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AITA for telling my B-friend to get over my (second) fake suicide attempt? by Anonymous
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
10 Jul 2026
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I (27 M) am in a highly successful band with my B-friend (29 M) As you could probably guess that causes some conflict! We often get into fights, break up for a couple weeks, but we come to the same conclusion every time; He needs me and my assets.
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08 Jul 2026
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getting the band back together by Winsomenotions
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
29 Apr 2026
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web-series era, battle of the bands episode
gone wronggone rightgone sexualalternate ending"You really think I wouldn’t do it?” Matt said.
“I’m just saying, it’s all well and good for you to say it now, but if shit were to really go down—” Jay stopped mid sentence as Matt slid off the couch and kneeled down on the floor in front of him. It was always a pleasure to see Jay dumbfounded, to see a cocky grin wiped off of his face, to see him realize that he was dead fucking wrong and Matt was right.
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29 Apr 2026
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01 Apr 2026
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Shane is cursed as a child so that he may never remember anyone he meets. He wakes up remembering nothing.
Ilya Rozanov is the rival he can't forget: even when he does. A story told in endless firsts.
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23 Feb 2026
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ilya rozanov's search history by evilrussianprincess
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Jan 2026
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shane hollander shirtless
shane hollander sweaty
how to flirt with autistic boy
is it okay to ask someone if they’re gay
shane hollander freckles
shane hollander fight with scott hunter all angles
ilya rozanov funniest moments
loon attack survival rate
what is compatible
best flavored lube brand reddit
OR - Hollanov’s story through the years told through the Google search history of Ilya Rozanov
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04 Jan 2026
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take along my love with you by chai_lattes
Fandoms: The Long Walk (Movie 2025), The Long Walk - Richard Bachman
11 Dec 2025
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#47, Pete McVries, has a girl back home. It takes a while to get him to open up about it, he’s cagey about his home life, the tinfoil wrapped package of cookies in his pack, and the photograph he keeps folded into quarters and tucked into his shirt pocket. Almost everyone’s tried to get a peek at it over his shoulder at one point or another, and Olson even gets a warning for interference when he tries to snatch it from his hands.
“C’mon,” Olson whines. “Why don’t you want us to see her? She ugly or something?”
“Prettiest thing you’ve ever seen.” McVries is finally coaxed into saying. “Big brown eyes, red hair, soft all over.”
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12 Dec 2025
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Gary Barkovitch has been hiding his whole life. From his classmates. From his thoughts. From the noise that won’t stop no matter how hard he tries to drown it out.
Now the voices have names. And they’re not leaving.Gary Barkovitch in Words on Bathroom Walls (Its not required watching in my opinion as the main thing i take from it is in the trailer lol. Barko has schizophrenia and during his first major psychotic episode he injures someone and gets expelled. He gets on a drug trial and goes to a catholic school to finish his senior year)
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- Part 1 of Gary Barkovitch is not Alone
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07 Dec 2025
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He repeats it a few times, scratches his neck, slaps himself again, and then falls into his bed. He groans at the way it bothers his bruised ribs, but he lays there in the pain, letting it cleanse him from his thoughts earlier.
Here, in the haze of his pain, he is whole, normal, pure. He is repenting, paying his dues, accepting his punishment. He doesn’t need his pa for that, he can do it himself, make sure he’s not some dirty gay.
Gary hasn’t believed in God in a very long time; in fact, he’s certain there isn’t one. But there has to be some truths in the world, and this has to be one of them.
Gary Barkovitch is normal. And if he isn’t, he’ll break himself until his bones set right.
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OR - All Gary Barkovitch's life, he has been the starving mutt wandering the edge of the street light, baring his teeth at any approaching person. Maybe, now in Maine, he can learn to lower his hackles and let people in.Series
- Part 1 of aijad-verse
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04 Dec 2025
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put your best foot forward (and hope you have one) by neroushalvaus
Fandoms: The Long Walk (Movie 2025)
05 Nov 2025
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If someone else was the one stuck in this time loop, he would probably use it to save someone important to him, or try to stop the Long Walk from happening. Gary Barkovitch just wants to start on the right foot with these guys. So this time he will shut the fuck up about his Meemaw, make the other guys laugh, and absolutely not kill Rank.
That is, until he learns he's in someone else's time loop.
