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    “They need to return to a conference based system,” Svetlana said, slamming her hand against the table. “It was fucking fine the way it was, why are we handing out participation trophies to shitty divisions?”

    Ilya raised his eyebrows from where he hovered in the kitchen, cracking open another Red Bull.

    “This is fun,” he said, deadpanned. “You guys should start a podcast or something. I would not listen, you are both terribly boring.”

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    Or, after an injury on the ice forces Shane into an early retirement, he and Svetlana start a podcast.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    11 Jun 2026

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Incredible work

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    What if Shane and Ilya had been drafted to the same team and fell in love as teammates instead of rivals?

    Shane and Ilya are both drafted to the Minnesota Nomads. What begins as new teammates building a friendship slowly deepens into a quiet, intense love neither of them expected.

    A story of teammates-to-lovers, found family, tragedy, and a love strong enough to survive even the coldest nights.

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    24 May 2026

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    The house where his mother killed herself is nothing but a pile of ash. It should satisfy him, maybe, that the building that was once her prison is gone. It was his prison too, for years. But something about the way the charred brick has crumbled in on itself makes him feel empty.

    Suddenly, Ilya Rozanov is a single parent to his orphaned niece. Suddenly, he has a whole lot more to lose.
    The only way to keep his love safe, is to keep it secret.
    (Its not like he doesn't have enough of those already)

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    10 May 2026

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    “Can’t hang out tonight, Hayd. I have plans.”

    “Bullshit,” Hayden responds. “You never have plans.”

    Objectively, this used to be true. Nowadays Shane has many, many plans, between his nightly plans to look at Ilya’s penis through Skype and his various long-term plans laid out helpfully in his notebook, Canva (For Ilya’s sake. He is a visual learner), and more recently, Excel. Shane loves that excel sheet. He’s colour coded it.

     

    In 2017, Shane Hollander spirals and proposes to his boyfriend of 4 days (or 7 years, or 9 years, or not his boyfriend at all, depending on how you look at it), which leads to a lot of plans, weird theories in the Montreal Voyageur locker room, some Twitter drama, and Ilya Rozanov entering his WAG era.

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    04 May 2026

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    “Why are you here?”

    “You see,” Rozanov drawls, “twenty-two years ago, my parents decide they fuck and –”

    “Ugh. Shut up.” Shane scowls. “No, I mean – why here?” why now? 

    The smirk slides off Rozanov’s face. “They want –” he swallows, bringing one arm up to drape over his eyes. “The team I play for. During lockout. They… disagree about rest of season. Tell me I stay.”

    “But they can’t do that!”

    Rozanov gives him a sardonic smirk.


    When Rozanov’s Russian team doesn’t want to let him return to the MLH after the 2012-13 lockout, Shane finds himself pulled into a harebrained scheme to make sure his rival is safe – and it might just work. Now he only has to navigate a secret pretend relationship while also facing the condensed MLH season. But needs must, right?

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Joy

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    Vegas, MLH Awards, 2014: Ilya Rozanov wins MVP and decides to make Shane Hollander experience Vegas.

    Boston, November, 2016: Ilya calls Shane his husband while making him a tuna melt. Weeks later he's traded to New York.

    New York, March, 2017: Scott Hunter is forced to realize he is incredibly fond of Ilya Rozanov, and knowing what he does, Shane Hollander is on really fucking thin ice.

    or: the fic where Ilya and Shane get married in 2014 and Ilya is forced to care about Scott when he's traded to New York in 2016. So he noticed things. And he's there, on the ice, when Scott kisses Kip for the whole world to see.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    He heard footsteps begin to come down the stairs, and then a deep voice shouted something in a language that Shane thought was probably Russian. The footsteps continued to grow closer, and then Irina’s papa entered the kitchen. Shane dropped his jaw as they made eye contact– it was a face he never thought he’d see again.

    “Ilya Rozanov?”
    “Shane Hollander?”

