, or drinks? I have a few games I really like to play that I could bring too.” 

“No. I’ll have everything.” Tyler nodded. 

“Okay.”

“Alright. Sounds good. I’ll see you tonight.” Tyler didn’t look at him.

“I can stay home if you want me to. I wouldn’t want you to be uncomfortable” Josh said as he watched Tyler leave.

Tyler looked back, “Why wouldn’t I want you there?”

“Because-”

“Don’t be silly, Josh.” Tyler sighed and stopped in his tracks, “I’m a grown man.”

“I didn’t even say anything!” Josh defended, “I was going to say that I’m too new. You’re friends with all of these people and I’m just a new guy. You barely know me and you’re trusting me in your house.”

“Now you sound even more idiotic. You’ve been here for almost two months. I have no problem with being around you. You can go to my house, no problem. We just have to make sure we’re never alone, easy as that. It’s worked out well while we’ve been here, so.” Tyler turned around, “I will see you at seven.”

“You’re such a different person here.” Josh started walking out with him, “What happened to the nice and fun guy that I met-”

“Please don’t walk next to me,” Tyler paused in place. 

“What is that about?” Josh huffed and stopped as well, “I understand not wanting to be alone with me, but I can’t even walk next to you? You’re telling me that I’m silly.”

Tyler and Josh refused to look at each other. They were standing side by side in front of the door. They were staring straight forward so they didn’t have to look at each other.  All one of them had to do was step forward and they could go on their way. 

“Please.” Tyler said after a moment of awkward silence, “I can’t do this. Just leave the office.”

“No, you first.” Josh held the door open for him. He wasn’t sure what the two of them were doing. Why was it so hard for them to leave? His heart was pounding so hard that he could collapse at any moment. 

“Is this some kind of powerplay?” Tyler frowned.

“It is not.”

“I can’t be alone with you anymore. You’re giving me a headache,” Tyler rubbed his temple.

“It’s easy. You just need to leave out the door. Unless there’s something stopping you from leaving. You’re lingering.” Josh waited for a moment. Tyler wasn’t moving. Josh couldn’t tell what kind of signals Tyler was sending, but he could tell Tyler was conflicted. Josh closed the door and slowly put his bag on the ground.

 Tyler turned his head to look at him. The two looked at each other for an unnatural amount of time. Josh stepped closer to him and pressed their lips together. He couldn’t help himself anymore. Tyler gripped Josh’s arms and kissed back, letting himself go for only a second. Josh leaned him against the door and ran a hand up his thigh. Tyler gasped after several minutes when he realized what he was doing and stepped away from Josh. 

“We can’t.” Tyler shook his head, “Fuck, this is why I don’t want to be alone with you. I’m going to have to go back and delete this footage. Fuck. What are you doing to me?”

“Sorry.” Josh stepped back as well. He wanted to kiss him again. His apology was genuine, even if he didn’t regret it. He knew how stressful this had to be for Tyler. If someone found out what they did, he could lose everything. 

“I should have never hired you. I can’t do it.” Tyler sat down on one of the desks, “I can’t be alone with you. You set me off so badly.”

“Me too.”

“I want you so badly. I can’t even sit here during meetings because all I want to do is have you pin me down on the table. I want you to...” Tyler laughed bitterly. He almost sounded crazy as he laughed. 

“Want me to what?” Josh half-smirks. 

“Why am I still entertaining you? I need to go home and get set up.” Tyler grunted in frustration. 

“Okay…” Josh nodded, “I need to go get ready. I guess.”

Tyler’s face was easy to read now. He looked conflicted, hurt, and frustrated. Josh could tell he wanted to give up and give them both what they wanted. But Tyler cared too much about his future and his company to risk it. 

“You will be the first person to go home tonight. You will not be the first one to show up. If you pull in and there aren’t any other cars, you’ll go around the block until someone else is there.” Tyler picked up Josh’s bag for him.

“Got it. Got it. Loud and clear. Yeah. It’s best we never be alone again. I’ll leave first,” Josh took his bag and left without another word between them. 

—

Josh showed up to Tyler's party dressed as modestly as he could. He was not going to drink. He was just going to go there, play a few games, and then go home. It was just a simple night with coworkers. He couldn’t risk any temptations. Josh already risked his job with the stunt he pulled at the office. 

He was embarrassed to admit to himself that he did a lot of research about trans men as soon as he got home - as if it would ever help him. 

But he was curious. 

“Wow! You’re a little late, Josh.” Debby laughed when she saw him walk in, “Tyler said seven, not eight!”

“Sorry, something happened with my roommate. I needed to help him and I couldn’t leave in time.” He noticed that only two other people came from the office. 

“What an excuse!” Debby shook her head, “Go get some wine. You can wait until we finish our game before we add you in.”

“Okay. I don’t really drink, so I think I’ll hold off on that.” Josh shook his head, “I’ll just sit next to Mark.” 

That was such a lie. Josh loved drinking - but he was not about to do it now. He wouldn’t be able to hold back. 

The table was small. There were not a lot of people, so Tyler probably didn’t see a point in extending the table to make it bigger. It seemed suited for only four people, so Josh took the one seat that was left. He hated that it was the one directly across from Tyler, but any seat at a four person table would be bad. He was going to have to look at him the entire night. The dread set in Josh’s stomach - it was going to be a long night.

