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There’s something else troubling Shane now, Ilya knows. He can wait; with Shane’s weight on his front, his face so close to his own, and the sun setting, he can wait forever. “You think she’d like me? If she’d met me?”
The weight is still on his front, their faces are still close, the sun is still setting. There’s a new weight now; Mama’s cross, suddenly so heavy that he thinks he’s having trouble breathing, although that cannot be true. He doesn’t need to think about it, and he knows what he should say, knows the answer that would keep that hopeful glimmer present in Shane’s big, blinking eyes. But he also knows that Shane would see right through him. And they promised not to lie, not here.
So, Ilya does. “I don’t know,” he whispers, barely whispers, and the admission burns his throat. He doesn’t know what it is, after that; the pre-existing knot constricting his throat, the ray of light that catches the edge of his crucifix and causes it to glow, like an agreement, or, most likely, the way Shane’s eyes widen just a fraction, before he conceals the shock and schools his features into something more neutral.
or, Shane is curious, and Ilya tries to reconcile with his faith
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24 Jun 2026
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you hollow out my hungry eyes by laurenswriting
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 May 2026
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"rose, give me one good reason why i should go to a fucking emo music festival."
“your drummer boy is playing.”
shane freezes. he doesn’t know the guy’s name or the band he’s in, and he doesn’t know a damn thing about the guy other than the fact that he’s russian, according to rose, but —
those curls. and his drummer arms.
“what time do you wanna leave on saturday?”
or: when rose wins two tickets to warped tour 2005's montreal date, shane figures he's in for a day of sweaty, drunk festivalgoers, music that's loud enough to give him a migraine, and maybe a few glimpses of that hot russian drummer in rose's favorite band. he gets a lot more than he bargained for.
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- Part 1 of songs about jane
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- 32,030
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- 2/2
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22 Jun 2026
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Gay During That Goal, Too by batsbeerandbaddecisions
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Jun 2026
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Shane Hollander accidentally comes out to his hockey team after years of hiding his sexuality behind carefully crafted personas and unfinished coming out speeches. As the Metros slowly begin icing him out on and off the ice, Shane spirals between rage, grief, and self-discovery—while Ilya refuses to let him forget exactly who he is.
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- 3/3
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19 Jun 2026
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Wide Turning Radius by gevaisa
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
10 May 2026
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19 Jun 2026
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why can't you come stitch me up? by raniza
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
19 Jun 2026
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What did he think was going to happen?
Of course Ilya wasn't going to choose him.
And now, he stood in their kitchen like a stranger, having to pretend be okay with the fact that Ilya went out and hooked up with Svetlana on a night meant to celebrate hockey's greatest. A party he wasn't even invited to as a captain himself.
What a fucking joke.
He spent the entire day coming up with meticulous loopholes and justifications for something that was actually quite simple—nobody remembered. Shane was wholeheartedly forgotten and he was too proud, or maybe dense, to figure it out himself.
Or, the one where Ilya forgets Shane’s birthday. Coping ensues.
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- Part 5 of raniza’s hollanov au’s!
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- English
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- 10,632
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- 2/2
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18 Jun 2026
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“It’s all about their weaknesses,” the coach’s voice echoes through the stadium. “This is Ottawa, they hardly have any strengths aside from their goalie and Ilya Rozanov. The rest of the team isn’t much to be concerned about.”
“That’s offensive,” a voice cuts through the speech.
Everyone looks up to find Ilya Rozanov standing a few feet away. Nonchalantly leaning against a pillar and looking fucking hot while doing it. Shane mentally whacks himself for letting his mind drift anywhere close to the boundary that he has set up for while being on the ice. No thought of how hot his fiancé is or what he wants to–
Hayden nudges him hard. Everyone is looking at him, but he has no idea what happened, too lost in his own thoughts because of Ilya fucking Rozanov.
“I said,” Ilya’s voice sounds, and in an instant Shane’s eyes are on his fiancé again. “I’d like to have a word with your captain.”
OR: Ilya picks Shane up after practice, with the idea of having lunch with his fiancé. They run into some Centaurs and Shane, although he may deny it, gets a little jealous of how affectionate they're allowed to be with his fiancé. Biting his tongue is getting increasingly more difficult.
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17 Jun 2026
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coming home to you (with my own blood in my mouth) by nightrose
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
28 Jun 2026
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Ilya’s heart is breaking. He doesn’t want the first thing he does, the very first thing, after Shane’s choices have been so brutally ripped away from him, to be something Shane is begging him not to do. But Shane is seriously injured, much beyond what they can handle with first aid at home or even if they found a discreet doctor to make a house call. He will need an MRI, a broken bone set, probably surgery. And evidence should be collected too, for the police. That part Ilya will not push him on. But he cannot let Shane risk his life for his pride and the fear of shame that has controlled him for so long. “I am sorry, moy lyubimyy,” Ilya says, “So sorry. But Marleau is calling ambulance, and you are going to the hospital.”
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Shane and Ilya are spending Christmas together in Boston during Ilya's last season playing for the Bears. They're finally out, and they're in love, and soon they'll only live two hours apart.
When Shane is assaulted, the plans they had built for their future collapse. Now the road ahead is a long, grueling process of physical and psychological recovery. What they had before-the sex, the playful power exchange, the easy trust-is gone, and they have to build something new, together.