     

    Or, canon divergent AU in which Ilya drops out of the NHL draft to play in Russia, but he and his daughter end up living next door to Shane many years later.

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    23 Apr 2026

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    cens and censibility @ottawagirly
    is there a reason why 8 million different hockey players have decided to post pics of themselves kissing each other with tongue or????????

    Or, Hayden Pike is freaking out after accidentally posting a video of Shane and Ilya making out on his fanmail. Luckily, he has a groupchat of hockey players determined to help them play it off. The internet is mostly just confused?

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    20 Apr 2026

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    Could NOT stop laughing thank you

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    17 Apr 2026

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    “You’re going to Boston.”

    Long after Farah hangs up, the words keep echoing in Shane’s head. If he had thought his thoughts had been chaotic this morning, when his biggest problem had been his rival potentially fucking him when he came to Montreal in two weeks, that’s nothing compared to the code-red panic that started the instant he found out he was being traded to Rozanov’s team.

    Rozanov, who was supposed to be his great career rival. Rozanov, who he’s hooked up with twice now. Rozanov, who had been planning on coming to Shane’s apartment in Montreal to fuck him the next time they saw each other. God, how on Earth is Shane going to walk into his locker room in Boston in a few days time?

    The impending awkwardness of dealing with Rozanov is almost enough to eclipse the hurt he’s trying to ignore. The knowledge that Montreal values him so little that they’re willing to dispose of him only six months into his rookie season. Almost, but not quite.

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    Or, Shane gets traded to Boston AU.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    They’d agreed on a plan. It was cautious. Designed to keep them safe. Laying the foundation for a future after hockey. It didn’t include Shane going nuclear one fucking day into pre-season, blowing up his entire life on something he should’ve expected to happen if he was being honest with himself.

    Or, when the long game falls apart, Shane and Ilya need a new plan. (Or or, from the ten year plan to the one week speed-run.)

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    16 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    I would actually give up my firstborn for a sequel

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    Shane has known since they met that Ilya Rozanov was the endgame. The painful path to get there was always going to be their biggest problem.

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    Shane and Ilya meet at hockey camp at 12 years old. They grow together, learn languages, learn they are soulmates, but for the sake of their careers choose to resist their bond and only hook up when their paths cross. A story of 9+ years of feeling half- alive and wildly in love, of grief, of endlessly pining, seeking the other, and how their sun-drenched happy ending was always waiting in the wings.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    In a move that shocks the hockey world, Shane Hollander ends up signing to the Centaurs at the same time as Ilya Rozanov. Not only do they have years of rivalry behind them, but they've also shared a night neither of them can forget.

     
    Or, a soulmate AU where their soulmarks grow stronger as their bond grows.

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    09 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Uh I did in fact read this instead of working on a presentation I have due in like 5 hours

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    Every time your soulmate lies, their words are written on you.

    Shane doesn’t lie often. His soulmate does though.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    Soulmarks are supposed to be a blessing, or so people say. Shane disagrees.
    They appear as the first words your soulmate will ever speak to you, written on your skin in your soulmate's handwriting.
    But Shane's is a simple and underwhelming "ok." So mundane he has long since stopped noticing the words when they're spoken to him.

    "I'm not sure you're supposed to smoke here" Shane said as he approached the Russian player.
    "Ok"

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    04 Apr 2026

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    Stuck in an alt-world where he and Shane never hooked up as teenagers, Ilya is determined to get Shane back. To do that, Ilya has to figure out a way to get Shane to see him as anyone other than the Russian asshole who has spent a decade pissing him off. It can't be that hard to make your husband fall in love with you... right?

    Basically: Shane Hollander makes a wish with good intentions. Ilya Rozanov wakes up confused, single, closeted, and miserable in Boston.

    +Bonus Chapter where AltWorld!Ilya wakes up confused, married, out, and carefree in Ottawa

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    29 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Wow

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    27 Mar 2026

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