“You’re also sitting next to me, technically. It’s only a four person table.” Debby rolled her eyes.

“I think it’s your turn, Debby.” Tyler sighed, “You can stop teasing our newbie, please.”

“Sorry, boss.” She gave a side-eye to Josh and played her turn. They were playing Monopoly. Josh was probably never going to be able to play. He couldn’t understand why they would start such a long game before everyone got there. 

“I think maybe we should play another game,” Mark said, “It’s not fair to Josh. He won’t be able to join us unless someone happens to lose early.”

“That’s fine. He should have been here on time.” Tyler frowned, not looking up at him, “I strictly said seven. With our profession, punctuality is important. Josh needs to learn.”

Josh wasn’t sure why that turned him on. Tyler ordering him around pissed him off enough that he wanted to dominate him. Josh just wanted to bend Tyler over the table every time he gave attitude. Josh was never like that. But knowing that Tyler would beg for it anyway made Josh feel tingly. 

“I guess that’s fair. But we’re not a school. This is supposed to be a fun night, and Josh isn’t going to have any fun…” Mark shrugged.

Tyler took his turn, looking at his options and pondering his next move. He ignored Mark’s comment completely, purposefully adding extra time and focus. 

Josh pressed his lips together to hold back a laugh.

“This guy, honestly. You’re such a buzzkill sometimes, Tyler.” Debby sighed, “Josh is never going to come to game night again. But then again, he should have been here on time.”

“I had to help my roommate! It’s not my fault!” Josh exclaimed. Fuck Tyler for making Josh seem immature when it was his direction to show up late. 

“I would have appreciated a text. After twenty minutes, we all assumed you were not coming. You can’t get upset with us.” Tyler only looked up at Josh for a second. 

“It’s inconsiderate, honestly. Who plays Monopoly when you know people will be here? You couldn’t have started on something short and then played Monopoly when you knew for sure?” Josh frowned. 

“You should not talk to me like that. I’m your boss, Josh.” Tyler’s voice got somewhat lower and Josh’s dick twitched again. 

“Not when we’re off the clock. Anything goes, now. I get passionate when talking about board games. Maybe you should not be talking to me like that.” Josh said. 

“I need a cigarette now.” Tyler got up from his seat, “Josh, you can play for me if you want to play Monopoly so bad.” 

“Okay.” Josh watched him walk away. He was going to have a few moments of peace.

“God, I hate that guy.” Mark leaned his head back and whined, “I only come to these things so I can get a promotion.”

“I come because it’s free entertainment and free beer.” Debby laughed, “I don’t know why you came, Josh.”

“He made it sound fun when we talked a while ago.” Josh shrugged, “He said you guys get violent.”

“Violent? The most that’s ever happened was Mark once pushed the board in frustration. They’re usually pretty tame.” Debby took a sip of her beer, “I can’t believe the guy smokes. We work for a health insurance company, he should know the risks.”

“I get it. It’s a stressful job for him. He must get his frustrations out somehow.” Mark said. 

“I guess cigarettes are all he gets. There’s no way that guy has sex. He can’t pull it. In the years I’ve known him, he’s never had a girlfriend. He probably stays home and does nothing all day.” Debby laughed, “He’s so boring.”

“Sometimes the quiet ones are the freakiest,” Josh repeated what Tyler had told him the day they met. 

“I doubt it.” Debby said, “I bet he’s still a virgin. He works too much.” 

“I agree.” Mark nodded. 

Josh knew that wasn’t true. He literally had Josh's cock in his mouth minutes after they met. Josh started thinking about that night once more  and his cock twitched in his pants again. He needed to go home. Tyler’s house was not safe, even if Tyler was out of earshot and away from him. 

Josh needed to get this out. He needed to go home and just jerk off until he fell asleep. Josh couldn’t go out looking for anyone else. He wanted Tyler. He needed him - no one else was ever going to measure up to him. 

The three of them continued the game. It was about ten minutes and Tyler was still outside. 

“He’s been gone too long. Josh, go check on him.” Debby pointed to the door, “I’m too lazy to get up.”

“Can’t Mark do it?” Josh frowned.

“Nope.” Mark shook his head, “I don’t want to.”

Josh groaned and got up from his seat so he could go outside to check on Tyler. He took his time getting to the door, because he really didn’t want to do this. He wanted to go home, not be alone outside with the man torturing him. 

Tyler glanced over at him. He was leaning against his car with a cigarette in his mouth.

“Why are you out here?” Tyler frowned.

“The others forced me to come out here to check up on you.” Josh stood next to Tyler. 

“I’m on my second cigarette. I’m just too tense in there. I don’t understand why they have to pester me. I also don’t understand why you’re speaking down to me either…”

“Sorry, I can’t help it.” Josh shrugged, “I’m not doing it because I don’t like you, or because I want to speak down to you. You just do something to me. I normally don’t talk like that. It’s like I feel the need to be in charge of you whenever you talk to me. I… I don’t know. And I hate that I know you probably want it too, which makes me feel worse.”

“Josh, we’ve talked about this. You shouldn’t have come tonight, honestly.” Tyler's hand got shaky. 

