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    The Importance of Strawberries by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    19 Mar 2026

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    “I’m sorry I’m not him,” Shane says, looking away.

    “Who?”

    “Future me. Whoever you fell in love with.” What’s unsaid hangs in the air: whoever fell in love with you. Because this Shane – 2010 Shane – doesn’t love him. Is amused by their daily lessons, comforted by his presence, even grateful. But love?

    “That’s the thing, Shane,” Ilya says. His eyes are shining. “You are, right now, exactly who I fell in love with.”

    In 2031, Shane wakes up in the hospital certain that it's 2010. Ilya is there to remind him of the two decades he's missed and the life they've built along the way.

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    bubblewrap me, baby by Anonymous

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    22 Jan 2026

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    Ilya is sipping a cappuccino and watching Shane do very perverted yoga when he realizes that he doesn’t want to die.

    It’s a dumb series of thoughts. He sees Shane bend over, neatly folding himself into a hunchback as his hands flatten by his feet, and Ilya thinks, I bet he’s going to love it when we’re old and grey and he can outrace me with my stupid hip replacement. And then he realizes that not only does he anticipate being old and grey enough to need a hip replacement, but that he actually wants to get there.

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    Or: the existential crisis that happens when you’ve been depressed your whole life and then realize, suddenly, in your thirties, that you’re happy enough with your life that you no longer want to die.

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    the anatomy of a bird heart in slow decay by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    26 Feb 2026

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    “I used to be so mad that she was gone sometimes, but it’s okay. I forgive her. I would forgive her every time.”

    Something in Yuna’s eyes fractures, like a bird bone under the sole of a shoe. “Your mother is very lucky, then.”

    “Yuna,” Ilya says, and he tries very hard to not look at Shane, to not see the unforgiving, enduring hurt in his eyes when he looks over at his mother, so far away from her that he can’t come home, even though he desperately wants to. He looks at Yuna instead, and somehow, even as he braces against the ice-cold concrete and lets the sound of the whistling wind settle in his ears and has been looking at her for a long time now, he finds himself entirely unprepared for familiar Yuna’s eyes will be when she turns her gaze from the distant streetlamp to him. “You’re very lucky too.”

     

    Shane Hollander is a ghost with a comatose body that won't work, unable to move on because his mom won't come visit him. Ilya Rozanov is the only person who can see and hear him, and against all odds, this is still a love story.

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    get him back! by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    19 Feb 2026

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    Stuck in an alt-world where he and Shane never hooked up as teenagers, Ilya is determined to get Shane back. To do that, Ilya has to figure out a way to get Shane to see him as anyone other than the Russian asshole who has spent a decade pissing him off. It can't be that hard to make your husband fall in love with you... right?

    Basically: Shane Hollander makes a wish with good intentions. Ilya Rozanov wakes up confused, single, closeted, and miserable in Boston.

    +Bonus Chapter where AltWorld!Ilya wakes up confused, married, out, and carefree in Ottawa

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    rozanov's roster by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    02 Jun 2026

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    Emmy: When did you first hook up with him?
    Jane: 2010
    Caro: WHAT
    Megan: GIRL
    Tia: SEVEN YEARS??
    Megan: My jaw is borderline unhinged rn

    Or: In 2017, Shane finds a place where he can talk about his sex life...a group chat for girls who have slept with Ilya Rozanov

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    nighty night, papa's mama by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    21 Jan 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are living the domestic, married life they've always envisioned for themselves. But when their 3-year-old daughter experiences loss for the first time, in the form of a little bumblebee she befriended, Ilya finds himself guiding her through grief.

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    Friendship In Retrospect by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    13 Jan 2026

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    Cliff Marleau gets assigned to keep the new Russian rookie out of trouble. Fifteen years later, he gives a speech at Ilya's wedding.

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    Baby Centaurs by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    05 Feb 2026

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    To be clear, Ilya is grateful the rookies aren’t growing up the way he did in the NHL. Ilya took the hazing to the chin – humiliation rituals, beat downs, grueling practices to prove he could “hang” with the big guns on the team.

    That being said, there’s still some part of Ilya that balks at the request by the gaggle of rookies to watch The Iron Giant, a veritable children’s movie at the team’s latest movie night.

    OR: Five times Shane and Ilya were the support system for the Centaur rookies they dreamed of having when they were younger.

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    A very patient man by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    13 Jan 2026

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    David Hollander gets stuck in an elevator with Ilya Rozanov.
    It turns out rivals are different off the ice and sometimes parents notice more than their children think.

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    How to Meet Cute by

    Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America - All Media Types  

    18 Mar 2018

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    Hi.

    That’s it. That’s Steve’s word. You’re supposed to meet upwards of eighty thousand people in the course of a lifetime, and that’s all Steve gets.

    Hi.

    There’s nothing else. No time, no date, just the first thing said to him by his soulmate seared in neat black letters across the middle of his wrist.

    You know how many people say ‘hi’ as a way of introducing themselves to someone they’ve never met?

    A lot. A lot of a lot.

    It's a problem.

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    I'll be Jane by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    27 Jan 2026

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    It’s not going viral because Jane’s true identity was exposed—or even because Ilya was blatantly sexting in public. That part’s as expected as Shane doing yoga or any human being on earth breathing.

