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    “I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”

    “Yes.”

    The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.

    “Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”

    Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”

    * * *

    or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house

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    12 Jul 2026

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    “Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”

    Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.

    Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.

    “I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.

    The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.

    He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.

    (shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

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    09 Jul 2026

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    when shane gets the injury that would come to end his career, in the moment he’s just thankful he didn’t break his jaw.

    or: shane knew, in the abstract, that one day he would play his last professional nhl game. it never occurred to him that hockey would choose that day for him.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane joins the Centaurs and Ilya thinks he’s won the lottery. Maybe he did, but there are repercussions. For one, Hollander is impressive. Hollander wins games. But, he wanted to play with Shane.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander comes out and unleashes Shane Hollander Hysteria across the NHL.
    All-stars circle like it's free agency and he’s the only contract available.
    DMs combust. Rival captains get bold.
    Connections start forming faster than anyone can keep up.
    The Metros couldn’t care less because Shane keeps dominating on the ice while getting fucked in multiple time zones.
    It becomes the worst-kept secret in professional hockey: everyone wants their turn.
    Or:
    Shane Hollander comes out and discovers freedom can look like a lot of things.
    Sometimes it looks like sex across time zones.
    Sometimes it looks like queer community forming around him across the league.
    Sometimes it looks like becoming the most confident version of himself he has ever been.
    Shane Hollander is having a great time.
    This fic is loud, messy, and sometimes a little ridiculous until it isn’t.

    Shane-centric.
    Multiple partners/poly dynamics.
    Character studies of many different men.
    Finding queer joy and community.
    Autism, mental illness, and different attachment styles.
    Or as I like to say..
    A slow emotional horror story inside a romcom porno.


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    04 Jun 2026