“I offered to stay home.” 

“I know you did. I thought with other people around it would be fine. But this isn’t safe for me. I just…” he took another drag of his cigarette. 

“I get it.” Josh shook his head, “I can leave. It’s not safe for me either. I’ve only been here for twenty minutes and I’m going crazy.” 

“Just hearing you say that makes it harder. Not being able to have you is making me want you more.” Tyler moved away and pressed his cigarette against the ground.

“I know. I want to just bend you over and take you on the table.” Josh laughed.

“That alone is enough to report you to HR.” Tyler smirked, trying his best not to look at Josh.

“I dare you to. Then I can tell them about what you just said to me too.” Josh crossed his arms.

“And then I’ll just fire you. At least then I could have you again without worrying.” 

“I don’t think there’s much really stopping you right now other than your own fears of getting caught.” Josh regretted saying that as soon as it came out of his mouth. 

“I think we need to go back inside before we repeat what happened at the office.” Tyler looked back at Josh, his eyes full of a mix of lust and anger, “And then limit our time with each other at work back to just meetings.”
“I agree.” Josh nodded. The pair went back inside. Mark and Debby had put the game away.

“Why did you do this!” Tyler exclaimed.

“We’re bored with Monopoly. We want to play something else. We packed it up so now you have no choice.” Debby shrugged, “We’re suggesting playing a card game of some sort. It’s less messy.” 

“Without even asking me, the host?” Tyler was back to being grumpy and bossy. Josh needed him carnally. 

“Yup. You can’t control us off the clock, your own home or not.” Debby put the game back on the shelf where Tyler took it from. 

“Fine.” Tyler huffed and went to grab his cards. He came back and dealt a hand to everyone. Josh wasn’t sure what they were going to play now. He was still shaken up from the conversation they had outside, unable to shake the words Tyler said. He was glad the table went over his crotch, because he knew he was still half-hard. 

“We’re going to start off with a simple game of war. And then we can see where the night goes.” Tyler explained as he continued to deal the cards, “I assume I don’t need to explain this one to you, Josh? Unless you need me to.”

“Nope. I don’t think so. I’ve just never played it before, so I don’t know how hard it is..” He shook his head. Josh couldn’t explain why just Tyler's voice was setting him off. Hearing his own name out of Tyler's mouth was even turning him on. It was bad. 

“Good. I wouldn’t want to assume anything just because you’ve never played.” Tyler nodded, “Why don’t you start us off by slamming your first card down? That’s how the game starts.  I can teach you how if you want to.”

“No. I can handle myself.”

“Are you sure you can?” Tyler was talking weird now. He was using specific words that he knew made Josh shiver. 

“I can. I can probably handle you better than you’d think. I know how to play my cards. Do you? Or are you all talk?” Josh pursed his lips. 

“Damn, it’s just war. Calm down.” Debby laughed. The pair snapped out of their power play when they remembered there were other people in the room.

Josh couldn’t help but keep his eyes away from Tyler. He treated the game night like every company meeting. He could catch glances and meet Tyler's eyes. Josh’s heart would palpitate and he would be forced to look away. They spent the entire night biting their tongues and clenching their fists. No one around them even suspected a thing. 

And if they did, they said nothing. 

Tyler and Josh were playing their own game of chicken during this game night, and the others were spectators. 

Josh’s cock was probably hard for at least three-fourths of the night. He’d calm down, and then Tyler would look at him wrong, or tell him “good job” when he made a right move. 

It felt like years. 

Josh had to go home before he did something he really would regret. He wasn’t safe. Neither of them were. 

Their game night was over within a few hours. Mark had given a lame excuse to leave. It left just the three sitting at the table. 

Debby yawns loudly, “I think I should head out too. There’s no point in having a game night at eleven with two other people. I have a thing in the morning anyway.” 

“Let me go first. I think I’m parked behind you.”

“You parked on the road, Josh.” Debby laughed.

“Oh, right. I forgot.” Josh scratched the back of his head, “I’m forgetful sometimes.”
“Sounds like something you should work on.” Tyler shrugged, “I’ll walk you both out. I think it’s getting late for me too.”

Josh assumed Tyler was going to go out to the club or a bar after this to get someone else to fuck out his frustrations. All that did was make Josh’s stomach drop. No one else should be allowed to have him if Josh couldn’t. 

“That sounds like the best idea.” Josh nodded.

 “Oh, Josh. You have something in your teeth. Please go fix it while I walk Debby outside. You could ruin your mouth if you don’t clean up.” Tyler pointed towards the bathroom. 

“Oh, I do? It must have been some of the popcorn we had earlier,” Josh ran to the bathroom. If he cleaned it fast enough, he could make it outside while Debby was still there. He looked in the mirror. He didn’t feel anything on his teeth, and he couldn’t see anything. Tyler must have been seeing things. He walked back out to see Tyler standing by himself in the kitchen. 

“Did Debby leave already? I thought you were walking her out.” Josh frowned. 

“I did. I didn’t walk her to the car though.” He looked at Josh, “I needed her to leave first.” 

“Why?” Josh frowned. 

“I don’t know. I needed her out of the house. I can’t stand that woman sometimes.” Tyler huffed. Josh moved over to lean against the counter.  He knew he had to leave, but he couldn’t help it. 