    No, the texts are going viral because no one can believe how bad this “Jane” is at sexting.

    The women of the world are outraged. The men of the world are baffled. No one can understand why Ilya Rozanov, whose abs have their own fan club, is wasting his time on ‘a piece of cardboard that wished to be turned into a real girl’ (this particular joke has 300k likes and counting).

    Or: After a social media trend mocks Shane's sexting skills, he tries to improve them. It goes about as poorly as you'd expect.

    Now available in Russian

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    Keep Pace by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    30 Dec 2025

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    If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away. ~ Thoreau

    Or;

    What happened when Yuna and Shane were talking.

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    hot mics and hotter rivalries (or how i learned to stop worrying and let my boyfriend out us on national television) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    10 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander is going to murder his agent.

    And he means that literally. Because his agent is the reason he’s currently wearing a hot mic during Hockey Night in Canada. Against the Ottawa Centaurs. Against Ilya.

    Ilya, who has no filter. Ilya, who thinks workplace professionalism is a hilarious suggestion for other people. Ilya, who has spent a decade perfecting the art of saying absolutely unhinged things to Shane on the ice, safe in the knowledge that nobody can hear him.

    Ilya, who definitely doesn’t know about the microphone.

    What follows is sixty minutes of Shane’s life flashing before his eyes while his secret boyfriend enthusiastically discusses their sex life, their broken furniture, and exactly what he wants to do to Shane after the game — all broadcast to millions of viewers.

    The problem? Shane can’t get a word in edgewise to warn him.

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    in this essay i will (survive attempted murder by the universe) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    07 Jan 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has three problems: 1) he’s an NHL superstar 2) he’s hopelessly in love with his supposed rival, and 3) apparently writing fanfiction about it has cursed him with biblically proportionate bad luck.

    Between engine failures, fractured ankles, choking incidents, apartment floods, broken noses, fire alarms, and getting stuck in elevators, a reasonable person would stop writing.

    Ilya Rozanov is not a reasonable person.

    (A documentary of one man’s war against the AO3 author’s curse.)

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    and i spit out the seeds by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    30 Oct 2025

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    A video of Shane sucking Ilya’s dick is leaked. Over the next twenty-four hours, Ilya goes on an odyssey.

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    please leave a message by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    19 Dec 2025

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    Sarah
    Does anyone have the number for Shane's girl from Boston? I feel bad that they've been seeing each other for this long and we've never added her here.

    Jackie
    Oh good point! Let me ask Hayden.

    Jackie has added Lily to the conversation

    Lily
    what
    what is this

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is, apparently, one of the girls.

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    Soulmates (or Shane and Ilya winning the Love Game) by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    05 Oct 2025

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    He knew it stung Ilya, people not understanding. It stung him too. Because to Shane, loving Ilya was like breathing and also like standing on solid ground after years of drifting. It flooded him and steadied him at the same time. It hurt, knowing the world reduced them to a rivalry, a strange story, a piece of scandalous gossip when what they had was so much more. He wanted to be by Ilya’s side for everything, the mundane, the bright and the hard. And maybe not everyone who was in love felt like this, so overwhelmed and so steadied all at once. But Shane did. And if love was a contest, well… he is the winner.
    Best couple. Number one. Most epic love story ever.

    Or 4 times Shane told people him and Ilya were practically soulmates and the 1 time the universe told him.

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    The Centaurs Have a PR Problem (and It’s Married) by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    16 May 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are finally on the same team! The Centaurs’ communications and PR department hasn’t known peace since.

    Featuring: the unhinged internet, chaotic group chats, Ilya being a menace, Shane being very tired, Harris trying (and failing) to contain the chaos, Luca accidentally starring in his own little rom-com, wholesome group dynamics and love all around.

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    Some Other Beginning's End by

    Fandoms: Hockey RPF  

    25 Jul 2014

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    “So I say, before I’m thinking through, I say am getting married,” Geno says and glances up at Sid and then back down again. “They say to American?” Geno seems reluctant to continue. Sid’s stuck on trying to figure out who Geno is marrying and why he didn’t tell Sid about it. “I say, ‘no, to Canadian.'”

    Sid makes a face. Because seriously, Sid feels like he would’ve heard if Geno was dating someone that seriously. But then again, he had no idea Geno had a kid until he was sitting in a hotel room in fucking Finland.

    “Who?” Sid finally asks when Geno seems like he’s not going to continue.

    Geno takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly. “You.”

    “Me what?” Sid asks stupidly.

    or

    The summer Russia invaded Ukraine and Geno had to marry Sid: a love story.

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    You Know You Have a Permanent Piece of My Medium-Sized American Heart by for iamtheenemy (Steph)

    Fandoms: The Martian (2015)  

    19 Dec 2015

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    “Hey Hermes!” The ambient suspicion level in the Rec ratcheted up significantly. Kapoor was disturbingly cheerful. “We’ve sent you some mission updates in the data dump, but Mitch and I wanted to personally let you know—” Mitch visibly rolled his eyes in the background. “—That thanks to some…strong suggestions from the White House, and on Annie and Director Sanders’ recommendation, we’ve started releasing Watney’s Mars logs to the public.”

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