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Shane is technically moving on.
Objectively, he’s doing great. He has a stable relationship with James, an emotionally healthy businessman who texts him good morning every day, folds laundry correctly, and somehow makes stability feel both comforting and slightly alarming.
The problem is that Shane has unfortunately never loved anything normally in his entire life, and definitely not Ilya, his ex-boyfriend, former secret, and current ongoing psychological condition.
Shane and Ilya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and have both theoretically moved on. Now Ilya has Alice and Shane has James.
Unfortunately, they are still completely in love with each other and handling that with the emotional maturity of two men who communicate primarily through hockey and prolonged eye contact.
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Or basically Shane and Illya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and they "moved on" but not really because they physically and mentally cannot fully give themselves to other people.- Language:
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11 Jun 2026
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Watershed by Shanebug (Wildandflourecent), Wildandflourecent
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
10 Jul 2026
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“Ilya, are you deflecting because YOU don’t want to go?” The brown eyes Ilya folded for every time narrowed, flashing from pleading to suspicious in an instant. “C’mon, it would be so nice to just be in real nature for a bit.”
Okay, fine. Ilya did not want to go. As much as he loved their team, he did not want to share his precious summertime with Shane paddling around a lake like some kind of 1800s fur trader. And frankly, he did not want to find out what constituted “real” nature in Shane’s mind.
Or: When Shane insists they partake in the annual Centaurs canoe trip, Ilya wants no part in it. Throughout the trip though, Ilya gets to reflect on all the ways he and Shane have grown individually, together, and by being well-loved by their team.
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- Part 2 of Est. 2021
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- 6/6
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28 May 2026
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Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.
Except, well. Then there are zombies.
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28 May 2026
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silver spoons (and butter knives) by whokilledkat
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Jun 2026
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Ilya wondered if his heart was still beating in his chest. Ilya spoke words to Galina that did not resonate with him. He spewed bullshit and half lies and assured, “No, no thoughts for a while. They’ve been going away,” even though they were the only thing that echoed through his mind with each beat of his pulse. Ilya was dying. Slowly. With every breath. Either that, or going insane. Probably, most likely, insane. But above all, Ilya was lonely, and could not take the silence anymore.
Ilya, 3:52 PM: This is the worst thing you have ever done to me, Shane Hollander.
He felt so pathetic. Begging on his hands and knees for love. He wondered what he had done in a past life to constantly be pleading to god for any kind of love.
Ilya Rozanov sustained a bad injury late last season that he just can't seem to shake. He feels himself start to slowly unravel, unable to face the fact that the one thing he has always been able to hold on to may not be his at all anymore. As his performance declines, his mental health begins to take a tumble with it.
Set after the long game, where Ilya needs therapy, is in denial, and at war with himself.
Title inspired from song Silver Spoon by Erin Lecount
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14 May 2026
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I Hated the Dark… Until You Became My Light. by ljlwriter
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
19 Jul 2026
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He killed Shane Hollander's family. Now Shane is trapped in his camp, forced to heal soldiers under Ilya Rozanov's cold command. The plan is simple: wait and drive a knife through the monster's heart. But when Ilya discovers Shane isn't just a healer, but the rarest omega in existence, the mission turns into a brutal, possessive game of survival. Shane hates him with every fiber of his being. He just can't figure out why his body—and his heart—refuse to listen.
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12 May 2026
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To my dearest by mochababy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Jun 2026
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“Ilya–” Shane breathed, high and wheezy. “You can’t– You can’t leave me! Please, God, please, don’t take him. Please, please, I can’t lose– I can’t–”
A blaring alarm yanked him out of his panic like a fish out of water. He shot upright, flailing his limbs that were caught in something soft. Blurred splashes of colour steadily painted a picture of a bedroom he’d recognise anywhere. It was brighter now, light pouring in through partially shut curtains. His breath was heavy and he struggled making sense of how the hell he’d ended up in bed when just a moment ago, Ilya had–
“Hollander.” Ilya slurred, narrowing his eyes at him. “Turn that thing off.”
Or, Shane is stuck in a time loop that resets whenever his fiancé dies.
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- Part 1 of a letter to my only (safe grounds)
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- 14/14
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30 Apr 2026
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every grain of sand a grudge by compost_heap
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
30 Apr 2026
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Shane Hollander has a map to Hamunaptra, a brilliant mind for dead languages, and a best friend who just stole the key to one of the greatest secrets of the archaeological world. What he doesn't have is a way across the desert.
Enter Ilya Rozanov: a cynical ex-Legionnaire with a lethal reputation, a criminal record, and a smirk that makes Shane want to punch him or kiss him—or perhaps both.
Together with three mysterious "lost" explorers who are far more dangerous than they let on, they embark on a race against time, ancient curses, and the ruthless ambition of Roger Crowell. Shane is looking for history; Ilya is looking for a payday. Neither of them expected to find each other.
