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    After Ilya breaks Shane's heart in Sochi, Shane builds a life out of control.

    Three cups. Captaincy. Precision. Routine. Emptiness.

    When no achievement manages to make him feel anything, he turns to a mysterious phone service instead.

    Intimate in ways that should be impossible between strangers. A man who understands exactly how to pull Shane apart without ever touching him. Who gives him structure instead of chaos. Relief instead of performance.

    Shane finds himself pulled toward something he thought he buried years ago.

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    Set 4 years after Sochi, where both Ilya and Shane were left with shattered hearts, this is a story about second chances and being brave enough to trust again. To want anew.

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    15 Jul 2026

  2. Rec 90

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    Cliff sees the name on Shane's phone before Shane says it aloud, and his thumb tightens against the wet label of his beer bottle.

    VIKTOR SOKOLOV. LW. MOSCOW.

    The Falcon, his brain supplies, with no respect whatsoever for timing, privacy, or the fact that they are sitting in a perfectly normal restaurant in Ottawa with bread on the table.

    Viktor Sokolov is supposed to be an old message thread from 2018.

    A bad idea with a profile picture. A door Cliff knocked on until something behind it said, very politely, very firmly, to stop contacting him.

    He had never told Shane that part. At the time, it had seemed like discretion. Now, sitting between Shane's phone and Ilya's face, it feels more like leaving a loaded gun in a drawer and hoping no one opened it with their bare hands.

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    Ottawa offers Viktor Sokolov a clean professional exit, which would be ideal if the city were not infested with old ghosts, inconvenient kindness, and Cliff Marleau.

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    15 Jul 2026

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    Cliff Marlow isn’t gay.
    It’s a fact that he’s calm, confident and unbothered by.

    He’s been hooking up with Ilya Rozanov on and off for a while now, but that doesn’t count.

    Rozanov just plays better after he’s been laid.
    And the team always plays better when Roz is playing well.

    It was really as simple as that.

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    13 Jul 2026

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    In a universe where your soulmates first words to you are tattooed on your body, Shane Hollander winds up with a single word to work with;

    'Okay.'

    He's glad to have a soulmate, but couldn't imagine anyone navigating a worse situation than him when it comes to contending with destiny.

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    13 Jul 2026

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    It was a Friday when the video dropped.

    “What is happening?” He asked St Simon, who was holding his phone tight to his chest, his expression odd. “Someone has died?” 

    Across the room he could see Marlow moving slowly upright from where he had been doing floor stretches, his phone in his hand as well, his face pinched. 

    “It’s Hollander,” St Simon said. 

    The bottom of Ilya’s stomach fell out, closely followed by the rest of Ilya’s organs. His chest hurt so acutely that he thought he must be having a heart attack. 

    “Not dead,” St Simon added quickly, reaching out to grab Ilya’s shoulder when Ilya’s knees actually buckled. “Jesus, sorry. I should have - no it’s just -” 

    “Someone tell me what the fuck is going on,” Ilya snapped, “and everyone else shut up.” 

    Marlow reached him now, held his phone out to Ilya, open already to an article with a headline huge enough Ilya could easily make out the HOLLANDER blaring out of it even before his eyes focused and he took the phone from Marlow. 

    A video is posted online, for Shane it feels like a death sentence. For some parts of him, it is.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    “You were being extra nice knowing you were going to throw me into the fire the second the sun went down. You didn’t think to tell me this was about my friendship with Barrett?”
    “Sweetheart that’s the thing, you don’t have one and he’s my best frie-” Shane doesn’t want to hear it. He turns to Barrett who unwisely followed him to the kitchen
    “You’re a fucking piece of shit you know that, right?”

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    11 Jul 2026

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    The term, he’s told, is temporary retrograde amnesia. Ilya doesn’t need the direct translation to understand: he forgot things. Ten years of things.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    Rose volunteers for a nonprofit that rescues sex-trafficked omegas, and Shane thinks it's a great cause. He even attends their fundraising galas.

    Then, one night, Rose calls to ask for a favor: She wants Shane to let a recently-rescued male omega live with him. In his apartment.

