Paju



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    Ryan Price has contingency plans for aliens, penthouse floods and the occassional emotional breakdown (his own). Finding Ilya Rozanov in his apartment - door code proudly abused and cooking food - still comes as a greater shock.
    Ilya on the other hand would summarize the evening in four efficient steps: Use Code. Cook. Couch. Cry internally (optional).

    Or: Ryan and Ilya are absolute shit at friendship... and somehow they are perfectly happy anyway.

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    15 Jul 2026

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    Something churns across Luca’s expression. It’s schooled away a moment later; Luca stares a little blankly at them for a brief moment before he shifts, getting off Shane’s lap, stepping back. “I need to go,” he says. He fishes visibly for an excuse. He settles on: “I’m not feeling well.”

    Ilya opens his mouth, and then closes it. “You’re not feeling well?”

    “Headache,” Luca says. He steps back again. “I’m sorry.”

    “Luca,” Shane tries.

     

    or: mix tuna melt and ‘will you come with me to the cottage’ in a bowl and make it hollanovaas

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here! (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

    This series is marked as complete and maybe it is, but I might return for the occasional in-universe one-shot, so feel free to subscribe if you're interested!

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    26 Jan 2026