Josh felt his heart stopping more and more with every second - fearful that something was going to happen 

“That’s fair. I think she’s stuck up.” Josh laughed.

“She is.” Tyler walked over to the counter.

The two looked at each other.

“Do you want me to leave now too?” Josh hesitated.

“No.” Tyler said as he took Josh's glasses off of his face.

“Okay?”

“Sorry.” Tyler looked down for a moment. He was uncomfortably close. Josh could feel his breath on his neck if he focused hard enough. 

“Do you need help with something? Cleaning up? Uh, or maybe you need help uh, I don’t know. Help with something? Or I can… I can just leave?” Josh was trying not to stammer too hard on his words. 

“Fuck it, Josh.” Tyler gripped his collar and pulled him into a kiss. It was surprising. Josh didn’t expect Tyler to ever give into their tension so easily after only one night. 

Josh grabbed Tyler's waist and pulled him closer. The kiss got hungrier and sloppier once they touched. Josh didn’t hold back like he did earlier. He had been teased too long for that. 

Tyler pulled away and started sucking on Josh’s neck. He was leaving marks all over him, “I can’t hold myself back anymore. You’re driving me nuts.” He said against his shoulder.

“There are no cameras here,” Josh moved his hand to Tyler's ass, “I could do whatever I want to you…”

“You could, hypothetically.” Tyler nodded.

“I don’t think HR is going to like these marks on my neck. You better hope they clear up by Monday.” Josh smirked.

“Kiss me again so you shut up.” Tyler moved his lips back to Josh’s. They kissed passionately, their tongues pressing against each other. Josh was already hard and grinding against Tyler. 

Tyler shoved one of his hands down Josh’s pants, searching for his dick. Once he found it, he started stroking him slowly, gasping when he felt how hard Josh was. Tyler was straight to the point. 

“Fuck.” Josh breathed against Tyler’s mouth. 

Tyler only hummed in response, trying desperately to breath through his nose so he could focus his mouth entirely on Josh. He missed the way their tongues would speak with each other. 

“There’s something you need to know.” Tyler pulled away from their kiss. He stopped stroking Josh and got on his knees. 

“Yeah?” Josh said, undoing the button on his jeans to help expedite the process. 

Tyler yanked Josh’s pants down along with his boxers. He continued to stroke Josh, spitting on the tip to lubricate to make his strokes smoother. Seeing Tyler spit on him made his brain hurt. It was hotter than the last time he had done it.

“I want you to fuck me.” Tyler kissed the tip of his dick, “I’ve been craving your cock inside me.” 

“You already know my feelings on that.” Josh moaned, leaning his head back. He gripped Tyler's hair. He could cum already - he had been wanting this for way too long. 

“I don’t have a dick. I’m trans.” He wrapped his lips around Josh’s cock. That was the feeling Josh had been craving. Tyler's lips felt perfect wrapped around him; they were sculpted to suck cock. They were made to please.

Josh had known this for a few hours now. He had made sure he looked up the right types of information just in case. He looked at pictures, videos, and read posts. He was happy to see it was something he was into. Josh had just imagined everything he looked at belonged to Tyler, and all it did was make him want Tyler more. 

“That’s fine. More holes for me.” Josh groaned, “I just needed to feel your lips again. I couldn’t have anyone else because it didn’t feel the same.”

Tyler pulled back, “Good. I’ve been rejected many times before. It’s why I only suck cock.”

Josh gripped his hair tighter, “They’re idiots. You’re too hot to say no to. Now get your lips back on my cock, Tyler.”

Tyler nodded and went back to work. Josh let him suck, because he wanted to save all of his energy for fucking him. Tyler bobbed his head, getting as deep as he could. He would try his best to go all the way down before popping back up for air. 

 He moaned around Josh’s cock, letting his spit drip down his chin. He gagged, choked, and dripped all over him. It was wet and gross and perfect. Josh was overwhelmed. He could fall in love with this man simply for his mouth. This one was even better than last time, but that could be because he was more desperate now. 

Tyler pulled back and started to just stroke him again. He smirked, “I love seeing you melt. I love the way you moan for me. I bet you tried to get with other guys to fill the hole but couldn’t.” 

“Yeah,” Josh moaned, “I couldn’t find a mouth worth as much as yours.” He tugged Tyler's head back on to his cock so he could suck him again. Tyler bobbed his head for a moment and pulled back again. 

“No, you can’t.” Tyler smirked, “I'm the best in town.” 

“No one was good enough. I couldn't jerk off either because it wasn’t working. I needed you. I would get hard at work just by looking at your lips because I’d think about you.” He pulled Tyler's hair to get him to suck faster. 

Tyler slapped Josh’s leg so he would allow him to pull back again, “I need you to keep talking like that. Fuck, Josh. I’m soaking in my jeans.” 

“Maybe we should do something about that.” Josh ran his fingers through Tyler's hair, “what am I allowed to call your privates?“ 

Tyler went back to just stroking him, “Whatever you want to call them. Pussy doesn’t bother me.” 

“Okay good. Now don’t talk again. You need to keep my dick  in your mouth.” He held the tip of his cock against Tyler's lips, “Are you going to finish me off like a good boy so I can suck on your little cock?” 

