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Louis is sent to the countryside for the summer after a mental breakdown that leaves his family exhausted and afraid of him in equal measure.
Lestat de Lioncourt is calm, infuriating, impossible, and far too interested in him.
Louis arrives angry, exhausted, and determined to lay as low as humanly possible.
Unfortunately, Lestat seems to notice everything.
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Louis spends twelve weeks trying not to unravel in front of Lestat and fails spectacularly.
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Louis is sent to the countryside for the summer after a mental breakdown that leaves his family exhausted and afraid of him in equal measure.
Lestat de Lioncourt is calm, infuriating, impossible, and far too interested in him.
Louis arrives angry, exhausted, and determined to lay as low as humanly possible.
Unfortunately, Lestat seems to notice everything.
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Louis spends twelve weeks trying not to unravel in front of Lestat and fails spectacularly
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Refusing to let Ilya ruin his career by signing with Ottawa, Shane chooses to really give their relationship a try and moves to Boston to live with Ilya and become a Raider. What follows is enough public scrutiny and backlash from his team that it has him questioning if he made the right decision. Until moments with Ilya and the Raiders show him exactly why he chose correctly.
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Hayden’s eyes flickered to Shane as he sat on the bench, chewing on the edge of his mouth guard.
“Don’t fucking look at him,” Ilya insisted as he bent down for the faceoff.
“Excuse me?” Hayden mumbled, eyes darting back to him.
“You heard me,” he retorted, his tone clipped. “He’s not your teammate anymore; he’s mine. If you think Marlow is a problem to your game, wait until you see what I will do to your team if you hurt anyone on mine again.”
Hayden scoffed, dipping his head as he tried to focus on the game. Something about Ilya’s words still rang through his head though, sounding so definitive that he didn’t want to risk seeing what he was actually referring to when he said that.
The puck dropped again, and Ilya stole it before he could comprehend how quickly it happened.
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After the events of Heated Rivalry, Shane and Ilya are in a committed but secret relationship. Then Alexei dies, leaving Ilya as the sole guardian of his two nieces.
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“Goka!” Zanka hisses, eyes wide as he tugs on his brother’s sleeve and subtly points at the group, “Goka, who are those people?” The awe in his voice is clear.
They pass each other, Zanka leaning his head behind Goka to continue staring.Quickly, Goka grabs Zanka’s arm that holds his sleeve and pulls him forward.
“Ouch!” He cries. The sudden movement had hurt his shoulder. “Goka-”
“Those people,” Goka interrupts, voice suddenly clipped, “are Cleaners. The Hell Guard works with them sometimes. But you should avoid ‘em as much as possible.”
“Okay.” Zanka accepts easily. If Goka says someone is no good, he’s usually right.
“They’re sick in the head.” Goka grits out.
Or, Zanka grows up wondering.
Or, or, my completely self indugent fic where I make Zanka into a trans girl because I think she has something going on. Something something, repression, something something, Givers as a metaphor for queer awakening.
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Trans girl Zanka Trans girl Zanka Trans girl Zanka!!!!!
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The week before the 2017 All-Star Game, Ilya Rozanov is placed on IR. Ten days later, he disappears from the league entirely. Boston says nothing, and for once, a notoriously fickle league closes ranks.
Every attempt Shane makes to find him hits a wall. In one last desperate, life-altering bid to reach him, Shane comes out to the world, only to be met with Ilya’s silence.
By the time the 2020/21 season begins, Shane has nothing left but hockey and regret. He builds a dynasty, guts his life, and pins the last scraps of his hope on the Metros’ newest transfer, the dangerously hot-headed Cliff Marlow.
Stepping back into the public eye after the worst three years of his life, all Ilya wants is to find some kind of purpose. Shane is done with him, he made that much clear. Ilya isn't about to try to convince himself otherwise. He just wants to prove he still has some use left in him.
Fortunately for both of them, they're still fucking stupid for each other.
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A son’s demise by Matchahaterfrv
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Apr 2026
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She had often been described by the public as ‘intense’ , she’d much rather call herself passionate but oh well. She just wanted what’s best for her son. To protect him from the harsh public opinion.
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An exploration on the unintentional pressure and its consequences that Yuna Hollander caused her son.
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Tastes Like Control by carnationhes
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 May 2026
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“It’s just a thing, I guess.”
“I think you are hurting yourself. On purpose.”
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- Part 2 of After Eight
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onging hollanov mafia!au
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The vast majority of kids currently staring at him were well into their teen years. Some closer to aging out of the system than others, but nearly every single kid was fourteen or older. Still they asked valuable questions and some showed a clear interest in being recruited one day. It wasn’t until the students were disbursing and Bobby had turned to pack up his gear that he felt as though he was being watched. Glancing up from the table where he’d put his turnout gear and assorted equipment his eyes landed on a little strawberry blonde head that was staring at him with the bluest eyes Bobby had ever seen.
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- Part 1 of Beautiful Boy AU
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Clear Eyes, Full Stomachs, Can’t Lose by nichristi
Fandoms: Project Hail Mary (2026), Project Hail Mary - Andy Weir, Andy Weir's Project Hail Mary - All Media Types, The Martian (2015), The Martian - Andy Weir
07 Jun 2026
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Somewhere in what I’m pretty sure is my mid-fifties, an extra-eridian spacecraft screams into orbit around Erid. And I do mean screams.
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"Well, he hates me, for starters" by Give_me_my_Jimmy
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga)
18 May 2026
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"Am I... loveable?"