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- 13/25
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15 Jun 2026
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Shandry's Third @shaneybaby
uhhh so im on r/shanehollander rn and some guy is claiming to have cloned shane’s dad’s phone and uploaded it to the internet?? has anyone else clicked on this link will it give me a virus if i do
7:03 P.M. | 12 Jan 2018 | 135.1k retweets | 232.1k likes
Shandry's Third @shaneybaby
okay I googled his dad and he’s a 52 year old forensic accountant who thinks fashion peaked with ralph lauren polo shirts. am I enough of a hollander simp to risk my laptop just to look through the phone of his dad who acts like sandals and bermuda shorts are a risqué choice. yes.
7:04 P.M. | 12 Jan 2018 | 137.1k retweets | 235.9k likes
Shandry's Third @shaneybaby
oh my god his password for everything is ShaneHollander24. pov you love your son so much that it compromises your bank account
7:04 P.M. | 12 Jan 2018 | 143.7k retweets | 250.7k likes
Shandry's Third @shaneybaby
HOLY FUCK
7:19 P.M. | 12 Jan 2018 | 337.1k retweets | 413.3k likes
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- 7/?
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08 Jun 2026
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all along there was some invisible string (tying you to me) by dezzzy
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Jun 2026
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Shane Hollander is just trying to make enough money to survive as a master's student at Harvard.
Ilya Rozanov is a star center in the NHL, and wants to find something to relieve stress. He stumbles across a Camboy profile of a beautiful man with the cutest freckles.
They are on a collision course that will change both of their lives forever.
(The Camboy AU that no one asked for, but I'm writing it anyway.)
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- 15/?
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06 Jun 2026
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back to the start by WriteThroughTheNight
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
10 Apr 2026
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“Okay,” Ilya says. His thumb restarts its soothing. “Then say it all wrong, and I will understand anyway.”
So Shane tries, reaches out and hopes for Ilya to reach back. “My first year with the Metros wasn’t… great. I mean, I played great hockey, but those first few years, the room wasn’t…"
“Room wasn’t great,” Ilya repeats. “What does this mean? Not great like calling you slurs? Not great like hazing?”
Shane stiffens, then forcibly relaxes. He tries to make his voice light, “A little, uh. A little of both, I guess.”
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Shane's metric for a normal locker room is skewed. Ilya (and the Centaurs) are happy to help.
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- English
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- 5,128
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- 1/1
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05 Jun 2026
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Shane thought that by the time he was thirty, he’d be married and on the waitlist to adopt a baby. He spent his twenties in one serious longterm relationship after another, after all.
Instead he is now twenty-nine, single for over a year and looking for a nice, stable boyfriend: preferably college educated and in the same place in life as he is.
The only problem is that the bartender at the restaurant Shane takes his dates to is the hottest man Shane has ever seen in his life.
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- 18,316
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- 1/1
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02 Jun 2026
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A glimpse into Shane and Ilya's life after getting together on Facebook Marketplace, and a short-lived attempt at finding a third roommate.
A sequel to hi shane, is this still available?
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- Part 2 of message sent to seller
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- English
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- 10,172
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- 1/1
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30 May 2026
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In late 2014, celebrity photos start dropping. Ilya deletes his texts, his photos, a video he should never have taken. It isn't soon enough.
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- 8/8
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29 May 2026
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Shane could not come out, not right now. His image, his career was at stake and though he knew Ilya had selflessly given up his country for him and he hated he couldn’t do the same, as much as he loved Ilya, there was no life in which he could imagine himself not playing hockey.
It was a Monday morning when the pictures came out.
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28 May 2026
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Operation O Canada, or The Hollander-Rozanov Method of Soft Launching a Marriage by robbinscinquefoil
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 May 2026
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“Can’t hang out tonight, Hayd. I have plans.”
“Bullshit,” Hayden responds. “You never have plans.”
Objectively, this used to be true. Nowadays Shane has many, many plans, between his nightly plans to look at Ilya’s penis through Skype and his various long-term plans laid out helpfully in his notebook, Canva (For Ilya’s sake. He is a visual learner), and more recently, Excel. Shane loves that excel sheet. He’s colour coded it.
In 2017, Shane Hollander spirals and proposes to his boyfriend of 4 days (or 7 years, or 9 years, or not his boyfriend at all, depending on how you look at it), which leads to a lot of plans, weird theories in the Montreal Voyageur locker room, some Twitter drama, and Ilya Rozanov entering his WAG era.
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- Part 1 of Operation O Canada
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- English
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- 118,812
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- 8/8
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- 5,177
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27 May 2026
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Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.
Except, well. Then there are zombies.
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- 95,670
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- 3/3
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- 2,775
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27 May 2026
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to find my own peace by scarlettroses
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 Apr 2026
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27 May 2026
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leftover cake by scarlettroses
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Apr 2026
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One thing the Montréal Voyageurs and the 1998-99 Ottawa Hornets U9A have in common is that Shane Hollander thought they liked him, up until he found out they didn’t.
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or, the one where they have chairs at the wedding.
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- Part 1 of to find my own peace
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27 May 2026
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Yuna thinks that if her baby could talk, he would have a lot to tell her. Perhaps he already has opinions on her parenting.
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Baby Shane growing up, from Yuna's perspective
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26 May 2026
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Shane has an addiction.
It started small, when he was younger—pinching himself so hard that it almost bleeds, or picking his skin continuously until the world around him quiets down.
But this addiction is different—different from the head banging, different from the skin picking, or from the pinching. It felt convenient, grounding, comforting, necessary
or;
If Shane self harms, how would vegas and tuna melt gate affect him?
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23 May 2026