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    At just twenty-three, the golden boy of hockey, Shane Hollander, had his career pulled right out from under him. Five years pass since he left the ice on a backboard and slowly but surely, disappeared.

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    25 Mar 2026

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    It was new, knowing he was cohabitating with his mother. They couldn't speak, not truly, and he couldn't feel her touch barring occasional cold spots, but there was a weight in the air just knowing she was there. Growing pains, Ilya thought softly.

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    Shane and Ilya struggle to be together while juggling his dead ghost mother's unfinished business, the mental illness Ilya swears he doesn't have, homophobia Shane promises he's not a victim of, and Russia which seems unwilling to let them go.

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    24 Mar 2026

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    Luca "the future of hockey" Haas has a meltdown on the ice in the final five minutes of the game.

    So naturally, the best way Luca thought to rebrand was by throwing himself into a summer athlete campaign with the Centaurs, in hope to outrun the fear that he’ll never be as skilled, confident, or sexually expressive as Ilya Rozanov was at his age.

    But when the harmless Luca Haas snaps and shocks everyone by fistfighting with Filipino-Canadian youth athlete Angelo Perez, summer quickly derails into a dilemma to be seen as mature, living up to the expectations of the team, and these newfound, guilty urges for the very guy he fought on day one.

    Centaur matchmaking. Missing home. A messy summer fling. A mean article. An exploration of what sparks are supposed to feel like. And Ilya catches Luca buying condoms.

    And a “bad influence” that makes Luca feel—maybe for just one summer—that it's okay to be a little selfish.

    OR; Practically a character study of Luca Haas' insecurities + his foil to Rozanov disguised as me trying to revive the scrapped Haas book

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    23 Mar 2026

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
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    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Emmy: When did you first hook up with him?
    Jane: 2010
    Caro: WHAT
    Megan: GIRL
    Tia: SEVEN YEARS??
    Megan: My jaw is borderline unhinged rn

    Or: In 2017, Shane finds a place where he can talk about his sex life...a group chat for girls who have slept with Ilya Rozanov

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    20 Mar 2026

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