Codas
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Sam asks about the form of the qareen that Dean saw. Dean confides in him and confesses something probably long-overdue.
Basically a rewrite (which y'all know just means "fix") of Se11Ep13, Love Hurts.
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- Part 1 of Codas
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Cas is in pain. A lot of pain. And he wants it all to end. He thinks of seeking help, but the only help he could ever want is from the man who doesn't care. The one who told him himself that he didn't; that no one does.
"Do you remember when I told you I thought I might kill myself? I am going to do it now."
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- Part 2 of Codas
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Sam and Dean share funny stories about Cas, when Dean confesses something he should have said a long time ago
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- Part 3 of Codas
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Dean waits by the window, watching the trees wave in the wind.
Cas appears.
They talk.Dean tells him he's too tired.
Cas tells him to stay.Series
- Part 4 of Codas
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Dean kept his eyes fixed firmly in front of him, stared hard and cold at the white-plastered wall.
Sam seemed unsettled, shifting nervously. This was out of his depth. They both knew that. Dean refused to yield, ignored the thin snake of guilt sliver its way into his gut.
‘I know that it’s hard, but we have to leave eventually,’ Sam continued. ‘And you know what that means.’
Dean suppressed the urge to swallow. He stood like a soldier, rigid and unbreakable. Sam sighed.
‘Dean, he’s dead.’*
Cas is dead. Dean grieves.
(Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance.)
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- Part 5 of Codas
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Cas is dead. For real, dead. "All he way dead," according to that bitch-angel from the diner they'd parked at, where Dean had prayed. He'd been given signs so many times over the years. Every time Cas had seemed to die -walking to that river, plagued with Leviathans; stabbed by a reaper after weeks of homelessness- then the looming threat of "cosmic consequences" with Billie dead in a Winchester's sorry place. He'd even mentioned it; "I don't regret what I did, even if it cost me my life." So...
Why hadn't he said anything?Series
- Part 6 of Codas
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Cas has just come back. Dean is far too happy. And Sam does what needs to be done.
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The one where Sam Winchester convinces Dean to confess his love to Castiel.
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- Part 7 of Codas
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Sam nodded. ‘Yeah,’ he said. ‘Yeah, I’ve seen it, too.’
Rowena stayed silent, nodding slightly, so minutely Sam could barely tell. But there was something hanging in the air, something which had shifted between them. Something like understanding. Like two soldiers who’d just discovered they weren’t fighting the war alone.Coda/headcanon based on the conversation between Sam and Rowena (s13e12).
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- Part 8 of Codas
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"And when you finally give yourself permission to be happy. And let the sun shine on your face... That's when I'll come. That's when I'll come to drag you to nothing."
Dean drives Cas out to the middle of nowhere to talk.
What Cas has to say isn't what Dean was expecting.Series
- Part 9 of Codas
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Dean knows Cas loves nature. He sees it in the way he tilts his head to the sun, how he stares out the passenger window and admires the scenery. He's watching Cas enjoy it. Then he's spreading his ashes in a field. Then Cas is telling him he loves him, and Dean is going back to the field. Sam moves out, and Dean goes back to the field. "See ya soon, Buddy." But Cas isn't there; he's busy building a home for them in Heaven.
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- Part 10 of Codas