(aka: Heated Rivalry, but make it cinematic masterpiece The Mummy)
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06 Apr 2026
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A Beast's Lament by TylerReed
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
12 Jul 2026
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+Beauty and the Beast AU+
Prince Ilya, after losing his family in a terrible plague, becomes cold-hearted and cruel to those around him, going as far as to cast out an old crone in the winter's cold. As punishment, he is cursed by an Enchantress on the day of his coronation as king to take the form of a horrifying beast. He has until the clock strikes midnight on his 30th birthday to love and be loved in return, lest he is doomed to be a beast the rest of his days.
Shane Hollander is a commoner living in a provincial town, seen as "odd" for not fitting in with the rest of the community and for spurning the advances of Dallas Kent, who wants Shane to join his household and be his "happy little husband". He yearns for something more in his life, but struggles to know exactly what that is.
Things change when Shane travels with his mother to sell their wares at the capital, and they get lost at Castle Rozanov. When they are arrested for trespassing, Shane offers to take the burden of his mother's crime, letting her go free as he takes a lifetime of imprisonment by King Ilya Rozanov.
With little time left before his 30th birthday, Shane may be Ilya's last chance to know what love really is.
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04 Apr 2026
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Public Bookmark 7810
Mystery Work
Part of AZRAELRIEGO
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
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01 Feb 2026
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Constellations by Pondermoniums
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Jun 2026
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Heartbreak and hockey don't mix.
Boston's Ilya Rozanov decides to do what he'd been putting off for years. He calls off his affair with Shane Hollander, Montreal extraordinaire, right before a Montreal vs Boston game. He gets a hockey puck shot right into his hamstring for it. Right in the middle of the game. Honestly, he never guessed Hollander had it in him to be vindictive.
As for Shane...it works. He didn’t want to see Rozanov anymore. In this game. In this season. And now Ilya’s out. Ball and chained to healing and recovery, pain meds and physical therapy for the next year. Maybe when Rozanov comes back, Shane will be able to stomach breathing the same air as him again.
And Rozanov will be back. That much is guaranteed. Shane just fails to measure how back Ilya Rozanov will be. If he thought Rozanov was a nightmare on the ice before his injury, he’s got a reckoning coming.
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- 45/48
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20 Jan 2026
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The Second First Time by Allive
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Jan 2026
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Shane Hollander wakes up in a hospital room convinced it’s 2016 — and that Ilya Rozanov is still his biggest rival, someone he’s supposed to hate.
But the world has changed. It’s 2025. They play for the same team, live in the same house, and Ilya Rozanov is wearing a wedding ring.
Now Shane has to relive nine lost years, learn to trust his ‘enemy,’ and find out whether he can fall in love with his own husband all over again.Series
- Part 1 of Again, and Always
- Language:
- English
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- 59,706
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- 24/24
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28 Dec 2025
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Their lives are intertwined, inextricably so. It's a truth Eddie knows fundamentally. It's a grounding fact about his and Buck’s relationship. They're best friends on the precipice of something more and he's in no rush to push them into uncharted waters. They’ll find their way there eventually – it's inevitable. So Buck can date other people for now, he can have his fun. Eddie won't spoil that for him. In the end, Buck always comes home to him.
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Buck and Eddie are living together and Buck has started dating again. Eddie realises he's in love with Buck and takes the time to work through his feelings - not at all threatened by his best friend's lovers.
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- 28/28
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02 Oct 2025
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“I met a lady on the call the other day, the one I pulled out of the other unit… she said she was psychic and then started talking about granting wishes. It all sounded so ridiculous, but I-I think she did something to me. I know I sound crazy, but I think I have to do whatever people tell me to.”
Buck jerks back, stands to his full height, and Eddie sees the last twenty-four hours playing through his eyes in perfect clarity, without one second of doubt. Buck believes him, instantly, wholly, without question, and Eddie suffocates the sob in his throat.
“Oh, Eddie, you’re…” Buck says, “wait, is that why you were giving that guy your number?”
“That’s your question?” He gasps through a laugh, and it’s wet and dangerous.
“Yes,” Buck says, without an ounce of remorse.
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Eddie gets the Ella Enchanted treatment.
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- English
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- 17,985
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- 1/1
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10 Aug 2025
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just a little bit of your heart (is all I'm asking for) by dbolterstar
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
15 Jun 2026
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“Does this change a thing between us?” Buck asks, his voice low, hands still framing Eddie’s face. He can feel the unsteady breaths leaving Eddie’s lips, warm against his own.
Eddie looks wrecked. His cheeks are flushed, lips red and kiss-swollen, his glassy eyes locked on Buck’s mouth like it’s the only thing he can see. He looks as hungry as Buck feels. Buck feels Eddie’s fingers trace along his arms, squeezing just enough to leave his skin tingling.
“I don’t know.”