Tyler moaned, “Yes, sir.”

“Good.” He shoved his cock back into his mouth, letting it hit the back of his throat. Tyler gagged again and made his moves faster. Orgasm was the goal now. Josh needed to feel his cum hit the back of his throat.

Josh couldn’t wait to eat him out. He’d never done it before, and he always wanted to. He was completely gay, but he always dreamed of fucking a trans guy specifically so he could get a taste of pussy. And it being attached to Tyler made him more excited.

He came down Tyler's throat just thinking about how good Tyler will taste.  He kept his cock shoved in his mouth until Tyler swallowed it all.  He slowly pulled his cock up and tapped it against Tyler's face. Tyler looked up at him with an accomplished, cocky grin. 

Tyler pulled his head back and stood up. He kissed Josh, letting some of Josh’s cum slip into his mouth. He didn’t mind, so he kissed back. Josh’s cum didn’t taste the best, but it was hot just to pass it along to each other. Tyler pulled Josh’s shirt off as well as his own. 

Tyler was skinny, so there wasn’t much fat or muscle to him. Josh looked Tyler up and down. 

“Can I touch your chest?” Josh asked. 

“Yeah. You wanna trace your fingers across my scars?” Tyler bit his lip, “Feel your thick fingers touching me?”

“Yeah.” Josh slowly traced each scar on Tyler’s chest, feeling how different the skin felt compared to everywhere else. Tyler’s hand was on Josh’s chest too. They were silently feeling each other, letting the tips of their fingers speak for them. 

“I missed having your dick in my mouth.” Tyler hummed happily after a while, “And I missed your lips too. I want to kiss them more.”

“Don’t you want to feel them on your cock too?” Josh asked. 

“Yes. Please. God.” Tyler roughly shoved their mouths together again. 

Josh flipped them so that Tyler was the one against the counter. As they kissed, he lifted Tyler up to sit him down. 

“You’re the first guy I’ve been with who’s offered to eat me out, you know.” Tyler said. 

“Really? Aren’t you thirty-six?” He frowned. 

“Yeah. All my girlfriends have done it. But I usually don’t let guys get this far.” Tyler shrugged, “I’m almost exclusively a cock sucker. I think the last time I had a real cock inside of me was college.” 

“That’s crazy. You have a sexy body. So many guys would really kill for the chance to be inside of you. I feel special.” Josh kissed him again. He let his hand wander down Tyler's chest and stopped right above his pants.

“You are special.” Tyler’s eyes were warm as he said it. Tyler kept saying things and then kissing him again. 

Tyler put his hand over Josh’s and unbuttoned his pants, “You really don’t have to.” He said against his lips. 

“No. I’m going to. I want to make you feel as good as you’ve made me feel. And then, I’m going to finally get to feel you” He pulled away from the kiss completely and got on his knees. 

“Fuck, you’re so hot.” Tyler gasped, “I’m a talker too, you know.” 

“That’s fine with me. Just enough to get me hard again so I can fuck you.” Josh laughed. He took the rest of Tyler's clothes off. He had seen pictures of T-dick before. 

Tyler's pussy looked so unique. It was as if it was sculpted to be its own experience. Tyler's dick had to be about an inch and a half long. The tip popped out of his “foreskin” and he was obviously as hard as he could be. Josh let his face get close so he could study it. His folds wrapped around each other, allowing the cock to push through as the focal point. 

Tyler's pussy was glistening and hairless. It was a masterpiece. He must have shaved it before the night, as if he was expecting something. Josh wouldn’t have cared either way. 

“Are you going to just stare at it?” Tyler laughed. 

“Sorry. I’m just admiring you.” Josh smiled, “You're going to have to tell me what works and what doesn’t. I’m new to this.” 

“Just go with your gut.” Tyler smiled and ran his fingers through Josh’s hair. 

Josh nodded and slowly rubbed his folds with two fingers. Tyler was so wet already that it made it easier. He pressed his mouth against his cock and suckled on it. Tyler had a sweet and unique taste. 

Tyler gasped, “Not right away. Tease me more first before going right to my dick. Please.” 

Josh nodded. He moved his tongue down a bit, letting himself taste the juices that slipped out. This was all brand new to him - and he let himself devour what new tastes he had. Tyler took good care of himself, Josh could just tell. 

“Fuck, Josh.” Tyler whined, “I haven’t. Haven’t been touched in so long…”

He licked up and down before finally slowly flicking Tyler’s cock slightly. Tyler gasped, his breath hitching as Josh flicked it again. 

“Okay. Okay. Fuck. Please. More. Suck,” Tyler said each word in between harsh breaths. 

 Josh then settled in on sucking his dick. It was small enough that he could put his whole mouth around it. Josh’s lips were pursed as he hoped he was doing it right.  It was different than he expected. He worked with his tongue that rolled against the tip as he sucked on it. 

Josh used his fingers to rub his pussy underneath. Tyler moaned loudly and gripped his hair tighter. 

“That’s it. Just like that.” Tyler moaned, “Just. Just like that, Josh.”

Josh nodded. He swirled his tongue around. He pulled back after a moment. Then he peppered kisses on Tyler's inner thighs just to tease him while his fingers slowly rubbed him. Josh enjoyed hearing the noises that would come out of Tyler's mouth. 