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30 Oct 2025
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“Ma’am, your grandson walked 233 miles and survived to see the dawn of the fourth day. He was one of the six most resilient marchers. The memory of his perseverance and strength will encourage the lasting boys to complete the Long Walk."
Or: Gary Barkovitch is dead. His grandmother gets the news.
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27 Oct 2025
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To know how it ends (And still begin to sing it again) by thosepeoplefromfrance
Fandoms: The Long Walk - Richard Bachman, The Long Walk (Movie 2025)
08 Oct 2025
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Pete wins the Walk. He shoots the Major. He does everything right. He still comes back to the starting line at the end of it though.
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Pete is stuck doing the Walk over and over again. No matter how things end, he always comes back to the moment where he met Ray Garraty. The moment that matters most. The Walk is hard and unforgiving, but it's better than being alone. They make do.
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- Part 1 of It's a sad song (It's a tragedy)
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11 Oct 2025
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“I know, Matthew. I know.” Zachariah knelt down between Matt's legs, placing his palms on his knees. His hands left dusty prints on the black cotton. He looked up at Matt with those eyes, wide and genuine and so relentlessly tender.
“You loved me,” Matt said, his voice pathetically weak. Zachariah’s eyebrows creased and his lips tilted up in a sorrowful smile.
“I love you.” Zachariah corrected, as if saying it were the easiest thing in the world.
In which Matt and Zach head home, after.
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05 Aug 2025
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It happened like this: Carmy’s energy was sapped and no one noticed or no one could notice or no one wanted to notice and like a marionette doll whose strings got cut off, he collapsed in a heap and did not, would not, could not, get up. Now, they must pick up the pieces.
OR Carmy falls into an episode of catatonic depression, and the aftermath.
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21 May 2025
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A little self-indlugent work in a fandom I'm head over heels for at the moment
Campbell's dad insists he's put on a stronger medication so he's easier to control when he's discharged. He doesn't react too well to it. Like, literally, he passes the hell out.
Eddie being dad 2.0 ensues.
Once again, if you think you know me in real life, kindly pass this by, I don't think it would interest you. :)
(I'm calling Campbell's dad Mark in this just as a kind of placeholder. if you remember/ know his real name, please lmk in the comments, I couldn't find it)As I'm writing this, I'm realizing how inaccurate it will be, but just suspend your disbelief for a minute, and you should be just fine
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16 Dec 2024
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I Can’t Count the Reasons I Should Stay by lestatslestits
Fandoms: Takin' Over the Asylum
19 Dec 2023
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It had been easy enough for Campbell to convince Eddie that his most recent manic episode was fake. Fergus was harder to fool.
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- Part 5 of TOTA Takeover
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16 Dec 2024
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Love That Doesn’t Have a Place to Rest by lestatslestits
Fandoms: Takin' Over the Asylum
13 Dec 2023
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Campbell isn’t running amok in St. Jude’s, so Rosalie goes to check in on him. She can’t forgive herself for all the ways she’ll never be able to help.
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- Part 1 of TOTA Takeover
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16 Dec 2024
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“What’s your name?” Campbell was throwing a real wrench in Fergus’ escape plans. “I’m Campbell.”
“I know.” Fergus snapped. “I should really be going now.”
“But the nurses will see you’re missing,” Campbell said. “They’ll look for you.”
“They won’t have to. I always come back.” Fergus waved him off. “But there’s only a few good hours left for me to walk around, so I should be leaving now.” Campbell didn’t say anything else, but Fergus could tell he wasn’t asleep.
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how Campbell and Fergus became friendsBookmarked by DerisiveH
16 Dec 2024
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Fergus offers to read out loud to Campbell, who is unable to focus on letters in a book. The offer is received with much more enthusiasm than anticipated.
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- Part 3 of The Crooked Smile
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16 Dec 2024
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Campbell launches into depression after he's been taken to St Jude's and is given medication. Unfortunately, this is a mistake and triggers a manic episode that forces Fergus and the staff to re-evaluate how to help the boy.
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- Part 2 of The Crooked Smile
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16 Dec 2024
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Fergus is meeting Campbell for the first time when he's just brought in to St Jude's. He's at this point heavily sedated and Fergus feels compelled to protect and comfort the kid, even though he is a complete stranger.
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- Part 1 of The Crooked Smile
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16 Dec 2024