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    I never stopped calling by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    01 Jul 2026

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    He was walking to his Jeep when the stench of cigarette smoke hit his nose. A few feet away, a tall, broad shouldered figure was standing, back to Shane, watching the sunset. Propped against the wall next to him was the bi-pride flag emblazoned sled.

    “That was a great game.” Shane said, taking a couple steps in the direction of the sledge hockey center. “You’re an amazing player to watch, but you’re really not supposed to smoke here.” The man stiffened and then pivoted slowly towards Shane. Backlit by the setting sun, his facial expression was indiscernible.

    “Oh my God Hollander, you are so boring.”

    Ilya was dead.

    Or at least, Alexei Rozanov said he was. Even after two years, Shane still hoped to see him again. He never imagined reuniting in the parking lot of a community center in suburban Ottawa.
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    A family emergency means Ilya and Shane never meet in Las Vegas. In Russia, Alexei uncovers Ilya's sexuality and attacks him, inflicting grievous injuries. Ilya escapes with his life, but is forced into hiding, seeking refugee status in Canada where he builds a quiet, but meaningful, existence.

    The only problem: even two years later, he misses Shane Hollander.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    We Just Did It For You And Me by for justthingsifind

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    21 Jun 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

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    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    Me Porto Bonito by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    24 Apr 2026

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    Upcoming actor and well-known playboy Ilya Rozanov is good at getting what he wants.

    That is, until he wants hockey's golden boy Shane Hollander.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    I knew you'd haunt all of my what ifs by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    22 Jun 2026

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    Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.

    But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.

    Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.

    Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?

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    06 Jul 2026

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    all the stars aligned by

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    07 May 2026

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    When the long game falls apart, Shane and Ilya need a new plan.

    I recommend reading the series in order it was posted, even though the second fic is a prequel to the first one.

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    05 Jul 2026