    His name is Ilya, Rose explains, and the thing is, despite omega hormone levels, he acts and smells just like an alpha. He can't keep staying in an omega group home because he's scaring the other omegas and endangering the staff.

    But he could live with Shane, Rose insists. "You're a big strong alpha hockey player, so he can't intimidate you physically. But also he needs to feel safe, which he can with you, because you're not like other alphas." She pauses. "You know?"

    By which she means Shane has never had a full rut, his scent glands barely work, he can't form a knot, and he has no interest in sticking his dick in anyone. Which, whatever. It's fine.

    But if being a failure as an alpha means he can help this omega, Ilya, who's apparently as much of a biological anomaly as Shane is…

    Shane says yes.

    And maybe it's a stupid decision. But he knows that it's also the right one.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov: NHL captain, elite athlete, deeply invested in mobile puzzle games.

    Shane Hollander: enabling.

    Troy Barrett: just trying to understand why their captain is being handed a phone like a child on a long car ride.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    It is an unremarkable, dreary March morning in Ottawa when Ilya Rozanov’s life swiftly burns to ashes around him. Ilya had intended to spend the rare morning off of training sleeping off the lingering exhaustion from the seemingly endless stretch of away games as long as Anya would allow.

    Instead, it is barely past six in the morning when armed agents pound on his front door.

    (Or, a remix of the FanMail incident.)

    completed fic, updates every thursday

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    08 Jul 2026

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    Yuna Hollander is a pragmatist above all else. She thrives with logistics and spreadsheets, weighing probabilities and outcomes and risks and rewards. She can handle the people-coralling of it all, if she treats the schmoozing and handshaking as moving chesspieces instead of navigating a social minefield.

    She knows that Shane is the same way, except that his tolerance for people-coralling is even less than her own.

    What Yuna does not know, and what has bugged her for the past nine months, is what the fuck happened on Boxing Day to blow up Shane and Ilya’s relationship past the point of repair.

    It doesn’t really matter, now. Right now, she is simply glad that she has quietly remained an emergency contact for Ilya Rozanov for the logistics of what they are facing at this very moment, because it means that she knows the address of his new place, and so she can race to it after her phone had damn near overheated and exploded during her morning Pilates class with the notification overload.

    Someone has hacked Ilya's iCloud account. Ten years of text messages have been published for the whole world to see.

    (title from the great divide by noah kahan)

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    08 Jul 2026

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    08 Jul 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    08 Jul 2026

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    “I was thinking,” Shane says without looking up from his salmon, “about how you guys said it was okay if I wanted to bring someone over for Christmas?”

    Yuna gasps sharply, but David speaks before she can. “Of course, son.” He says warmly. “Do you have someone you want to invite?”

    Shane nods slowly, eyes still glued to his plate. He takes a deep breath before looking up, not quite meeting David or Yuna’s eyes, but rather staring off at the space between them. “Can we have Christmas at the cottage? I’m… I mean, we are pretty private and I don’t want to have to explain to the neighbors—”

    His son is blushing bright red, but all David can think about is ‘we’. Since when are Shane and this mystery person a ‘we’? Just how serious is this relationship?

    He had noticed that Shane’s on his phone a lot. That on the rare occasion that David manages to stir the conversation away from hockey, Shane would bring up things he’d never shown interest in before: movies about racing cars or international music.

    David had figured that there was someone in his son’s life, but not that they were a ‘we’.

     

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    How Yuna and David come to adopt their second son

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    04 Jul 2026

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    A small YouTube channel has a secret.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    The day after getting kicked out of the playoffs by the Centaurs, Hayden Pike shows up for a post-series debrief along with the rest of the Metros. They are greeted by a roomful of cops, a recording of a late-night 911 call, and an empty chair where Shane Hollander should be.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    26 Jun 2026

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    This is how to be good: anyone who pisses you off is a cocksucker.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Shane thinks about dying all the time. It's a lot funnier than it sounds.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    NEW SUMMARY AS OF JULY 2026

    As Shane lay among white sheets, swallowed by even whiter hospital garments, it struck him that if he'd died, Ilya would never have known what had happened. No one would have thought to tell him, because no one would have known they should.

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    25 Jun 2026

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