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So we're slaves to any semblance of touch (lord we should quit but we love it too much) by Control_F
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
19 Jan 2024
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Merlin couldn’t remember the last time he’d hugged or been hugged by someone. He had grown to love Camelot, its landscapes and its people. Camelot had sunken into his bones and had started feeling like home. He had Gaius, he had Gwen, and, sometimes, even Arthur. Yet the loneliness never truly left him.
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Arthur’s father was not a very tactile person, and could not be called affectionate in any breadth or sense of the word when it came to physical touch. While he shared and experienced camaraderie with his knights, it was limited to pats on the shoulder and thumps on the back.
What he had with Merlin… it was different, and he was slightly unsettled by how much he needed it.
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In which Merlin and Arthur suffer seasonal bouts of loneliness, and the combined friction of their pain leads to Merlin confessing his magic to Arthur. (Not without serious emotional subtext, a massage representing the last vestige of Merlin's heterosexuality and a little display of magic).
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River Cartwright doesn't like sex, and he doesn't like dating. Somehow, an ill-fated conversation with Spider, the first close friend he makes as an adult, where he tries to explain this results in River finding himself in a friends-with-benefits arrangement that he doesn't remember agreeing to, doesn't want, and can't find a way out of.
It's not like it's... it's not like it isn't his fault. That's what River tells himself. He lets it happen, after all, so who else can be to blame? He doesn't get to be traumatized by this. It's not like he was raped. Later on, when people start finding out, they have a different opinion. To them, it's clear that this is in fact exactly what happened.
OR: Five times someone learned about what Spider did to River, and one person who already knew. Ft. repulsed aroace River, a heap of internalized victim blaming and aphobia, and the pain of not having the words to describe who you are and what's happened to you.
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14 Jun 2026
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Harry has refused to date since an exposé that revealed his scars and his nightmares. Severus tells Harry that he cannot possibly be uglier than Severus himself. Harry finds himself involved in a strange contest with Severus, trying to decide who is less worthy of dating.
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- Part 2 of From Samhain to the Solstice
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10 Jun 2026
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Harry discovers a secret in his Potions text and a friend in the Half-Blood Prince.
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10 May 2026
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It’s not enough that Harry has been trapped at Grimmauld Place for nearly a month, now his eighteen-year-old body chooses the worst time to become uncontrolled. He’s not sure how to handle the situation alone, so he must seek help from the only living being nearby, which happens to be a very reluctant Professor Snape.
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10 May 2026
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8th Years Potions class promises nothing but continued torture for Harry, until Headmistress McGonagall points it out to him that perhaps the best way to silence Snape is simply to prove himself to the professor. But if killing Voldemort wasn't enough, could Harry really impress the Half-Blood Prince with only brewing?
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06 May 2026