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    Pomni thinks that just trying to get through the slog of everyday "life" is the hardest part of being at the Circus. When Jax almost abstracts she makes a choice that ends up drawing his attention and with it a load of trouble.

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    23 May 2026

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    Ilya lied when he told Shane for better and for worse, in sickness and in health, till death us do apart, because not today, but maybe tomorrow, he’s going to leave Shane.

    Ilya wants to remember everything, but the disease leaves no time for that.

    Or; when Alzheimer takes Ilya’s life progressively.

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    19 May 2026

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    When kidnappers looking to make millions in ransom money take Shane and Ilya, only Ilya walks away. The year that follows is a hollow existence of grief and mind-numbing devastation.

    Then, exactly one year later, Ilya wakes up back in the warehouse on the day of the kidnapping. It’s a surreal, unexplainable second chance. Armed with the knowledge of what will happen, Ilya fights a desperate battle to change the outcome and bring Shane home alive.

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    18 May 2026

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    18 May 2026