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    Selected text messages from the phones of Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander, circa 2020-2021.

     
    Troy Barrett: I’m planning to drive up to Toronto to finish packing up my apartment on Saturday, and I was wondering if you’d want to grab dinner after your game while we’re both in town?
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    Jane: …did you tell Barrett about us?
    Lily: no i promise
    Lily: he maybe thinks it is possible, but i did not tell
    Jane: I don’t think he has any idea
    Lily: what makes you say this
    Jane: Just a hunch

     
    Or: Troy asks for Shane’s number, and Ilya gives it to him. What could go wrong? Or maybe more importantly, what could go right?

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    04 Jul 2026

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    a collection of less/not safe for work artworks ive done that would get me nuked in real time if i posted them on certain socials

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    24 Jun 2026

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    The second time Shane Hollander wakes up on November 16th, he has a panic attack.

    The problem is — he tries to explain through gasped breaths after Hayden basically knocks down his door, shouting that they’re going to miss their flight — the thing is, Shane’s already woken up on November 16th. He’s already flown to Boston. He’s already been to practice, and he’s checked into the hotel, and he has lived this day before.

    He doesn’t mention that he’s also already fucked Ilya Rozanov twice and had a fucking tuna melt that Rozanov made and drank the ginger ale that Rozanov bought specifically for him. He doesn’t mention that they’d snuggled on the couch watching TV like some kind of couple, like boyfriends.

    He doesn’t mention that he fell asleep thinking about how Ilya — fuck, no, thinking about how Rozanov had called him sweetheart and Shane, and that, even now, he can’t quite get the cadence of Ilya’s voice out of his head.

    Or: After the tuna melt fiasco, Shane Hollander wakes up in a time loop.

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    01 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 81

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    Hard to be soft, tough to be tender.

    Or: Ilya gets hit with the pussy curse.

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    28 May 2026

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    I (26M) want to invite man I sleep with (26M) to my house to spend the weekend. Help me not ruin it.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov goes to the internet for dating advice

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    20 May 2026

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    Shane releases what feels like his first exhale in forever—Ilya Rozanov, taken out by the common flu. Not ignoring him. Not ending anything. Still, the knot in his chest doesn’t ease completely with the vision of Ilya unwell and alone in Shane’s head.

    JANE

    Are you at your house?

    LILY

    Where else, Jane?

    JANE

    Don’t fall asleep. I’ll be there soon. 

    LILY

    No, am sick. I told you. 

    JANE

    I heard you. I’ll be there soon.

    Or, Ilya’s sick and Shane wants, and wants, and wants. 

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    17 May 2026

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    Unknown: Ты в Москве или всё ещё в отпуске с моим братом?
    Shane: ?
    Unknown: Что было трудно понять?
    Unknown: Он прочитал мое сообщение?
    Shane: I don't speak Russian.
    Unknown: Очень смешно
    Shane: Think you've got the wrong number.

    One day, Shane gets a message from an unknown number. Despite the stress of the fast approaching NHL draft, he can't seem to stop responding.

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    16 May 2026

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    Shane had been up for hours already. He'd showered and shaved, then came back to bed and tucked himself under the covers, arranged them to look like he'd never left. His eyes were big and dark and too fucking awake for 6AM on a day they had nothing to do and nowhere to be.

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    05 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is Shane's ex-rival, his barely tolerable teammate, his perfect right wing, also concurrently an annoying presence in his Snapchat messages, a budding friend perhaps, and a general thorn in his backside. None of this, of course, explains why Shane is subjected to every single account of Ilya's sexual exploits or why Shane is secretly interested in them...

    or a texting fic featuring emotionally stunted men, a slightly toxic friendship, and weaponized jealousy.

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    01 May 2026

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    A quick guide on how to code and use the hover to translate workskin. This feature allows readers to hover on a word or image and have it change into the translation.

    If you use this and want to link back so other people can use it, too, that'd be awesome.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    It starts with Ilya’s nails. Or, at least, that’s the first outward sign that Shane picks up on.

    In which Shane supports Ilya as he explores gender expression/gender identity. Set during their first season on the Centaurs together.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Shane’s steps for hockey success are clean cut, precise, and scientific, easy to give in a tidy, pre-packaged answer: a tried and true fitness plan, a macrobiotic diet and meal prep, yoga for relaxation, and a disciplined bedtime routine—yes, even on the weekends and the off-season.

    And also celibacy. But that one he usually leaves out during interviews.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    So what is the plan now, Mr. Spreadsheet?

    “Honestly I was kind of hoping your consciousness would just click back into your body once I touched you.” Shane scratches the back of his head.

    You treat me like slap bracelet, Ilya complains.

    After a bad hit knocks Ilya’s consciousness out of his body — literally — Shane finds himself sheltering the soul of his decade-long situationship in the back of his head. Turns out it’s a lot harder to keep secrets when you share a body.

    (They definitely still try, though.)

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    14 Apr 2026

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    The world did not work like this, with him under Rozanov, with Rozanov fucking him for the first time in his life and then again and again and again. It did not work like hiding his whole life, the important parts of it, from his parents. But also, it did. And fuck if Shane was going to give it all up because he was scared.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    russianstallion messages hollabackgirl on Grindr for some fun, but then they keep showing up at the same places, conveniently right when Boston and Montreal have a game against each other.

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    Shane and Ilya, unbeknownst to each other, are sexting on Grindr while still being rivals on the ice.

    *SMAU that was previously uploaded to twitter is now on ao3 for ease of reading*

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    03 Apr 2026

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    03 Apr 2026

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    For over fifteen years, a strict performance diet has worked for Shane. It lets him play hockey - really good hockey - and it lets him control something in his life, which usually feels so out of his control.

    After a season-ending injury takes Shane off the ice, though, the people he loves start to suspect something might be wrong.

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    Rachel Reid said she didn't think Shane has an eating disorder, and we took that personally.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    While in search of a roommate, Ilya comes across an interesting Facebook Marketplace listing from Shane Hollander.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

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    391,593

    24 Mar 2026

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