“You’re a natural at this.” Tyler moaned, “Go back to sucking my cock. Don’t back away again. Please, baby.” 

Josh hummed and continued. He pressed his tongue flat on Tyler’s tip and made multiple long licks against it. He was just doing what his brain told him to since he was going in so blind. He sped up his movements, which earned him louder whines. Tyler was practically pulling his hair out at this point. 

He pulled away so he could suck on his two fingers before pushing them inside. Tyler gasped and Josh felt his legs close up around his head. Josh figured he was doing something right, so he slowly pumped his fingers. Josh moved them around as he went back to sucking on his dick. He let his leftover hand grip Tyler's thigh to massage it and hold Tyler’s legs open. 

Josh pumped his fingers in and out at an even pace. He couldn’t wait to feel his cock inside. He could tell it was going to be perfectly wet and ready for him. This just made Josh move his tongue faster in anticipation. He couldn’t get enough of the taste. 

Maybe Josh loved pussy, so long as there was a hot man attached to it. 

“Such a good boy. Fuck. Gonna keep you locked up in my house so I have your mouth whenever I want you. And you’d like that, wouldn’t you?” Tyler’s voice was smooth as he talked Josh through it. 

Josh only hummed in response, changing his motion so his tongue was flicking from side to side. Tyler immediately arched his back and let out a shaky laugh. 

“Fuck. Fuck, Josh. I’m so sensitive I could cum already.” He tugged hard on Josh’s hair, “I want you. I need you. Your mouth, your cock, and your everything. Take me and make me yours.” He leaned his head back. 

Josh hummed again against his cock and kept sucking. He curled his fingers because he heard it could make fingering feel better. Josh didn’t notice much of a difference, because Tyler was already sweating and moaning. He spit on Tyler's pussy just like he did earlier. 

“Like that. Like that. Like that. Please. Please. Please.” Tyler was getting louder. 

Josh didn’t stop. He moved his fingers and his tongue faster. He was working overtime - he wanted Tyler to cum so that he would be extra sensitive when he got fucked. Josh knew that people with pussies could cum multiple times in a row. He wanted Tyler to feel good just like he made Josh feel good. 

“Please. God. Please. Josh. Josh. Josh. Please. I’m-“ Tyler started grinding his hips roughly against Josh’s face. He must have looked like he just threw on a face mask, because his entire face was soaked. 

Josh didn’t stop, his fingers jamming roughly and his tongue was practically numb by now. They kept this up until Tyler’s legs wrapped too tightly around his head and Tyler’s entire body was spasming. 

“Fuck you.” Tyler panted, “I have not cum like that in… a long time.” 

“My face feels like I got slimed.” Josh laughed. 

“G-good.” Tyler smiles. 

Josh picked his head up, “I’m going to make you regret hiring me. Although that isn’t stopping you anymore.” He used his hand that was on Tyler’s thigh to start stroking his dick that was already hard again. 

“You’re right. It isn’t.” Tyler petted his hair, “You’re so hot, I couldn’t resist anymore. D-Damn you. Now get up here and fuck me. I can’t. Can't breathe.” 

Josh didn’t hesitate to stand up and connect their lips back together. He put his fingers back inside Tyler as they kissed. He could tell Tyler was overstimulated already, because his body twitched with each pump. Tyler moaned as he wrapped his arms around Josh’s neck. 

They kissed for a moment and Josh pulled his fingers out. He held them up to Tyler's lips. He watched as Tyler sucked his own juices off Josh’s fingers. They maintained eye contact, speaking with their irises. 

Josh looked down and lined up his cock and rubbed it against Tyler's hole. He barely pressed the tip on his pussy before he hesitated.  They both moaned into their kiss in anticipation. 

“I don’t have a condom.” Josh pulled back from the kiss, “do you?”

“No. Is that okay with you?” Tyler bit his lip. 

“I’ve never fucked anyone without one before.” Josh admitted. 

“Well. We can either leave to get them, or you can experience your first pussy raw. I’ve had guys cum in me before, it’s nothing new.” Tyler pressed a kiss on his neck. 

“Right now, I just need to be inside of you. I know I’m clean because I get tested regularly.” 

“Me too. I own a health insurance company and swallow cum often so I get tested weekly.” Tyler laughed, “now that we’ve both consented…”

Josh kissed him again to shut him up and finally pushed his cock head inside. He inched it in, making sure Tyler was okay. The times he has fucked people, he never slammed in on the first go. 

“Josh…” Tyler whined into their kiss, “I don’t think you need to be gentle with me. You just finger fucked me until I died.” 

“You haven’t been fucked in a while.” Josh inched his cock in a little more until he was all the way in, “I don’t want to hurt you.”

“I don’t care if you hurt me. I just need you to fuck me. And I mean really fuck me.” Tyler wrapped his legs around Josh, “Make the neighbors hear us. Tear me apart.”

“You’re so hot.” Josh moaned. He had never felt a pussy before. It was different than any asshole he had his cock in. It was wet, molded to him, and it squeezed in all the right places. It felt so right. 

He had his cock inside his boss. The fact that they could get fired if anyone found out made him crazy. It would be worth it. The fear of his life ending just to fuck someone else exhilarated him. This was the excitement Josh had been looking for in his life - a reason to get his heart pumping. 

