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The Transition: from salt to light
A pair of thin, desperate hands locked around Abby’s neck in a deadly grip. There was no air left in her throat—only the stinging pressure of saltwater. Her limbs made their last, helpless movements as the world above turned a bruised red, stained by her own blood. Through the shifting layers of the surf, the single silhouette of the boat began to fade, drifting away just like her consciousness.
Suddenly, the cold, clinching weight of the ocean released her. A sharp, alien feeling of weightlessness washed over her. Her chest heaved open, and a flash of agonizing pain tore through her lungs as they braced for the incoming water—but it never came.
Instead, she broke through the surface. The blinding, impossible light of a summer sun struck her eyes, and the roar of the Santa Barbara surf was replaced by the gentle, rhythmic lap of a peaceful shore.
The world meets her with a cacophony of human senses. Abby finds herself in the middle of a crowd. There are too many bodies in too many colorful clothes. People. Their movements aren't frantic like a Runner's, but they lack precision—a total waste of energy. There isn't the dead silence of the ghost cities; instead, there is the roar of the horde. Laughter and shouts, too loud to be safe. The most torturous thing is the smell of hot, fried food. The world spins around Abby in an insane dance, making her dizzy. Nausea crawls up her throat alongside her desperate attempts to simply catch her breath.
She drops to her knees. The water is terrifyingly clear, devoid of the blood that should be there. She stares at her thin shaking hands. She thinks of the pillars, the months of hunger, and the strength Ellie drained out of her. Her body hasn't just failed; it has withered into this small, helpless thing.
— Abbs? Honey, are you alright?
The man's voice is a physical blow. It narrows her world until everything else—the crowd, the noise, the sun—blurs into static. Rushing splashes get closer, and Abby forces her head up.
The silhouette is unmistakable. It’s the final piece of the puzzle. She has lost the fight. The "dying brain" has finally served up the one face it always kept in reserve. And as she looks at him, the grief isn't for herself—it’s for the boy who stays alone on the beach. In the end, she couldn't save him, she couldn't save any of her people.
The Transition: from space to chamber
A pair of thin, desperate hands locked around Abby’s neck in a deadly grip. The pain from her fingerless palm felt like a mirror of her victim's agony. But then, the desperate thrashes of the dying body abruptly stopped. The resistance of powerful, tight muscles vanished, leaving behind only amorphous, soft tissue. No pulse. No heat of a living being.
The strong, monstrous body that had chased her through years of nightmares was gone. Beneath her knees, the sucking sand was replaced by the shock of hard, wet stone.
Ellie heard the distant cry of a boy.
The door swung open with a loud, institutional bang, shattering the silence of the laundry room.
— Williams! Watch what you're doing! You're flooding the floor!
Ellie jerked her hands back from the sink, her lungs burning with the ghost of saltwater and the metallic tang of adrenaline. The soapy water felt slim and nasty against her skin—a sickening mimicry of the blood that should have been there, but wasn't. The view she had craved for years, the sight of Abby’s dead, glassy eyes, was gone. In its place were fucking bubbles and a pile of ugly, grey clothes.
The crushing weight of her stolen redemption was stronger than any fear of the intruder. The "Williams!" shout didn't scare her; it only amplified the vacuum where her soul used to be. The soap was a layer of slime she couldn't escape, a film over a reality she didn't recognize.
In a sharp, reflexive reach—the kind of muscle memory that survives a thousand kills—Ellie’s right hand flew to her pocket. She was looking for the weight of her switchblade, the familiar click of the spring, the only thing that made sense in a world of threats.
Her hand hit flat, empty cotton. No steel. No weapon.
A snarl started in her throat. She frantically wipes the "nasty" foam onto her thighs. She needed her grip. She needed to be ready. But as she brought her hands up to scan for the threat, the world stopped. The worker’s shouting became a muffled roar, distant and meaningless.
Ellie stared at her left hand.
It was wet, trembling, and impossible. The two jagged stumps she had carried since the beach were gone. Her pinky and ring finger were back—slim, smooth, and unscarred. They looked like the hands of a child. The phantom pain of the bite was still screaming in her brain, but the evidence had been erased. She wasn’t healed. She was hollowed out.
— Williams! I am talking to you!
The worker, a woman with a face like crumpled parchment, stepped forward, her hands on her hips in a pose of practiced institutional cruelty.
— You’ve flooded the floor again. You’ve been staring at that sink for ten minutes like a catatonic, — she snapped, her voice rising to a shrill peak. — Since you like the water so much, you can spend the rest of the week scrubbing the grout in the basement showers. No dinner tonight. Maybe hunger will help you remember how to follow simple rules.
Ellie didn't look at her. She didn't reach for a blade she no longer possessed. She just slowly closed her new hand into a fist, feeling the skin stretch over knuckles that shouldn't exist.
— I’m not Williams, — she whispered, her voice a jagged ghost of the woman who had been drowning her rival five minutes ago.
— One more word of that back-talk and I'll have the Director put you in the solitary unit, — the worker warned, — dry your hands and move. Now.
Ellie didn't argue. She didn't have the strength or the purpose to deny her. With the mechanical compliance of a broken machine, she turned and followed the worker toward the basement. The sentinel was gone; only the shell remained, ready to scrub the world away until the blood felt real again.