It’s not a yes—Buck’s not even sure he wants to hear a yes. But it’s so much better than the rejection Eddie threw at him before.
“Alright,” Buck exhales, nodding like it’s nothing, even though it feels massive. Then he surges forward, catching Eddie’s mouth in his again.
They don’t stop. Can’t. Their mouths are locked together like they’re trying to breathe each other in, like letting go for even a second would be unbearable.
or; Eddie’s shame torments him. Buck would rather have a piece of Eddie than nothing at all. Miscommunication is their biggest enemy. Infidelity turns into their savior… or ends up being the thing that destroys them?
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- 39/55
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14 Apr 2025
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"You look exactly the same," Eddie says with tears in his eyes. "How is that even possible?"
"I don't know," Buck says, his thumb swiping across Eddie's knuckles. "I don't understand it."
He may be the same, but looking at Eddie, Buck can see the years on him. His hair is a bit different, the creases by the corners of his eyes just a bit deeper. There's a new scar on his right hand that Buck hasn't seen before.He'd know these hands blind, but it takes him a moment to notice it still. His fingers brush over it once, and then again before he actually looks down and sees the thin golden band wrapped around Eddie's ring finger. Then he just—stares at it, stupidly, for a second. Before Eddie pulls his hands back, and leaves Buck's hanging empty in the space between them.
"You're married," he says.
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29 Mar 2025
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“Eddie,” Buck says, too fast, he sounds strange. “You picked up. Sorry it’s. It’s late I know I just. I’ve been thinking a lot-”
“My kid won’t talk to me, my parents want full custody, and I fucked a married man,” Eddie says.
Buck is quiet.
“Can you…” he says after a minute. “Can you run that by me again?”-
Eddie is not having a great time in El Paso.
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- Part 1 of gear shift harmony
- Language:
- English
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- 16,533
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- 1/1
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21 Jan 2025
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Eddie can’t move. Like this, Buck is illuminated by the sunlight streaming through the window; dust motes shimmering around his head, his hair haloed in gold. Beautiful, Eddie thinks. And to his surprise, he doesn’t feel any sort of guilt about doing so.
Except — he should. Because Buck is dating Tommy, and he’s happy, and Eddie would rather go to his grave repressed and miserable than ever take away from Buck’s happiness.
Or: Eddie starts to untangle his complicated feelings about himself, and Buck. Mainly Buck.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 56,474
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- 4/4
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17 Sep 2024
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There's a beat of silence. A smile blossoms on Buck's face. It starts with a twitch at the corner of his mouth, then spreads inwards. He purses his lips, almost like he's trying to contain it, then gives up and lets it bloom into a brilliant smirk, crooked and devastating on his warm lips. He cracks open one eye, the left one. The smirk creases his birthmark. It's the same shade of pink as his lips, the same color as the lightning scar.
"Oh yeah?"
Eddie clears his throat and frees his own sandwich from its plastic prison. "Eat so you don't collapse. Save us both the trouble."
He can still feel Buck's eyes on him. "I don't break that easily."
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Chris is 800 miles away, and Eddie's house feels emptier than ever. As always, Buck is right there, ready to have his back, to catch him without hesitation if he falls. This is familiar, this is normal, this is the way they've always been.
This is fine, until it isn't.
Until Eddie finds himself drawn to Buck in ways he never expected—ways that might not be so new at all.- Language:
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16 Sep 2024
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Eddie Diaz is a federal prosecutor for the DA's office in LA, and he's damn good at it. He's calm, collected, and works best under pressure. That is, until he faces off against the new guy on the LA scene, defence attorney Evan Buckley. He's cocky, sneaky, and manages to get his way in the courtroom more often than not. The worst part? He knows it.
What starts out as courtroom rivals dissolves into passions behind closed doors, and then evolves into something neither of them expected.Bookmarked by Batgrldes
16 Aug 2024
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Kiss Me Before it's Over (If Only for a Minute) by bi_buckrights for MonsterRae1
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
15 Apr 2023
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Evan Buckley is living out his childhood dream as the star hitter for the Philadelphia Phillies. He’s climbing the ranks, improving his stats with every single game – he’s unstoppable.
That is, until the Los Angeles Angels get a new pitcher seemingly out of nowhere. Known for his strong arm and tricky curve balls, Eddie Diaz is one of the few pitchers in the nation who consistently makes Buck strike out, and its infuriating. Even from the sixty feet that separate them between the batter’s box and the pitcher’s mound, the weight of Diaz’s gaze is enough to make Buck’s blood boil.
Because Buck doesn’t get nervous on game day, he never feels calmer than when he steps up to the plate with the bat in his hand – it’s where he belongs. But when he sees Eddie Diaz standing on that mound, his stomach flips and nerves spark across his skin.
Because if there is one thing Buck knows for sure, it is that he hates Eddie Diaz.
… Until he doesn’t.
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- 54,230
- Chapters:
- 5/5
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04 Jun 2023