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The internet is very big place and “Landoscar” is beginning to get more fame putting more spotlight on the two McLaren drivers, it had started since they had first met and officially became teammates the internet and fans seemed to think that they’d look pretty good together not just as teammates but as something way more . Lando and Oscar thought it was funny at first and took as a joke not really thinking too much about it they made jokes with each other and gave the fans teasing hints leading them into a endless treasure hunt.
Andrea Stella,even joked with them that they sometimes looked like a couple so Lando and Oscar thought it was funny not really taking it serious Lando felt a tug at his chest but he never really knew why . He and Oscar spoke about it once in the paddock and agreed to lead the fans on and pretend , they started with lingering touches and looks the fans online seemed to catch on pretty fast to those lingering touches and looks. Then they started sitting a little to close to each other just for the cameras even with that Lando felt that unmistakable tug at his chest once again he didn’t know what it was or what it meant he didn’t like it , it was all pretend after all.. wasn’t it..?
And whenever Oscar joked about it lately Lando didn’t know why it made him uncomfortable it kind of messed with his head sure Oscar was a handsome lad but Lando never really thought about it until now , he found himself thinking about Oscar they started as normal thoughts yet sometimes he’d daydream about spending more time with his teammate , sometimes he didn’t just want to be teammates not even just best friends , he wanted to be what the fans thought they were online, but he didn’t really want that now , did he..?
They were both men, men shouldn’t like each other right? Lando always had girls surrounding him . He liked women that’s what he was told he should be ever since he was young it didn’t make sense why it was Oscar that started messing with his head like this , Lando was good at ignoring it at first , but lately it’s begun to be unbearable.. it was starting to really irritate him , sure he loved Oscar but not in that way .. he could never , right..?
When they first started to play along and heard about fans seeing as them as potential parters more then teammates more then friends , Lando thought it was funny till over time it started to become less funny ,more real..more bothersome he started thinking things he never thought about before things he knew he shouldn’t be thinking. Like, how handsome Oscar was , how brown his eyes were , how they were as brown as those Tim tams Oscar had always enjoyed eating, he sometimes even counted the moles and freckles littered about Oscar pretty skin , he thought it was perfect , how luscious Oscar’s hair was , it seemed so soft he often thought about running his fingers through it, how it seemed even more beautiful under the sunlight how Oscar seemed perfect. But sometimes went in other directions he thought Oscar’s body was perfect, Oscar was fit of course he was a driver after all , his gaze subconsciously lingered whenever Oscar took his shirt off, he often had to pry his gaze away.
Oscar was just a friend ,his teammate he was supposed to be a rival , someone he competed against , not someone he thought about being with , Lando kept lying to himself whenever he thought about running his fingers through Oscar’s hair, no it was just styled better today definitely.. maybe it was just the copious amounts of posts he saw online about him and Oscar, that was definitely what was twisting his thoughts. Everyday became somehow more and more unbearable for Lando in a way , he found himself unable to focus in team meetings his thoughts slowly drifting to the other driver across from him, no matter how many times he pushed the thoughts away the main cause of them was right in front of him , he wouldn’t be able to escape him anyways , because for some reason Lando found he couldn’t really live without Oscar in a weird way , wether as a teammate a friend or anything more , it was confusing he couldn’t imagine what it would be like if he hadn’t been teammates with Oscar because even before these feelings , Oscar was always there for him through thick and thin. Oscar always cared for him more then others ever did, paid more attention to him , he noticed how Oscar would stare at him so much so that the fans had dubbed Oscar, Oscar “Heart eyes” Piastri, but even before that nickname Oscar had always looked at Lando with a special kind of affection in his eyes, it always made Lando’s stomach twist in a strange way. Sometimes lately Lando’s feelings for Oscar started to hurt it wasn’t because Oscar hurt him or anything but maybe it was because they’ll never have anything real between them , Oscar had a girlfriend she was a sweet girl she was so .. perfect for Oscar , she was one of Lando’s friends they weren’t close but still counted as friends , she was nice to him she considered him a friend , just how angry or disgusted would she be if she knew how Lando really felt about her boyfriend, his teammate his rival , just how disgusted would Oscar be if he knew , just how much Lando thought about the other man. Lando found he couldn’t even be happy around Oscar anymore because there was always a guilt in his chest an uncomfortable tug he rejected with his mind but his heart thought otherwise , Oscar did nothing wrong except be so.. so perfect in lando’s eyes, Lando found himself staring at Oscar not only with love but also .. shame?… sadness..?, he didn’t know .. but it hurt him deeply that he could never have Oscar in the way that he wanted because Oscar saw him as just a friend someone he held dear , but Lando saw something completely different something he doesn’t want to acknowledge but he already has in a way…