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Learning to Stay (Still) by idmarryyouh
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Chris Evans Movies)
26 Oct 2025
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“Buck,” he said gently, taking a step forward.
Bucky looked up and met his gaze with glossy eyes. “It’s different.”
“What is?”
He looked back down at the papers in front of him. “Seeing it in print.”
Steve swallowed, unsure of a response.
“Have you read this?”
He shook his head. “No, Buck. And I won’t if you don’t want me to.”
Bucky didn’t answer for several minutes. Eventually he gathered the papers and slid them back into the folder. He stood from the table, pressing the file into Steve’s chest. “You should,” he said, his voice grave. “You should know what I’m capable of, what I’ve done.”
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Bucky waits for Steve to come home from the hospital following the events on the helicarriers, though he doesn't fully understand why. They embark on a cross country journey before being snapped back into reality. Story of healing, promises, guilt, shame, avoidance, forgiveness, family, and love.
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09 May 2026
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Half the world by anoakisatree
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
26 May 2026
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He always trusted Bucky. Steve believed that Bucky would remember him someday, and he was prepared to wait as long as it takes.
That day had arrived.
It felt like a dream. He opened his apartment door and saw Bucky standing there.
His voice caught in his throat, tears threatening to spill over.
“Bucky. You remembered me.” That was his first thought. It was the only possibility. He almost cried saying it.
“Yes, sir.”
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14 Mar 2026
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Hearthfire by PyrophobicDragon
Fandoms: Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
08 May 2025
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Senator Barnes comes home to a cold welcome.
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- Part 1 of THUNDEROUS*
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06 Feb 2026
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Steve sees the heavily raised scars around Bucky’s eyes, and the way Bucky’s eyes see nothing at all, clouded white and sliding from side to side without any purpose to them.
The Winter Soldier is blind.
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29 Dec 2025
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Every Picture Tells a Story by gwyneth rhys (gwyneth)
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
20 Sep 2014
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Bucky worked the bag a while longer before collapsing on the floor, chest heaving, lips glistening as he licked them. This was provocation, Steve was certain. If he couldn’t get Steve to admit to his perversion, then Bucky would find a way to tease it out of him.
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- Part 1 of Visual Aids
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18 Dec 2025
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Political Animal by neversaydie
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
24 Feb 2018
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Congressman Steve Rogers is stuck in the closet because he wants to become President one day.
Bucky is a high-class escort he has a standing appointment with to blow off steam. This is one of their meetings.
[smut, panty kink, internalised homophobia on Steve's part, feminisation, everyone caught feelings by accident]
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04 Dec 2025
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Snowfall by AboardAMoose
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies), Captain America - All Media Types
15 Dec 2023
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Steve has a secret. He's even kept it from Bucky.
But some secrets don't want to be kept for long.
And some secrets have consequences.
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27 Nov 2025
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Just before Eddie tells Buck he loves him, he’s pretty sure they’ve been building up to this for months. Just after Eddie tells Buck he loves him, he realises he’s deeply misunderstood this entire situation.
And Buck? Well, Buck didn’t even think they were dating.
(Aftermath, and then: the road less travelled, with the benefit of hindsight.)
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12 Nov 2025
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"Why don't you come around anymore?
"You never...you don't come to movie nights. You don't come to dinner. I can't...I can't even remember the last time you came out with us and Tia Pepa. Where have you been?"
"You don't...you don't invite me out anymore," Buck finally explains with a shrug. Nonchalant. And Eddie wants to tackle him to the ground. "If you invited me, I would try to come."
And Eddie is seething.
"Try to come?"
+Buck starts to pull away from Eddie after the Ouija incident, and Eddie thinks he's being replaced by Ravi. This leads to a very honest conversation about their feelings. 9x05 coda.
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07 Nov 2025
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I Do, I Don't, I Die by prisma134
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies)
31 Mar 2017
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Steve Rogers was not bonded to Bucky Barnes. He was not in a relationship with Bucky Barnes anymore. Bucky had no obligations towards him except a pewter ring that was so faded and rusted that hung on his dog tags. Bucky had no promises to break, because he didn't remember them. Steve was okay with that, he really was. He would have to be, because Bucky wasn't his anymore to have. Instead, Bucky was Natasha's to cherish and Steve was not going to stand in his way.
Steve was going to let Bucky go, even if it killed him and even if his heart was shattering into a million pieces to see his best friend--his soul mate--be in a relationship with someone else.
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18 Oct 2025
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listen to the wind blow, down comes the night by doctorenterprise
Fandoms: Captain America - All Media Types
14 Oct 2020
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They’re seven years in when everything goes to shit.
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12 Oct 2025
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Under Pressure by HeartOfTheMirror for mara_jade
Fandoms: Captain America - All Media Types
03 Dec 2017
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It's not like Steve's afraid of tap water. He's not an idiot. It's just the ocean.... it's so big. And Steve knows what it's like to be trapped under it. Helpless. Drowning. Frozen.
He can't let the others know. Captain America isn't afraid of anything.
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- Part 1 of Under Pressure
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Bookmarked by KilldevilandtheWildThings
06 Oct 2025
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“He spent my whole life drilling into me that I had to be hard. Strong. Untouchable. No softness. No affection. Every time I reached for it, he tore me down. Called me weak. Pathetic. Wrong. And I thought I buried that when I left home. I thought I left him behind. But he’s still here.” Eddie taps his temple with trembling fingers, breath catching in his chest. “He’s still in my head. And every time someone notices us, every time there’s even a hint of attention, I hear him again, telling me I’m not allowed to want.”