Josh started to thrust. He beganoff at an even pace, trying to figure out what worked for both of them. He looked down and watched their bodies connect. He watched his cock slip in and out of Tyler. 

It was perfect. 

The sweat dripping on their bodies, the moans that filled the room, and the feeling of bliss overpowered him. Josh couldn’t help but allow his thrusts to get faster. 

He fucked harder. 

He allowed his animal-like instincts to take over. They were nasty disgusting animals after all. 

“Yes. God, yes. Like that. Fuck me.” Tyler whined, “Make me yours. I’m yours.” 

“Your pussy is mine.” Josh grunted, “it wraps so perfectly around my cock. You were made for me.” 

“I was!” Tyler grinded his hips to Josh’s beat. 

“You’ve been saving your pussy from other men. Because you knew it was waiting for me.” He moved his head and bit hard on Tyler's neck. 

“Fuck!” Tyler dragged his nails along Josh’s back. There would be marks later, but Josh wanted that. He wanted proof that Tyler was claiming him too. 

“Good boy. So good. So fucking good for me, letting me use you.” Josh whispered into Tyler’s ear. 

“Yes.” Tyler pleaded. 

“And you’re so loud.” Josh’s hips snapped with each thrust, pressing deep inside him. He wanted to get deeper, crawl into Tyler and let them become one person. It had been so long since he felt like this. Maybe he never had. Maybe this was something just completely new. 

But it was Tyler - someone he knew early on would wrap perfectly around him. 

Josh felt sweat drip from every inch of his body. The wetness around his cock was driving him crazy too. So crazy that he was worried he would die. But dying while inside of Tyler would be an honor. 

“Breed me, Josh.”

“I am. You’re such a slut. You’re melting into my cock.” He gripped Tyler's hips so he could fuck faster. Josh was getting sloppier. Their session had already been going on for a while. He was getting closer. His frustrations with Tyler were coming out. All the times he had to bite his tongue were leading into this. 

“Choke me. Please. Something.” Tyler panted, “Make me feel so much in every inch of my body.” 

“Are you-“

“Fucking do it.” 

Josh moved one of his hands to Tyler's neck, “are you mine?”

“Yes! I’m yours!” Tyler choked out. 

“Good.” Josh kissed Tyler again. He shoved his tongue down Tyler's throat, not giving him a chance to fight back. His hand squeezed only slightly around his neck. 

“I’m- I’m so close. Rub my cock, please,” Tyler whined. 

“I’m close too.” Josh started rubbing Tyler's little cock with his other hand, “where do you want my cum?”

“Inside me. Fuck. Cum inside me. Pump me full.” Tyler whined again, “I want you to mark me. Breed me. Fill me. Please.”

“Shut your mouth.” Josh kissed him again, his hand still wrapped around Tyler’s pretty neck. He made his thrusts short and firm. 

He pumped a few more times before he came inside of Tyler. He pressed his hips all the way in as he felt streams of cum enter him. Josh grunted louder than he ever has before as he rode out his orgasm. Josh pulled back from the kiss and panted, his body twitching. He still moved his fingers along Tyler's cock. 

Josh sang Tyler’s praises as he encouraged him. 

Tyler came soon after. He was a whiny mess. He was sweating, shaking, and leaning his head back. Josh could see the red linger on Tyler’s face. Orgasming twice so closely together probably killed Tyler’s body. 

Both men wiped their brow. Josh pulled out and looked down at Tyler's pussy. It was filled with cum, a bit leaking down and pooling on the counter.

“That was…” Tyler panted, “worth the wait.”

“Worth the risk?” Josh chuckled and leaned his head on Tyler's shoulder. 

“Yes.” Tyler ran his fingers through Josh’s hair, “I’m going to need to go wash this cum off of me. And then maybe die.”

“That’s fair.” Josh stepped away. Josh looked down and stared at the mess he made. Tyler was glistening, soaking, and leaking all over his counter. Josh wanted to get on his knees and lick it all up, but Tyler wasn’t going to give him the chance. 

They were silent as Tyler jumped off the counter. His legs were wobbling and he had to grab on for support. 

“What does this make us?” Josh asked as he watched Tyler slowly walk to the bathroom. 

“I don’t know.” Tyler sighed, “I really don’t.” 

“Okay.” Josh nodded. He wanted to continue their relationship. But he figured Tyler would want it to be a one time thing just so they could relieve the tension. He was not going to push it. 

“For now, you’re staying the night. I’m going to clean myself out just so I can get pumped full again. And again. I also need a cigarette.” He said, “this time we’ll fuck on my bed. It’s more comfortable that way.”

“Makes sense.” Josh nodded, “I’m going to go call my roommate to tell him I won’t be home.” 

“You can tell him too if you want. If he tells people, no one will believe him. They already don’t really believe him whenever he says anything at the club.” Tyler laughed from the bathroom, “I’ll see you in ten.” 

Josh put his pants on and made his way outside. He called Brendon. 

“How’s your weird game night going?” Brendon asked. 

“Uh. Pretty good. I just fucked Tyler.” Josh laughed nervously. 