All conversation died immediately as five pairs of eyes settled on Katsuki with varying degrees of utter shock.
"Fucking hello?" Mina, the first one to recover, eyed her glass suspiciously and set it down. "I asked for a mocktail tonight not raw vodka."
Eijiro wiped a tear. "Our little kacchaling has grown wings."
Denki squeezed Sero's arm as tears dampened his face. Shoto also eyed his glass with suspicion. Maybe he should lay off the drinks for a while
Mina chirped. "I need to know everything on this man, stat!"
It could have been the alcohol, although Katsuki was very sure he wasn't drunk on anything but love. A smile graced his face. "Well, he hates me, for starters."
"My hero."
Katsuki shot a glare at Shoto, who looked anywhere but at him.
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In which, Katsuki develops a crush on Eijiro's neighbour who seemed to want nothing to do with him. Katsuki wasn't one to give up that easily. He would date the freckled idiot so hard that he would be begging for more.
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To Be Desired by NymeriaKing (DisappearingGirl)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Jun 2026
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He answered with no preface, no pretense, just the bare facts. “I'm at the hospital with Shane. He wasn't waking up for me.”
The line was quiet for a bit, almost long enough for Hayden to start thinking she'd put the phone down. When she spoke, her tone was serious.
“What do you mean, not waking up?”
“I got to Drapeau's place and tried to wake him up to get him in the car, but he wouldn't wake up. It was like he couldn't. And then,” he trailed off, unsure what to even say about what he found to his wife.
“And then what?”
He took a deep breath, reluctant to say it out loud, but he had to tell her. “I think something bad happened to him, Jacks. Like, really bad.”
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Shane is sexually assaulted at a house party in Montreal. He, Hayden, and Ilya make their attempts to recover in the aftermath.
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20 xx Shaane was asexually assaulted at a team party and the video was posted. They want him to retire!!!
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Max Verstappen has always been destined for greatness. Ruthless on the ice as well as off it, he will crush anyone who gets in his way, including his biggest rival George Russell, whose resentment for Max runs deep. George can’t stand how easily everything comes to Max, and he wants nothing more than to beat him.
Oscar Piastri’s only goal is to prove himself – as a rookie, distractions are something that he cannot afford. His focus is entirely on the ice, yet he can’t help it drifting to the figure skater that is so often occupying it – Lando Norris, the fallen star determined to rediscover his footing.
Four athletes, two sports, and one shared rink where the lines begin to blur.
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“Did you… Did you get a whole roll of wrapping paper for it?”
“Yes. And ribbon.”
“You’re cute.”
“Shut up.”
// shane’s birthday is next week. ilya has gifts for him.
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Ave María, ¿Cuándo serás mía? Except it turns out 'cuando' is really relative when it's time travel, y'all by Des98
Fandom Project Hail Mary (2026), Project Hail Mary - Andy Weir
05 Jun 2026
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Back for their Eighth Year at Hogwarts, Harry and Malfoy's mutual hatred persists. Malfoy appears unwell, guarded, and as usual, up to something. Despite his own mental struggles, Harry is determined to uncover Malfoy's secrets.
Malfoy catches him spying one night. During their confrontation, Filch starts heading their way. They hide in a cramped closet together, triggering Harry's childhood memories and sending him into a panic attack.
“I’m not them,” Draco whispered, his voice losing its edge, replaced by a hollow, aching realization.
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Expert in a Dying Field by medric
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Apr 2026
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Today is Tuesday, but it might as well be Wednesday or Thursday for all it matters. It’s a real Groundhog Day situation, Shane thinks, only Ilya isn’t aware and Shane doesn’t care about breaking the time loop, too content with their life to make any changes.
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Expert in a Dying Field
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Today is Tuesday, but it might as well be Wednesday or Thursday for all it matters. It’s a real Groundhog Day situation, Shane thinks, only Ilya isn’t aware and Shane doesn’t care about breaking the time loop, too content with their life to make any changes.
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With aging parents this one HITS like a truck. So good.
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After Shane’s kidnapping, Ilya vows he’ll never let anybody touch Shane again.
The voice in his mind that sounds like his mother—her face lost to time, now even her voice fading away—urges him to leave the family business and embrace Shane as an honest man. The voice that sounds like his father’s tells him to lock up his heart and throw away the key.
That way, nobody can hurt him again.
(Or: after Shane is kidnapped and almost killed, Ilya chooses a different path. He’s as much his father’s son as he is his mother’s, after all.)
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“Don’t go anywhere,” Craig snaps his fingers in front of Kenny’s face, jaw flexes with the clench of his teeth. “I better not fucking lose you, Kenny. This is you. Yeah? What you wanted, Kenny? Say it.”
Kenny hums. Yeah, probably. It’s probably exactly what he wanted. That’s probably the issue.
“Need a cigarette?”
If Kenny wasn’t so out of his mind he’d know Craig isn’t offering him a smoke. But because he is — he doesn’t know this until there’s a searing burn at his thigh. Kenny jolts and his fingers curl around blue sheets. The pain is quick but sharp and pulsing for seconds after.
“Craig,” Kenny mumbles, voice raw.
“Look at me.”
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(Usually, when Craig fucks Kenny it’s ’cause Kenny’s already been fucked back at home. Craig doesn’t really mind until he does.)
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- Part 1 of crenny things (:
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Shane takes Ilya on his first date.