“But I do want. God, Buck, I want you so much it terrifies me. I want to touch you all the time. I feel this need in me, it’s bottomless. Like a pit I can’t fill, no matter what I do. And it scares the hell out of me, because if I open it all the way, if I let it out, I don’t know if it will ever be enough. And I’m terrified you’ll drown in it. That I’ll smother you. That you’ll get overwhelmed and leave.”
or, Eddie Diaz has never let himself be needy, not once in his life. But loving Buck makes him ache for touch in ways he can’t admit, until pulling away nearly breaks them both.
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05 Sep 2025
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Something in Eddie’s brain screeches to a halt. “You and Ravi slept together?”
“This isn’t some Buck 1.0 thing, I swear,” Buck insists in a rush. “I know it’s not...it’s not good, sleeping with a coworker, but we were all celebrating him joining A-shift and we’d both had a lot to drink and it just...happened. It wasn’t anything serious, not anything we have to, you know, fill out paperwork about. Obviously, if this had happened when he was a probie, I never would have forgiven myself, like that would be a serious abuse of power. I mean, I know I have seniority and I am a few years older than he is, so maybe it’s still like...not okay, like there’s some power imbalance there, but I mean...once you leave school, how often do you even meet someone who is exactly the same age as you are?”
Buck is clearly spiraling, and Eddie is shell-shocked, and all he can think is ‘I am exactly the same age as you are.’ He doesn’t know why his brain has decided this fact is important.
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When Eddie is in El Paso, Buck and Ravi sleep together once while drunk, and Eddie becomes consumed with the idea he's being replaced. (He's wrong) Also, why does it bother him so much that Buck had sex with Ravi?
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19 Aug 2025
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The guy’s hand drops to Buck’s waist and grips it—tight.
Eddie doesn’t mean to say anything. Honestly. He’s planning on standing there like a sane person, drinking his beer, minding his own business.
But that hand stays exactly where it shouldn’t, and Buck laughs like he doesn’t feel it, and the words slip out before Eddie even knows he’s opened his mouth.
“Oh fuck no.”
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After Buck's friend bails on him, he invites Eddie to come with him to a themed event at a bar - a gay bar, as it turns out. After watching Buck flirt all night, Eddie takes matters into his own hands and shows Buck who he really belongs to.Bookmarked by KilldevilandtheWildThings
03 Aug 2025
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Eddie's never done this before, but Buck seemed to want it so badly, and who was he to deny him anything? He would do anything for him.
And if it hurts, that just comes with the territory.
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29 Jul 2025
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“Eddie, I’m in love with you,” he says, heart thrumming in his chest, in his throat, in his mouth. He feels hot and cold and dizzy by turns.
“What?” asks Eddie faintly, barely even a question.
“I’m in love with you,” Buck says again. “I didn’t know, I didn’t mean to, but I am. I am.”
“You– Right, okay,” says Eddie, so visibly buffering that it makes Buck’s heart clench a little in his chest. Of course he’s in love with Eddie. How could he possibly have let himself pretend otherwise. “Wasn’t expecting this, bud,” says Eddie, and he sounds so shocked that Buck can’t help a wry smile. Of course Eddie’s surprised. They must be the only two people in existence who didn’t already know. “I– Buck, man, you know that I care about you, but…”
“I know,” he says gently to Eddie, because he did know, but that doesn't make this moment hurt any less.
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Post season 8, Buck confesses his feelings, Eddie lets him down as gently as he can, and they both try to figure out how to be just friends.
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21 Jul 2025
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“Just say it, Chim,” Eddie replies, his tone clipped.
Chimney winces but presses on. “Eddie…” He hesitates, glancing at Karen like he’s begging her for an out. She nods firmly. No turning back now. “Buck is dead.”
The line goes silent. A heavy, eerie silence that settles over the room like a shroud. She knows what Eddie must be feeling right now—the cold shock, the hollow ache, the frantic disbelief. She remembers how it felt when Chim had told her Hen was dead, how her world had stopped spinning for one agonizing moment. Her hands curl into fists against the table. This is fine. This is part of the plan.
But then there’s a screech through the phone, followed by an extended, blaring honk.
Karen’s stomach drops. Her eyes dart to Hen’s, wide with alarm.
Fuck.
OR: When Eddie leaves for Texas on bad terms with Buck, their friends can't help but meddle.
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Bookmarked by KilldevilandtheWildThings
18 Jul 2025
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Buck's smiles are just as bright under a Texan sun as they are under a coastal one. But Eddie, of course, already knew this.
or; buck visits eddie in texas, eddie stares and sweats and wants
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16 Jul 2025
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“Eddie. Eddie, it’s okay.”
“It’s not,” Eddie bites out. He spits at the ground, then shouts, “It is not okay, Buck!”
The silence that follows is deafening. Even the roar of the fire seems quiet in comparison to the absence of the words Buck isn’t saying.
“I love you,” Buck offers.
Eddie wants to wake up.
“Don’t,” he manages.
or: when buck is crushed by a burning tree while he and eddie rescue children from a forest fire, eddie has to make the agonizing decision to leave him behind— but he promises he'll come back, and he won't break a promise to buck. not again.
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16 Jul 2025