“You did? All the way? Like with your dick? Like Tyler, your boss? The one you said you would never be able to fuck?” Brendon exclaimed, “what did his ass feel like?”

“I didn’t fuck his ass yet.” Josh chuckled. 

“Then you didn’t fuck him, bro. You guys have done that before.” 

“No, dude. I fucked his pussy.” Josh bit his lip, “it was the best sex I’ve ever had.” 

“Oh shit. I never would have thought that guy was trans. Good for you. I’ll need you to give me every detail when you get home.” 

“I won’t be home tonight. That’s why I called you.” 

“Damn! You’re even staying the night!” Brendon whistled. 

“I swear. I don’t think I could ever go to anyone else. It was like we were made for each other. We clicked.” Josh sighed, “but I don’t think he wants us to do any more than this one night.” 

“That sucks majorly. Just play it by ear and get as much in tonight as you can.” 

“I’ll try. Also, we didn’t even use a condom. I got to raw someone for the first time today.” Josh could feel his cock twitch again already. 

“That’s awesome. Be careful with that though. You know trans men can still get pregnant, right?” 

“Yeah, but I’m pretty sure he said he’s good. I assume that means he’s on birth control of some sort.” Josh shrugged, “I think when I go back inside we’re going for another round.” 

“Look at my boy. You’re soon going to be just as slutty. And hey. If your guy ever wants, I would totally be okay with topping for once. I’ve always wanted to try guy pussy.”

“Back off!” Josh laughed. 

“Just saying. If it’s as good as you say, I’d want a try.” Brendon laughs. 

“Bye. I’m going back inside now.” 

Tyler came out before Josh even opened the door. He had a cigarette in his mouth. He was wearing a bathrobe. 

“Hey.” Josh smiled. 

“Hey.” Tyler nodded, lighting the cigarette.

“Brendon seems excited. He also offered to have sex with you if you wanted.” 

“Ew. No offense to your friend. I don’t let just anyone get in there. Especially not his weak dick” Tyler shook his head and took a drag, “I can see you’re hard again already. And you called me the slut.” 

“Oh come on.” Josh rubbed his crotch through his pants, “I can’t help it.”

“Well. Don’t touch it!” Tyler let out a breath of smoke, “I wouldn’t want you to cum without me. That load is for me.” He smacked Josh’s hand away. 

“Hey. You can’t boss me around like that.” Josh rolled his eyes, “we’re not at the office.”

Tyler snickered, “And who is the boss here? It’s my house. You’re just going to have to show me who else could possibly be the boss in my own home.” 

“Once you’re done with your cigarette I’ll show you.” Josh put his hand back on his crotch in defiance. 

“You’re so getting fired.” Tyler took another hit, “go back inside. I’ll join you in a minute.” 

Josh went back into the house. He found Tyler's bedroom. It was clean. The bed was neatly made with a dark blue comforter. There were a few chairs, a dresser, and a master bathroom. 

He took his pants off and let his hand pump on his cock. Josh snooped around the room, looking at the family pictures and knick knacks. He wondered what kind of things Tyler was into. He wanted to know his kinks, what made him tick, and the things that turned him on. Hopefully Tyler would let him. 

Josh sat on the bed, still slowly jerking off. It was like he was a horny teenager again. He never usually had sex more than once in a night, and here he was. Josh felt impatient to have his cock inside Tyler again. He moved back so he was leaning against the headboard of Tyler's bed. 

It was probably about another fifteen minutes before Tyler was back. 

Tyler walked back in and let the robe slip from his shoulders. Tyler licked his lips and looked at Josh.

“So am I actually getting fired?” Josh asked as he looked Tyler up and down. 

“Hm. Maybe.” Tyler got on Josh’s lap, “Convince me. Maybe I’ll keep you around as my play thing. You’re good at your job, at least.” 

“Yeah? If you don’t fire me, maybe I’ll fuck you in your office.” 

Tyler grabbed Josh’s cock and slowly sunk down on it. Both of them moaned. 

“No way. When we’re in my office, that’s my domain. I’m your boss in there.” Tyler breathed. 

“Are you not my boss right now too?” Josh’s hands rested on Tyler’s hips. 

“I’m your boss no matter what, even if you do fuck me roughly. Never forget that if you want this to continue.” Tyler closed his eyes and leaned his head back. This time was a lot more relaxed than their first time. 

“So you want to keep going?” Josh asked. 

“Yes.” Tyler nodded, “I can’t give up this dick that easily. But if people suspect anything, your job is gone. I care a lot about my company.” 

“Fuck. Keep threatening me. It’s hot.” Josh made sure his head was resting on the pillow. 

Tyler started rolling his hips faster and let out a whine, “I’ll end you if you tell anyone. Make sure you’re never hired anywhere else. And I’ll keep you here. My toy.” 

“Yours.” Josh panted and bucked up. 

“Exactly. We can use each other. And - fuck- you can use me whenever you want.” Tyler breathed out again, “Our little secret. My secret.” 

“Your secret.” Josh nodded. 

Josh wasn’t sure if Tyler was serious, but he was. Josh would sneak around for years for Tyler. He would do anything - anything - to ensure this didn’t stop. Even lose his job. 

But he didn’t care as he felt Tyler perfectly on top of him, a feeling he was sure he would never get used to.