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    Ilya wanted to get up, shake it off, keep playing, score his fucking hat trick. But it felt like his body wasn't his own. Like he was a marionette with its strings caught off. Gravity increased by tenfold it seemed and Ilya was too tired to resist it.

    The sword was still in his chest and Ilya could vividly imagine in his head the blood pulling beneath him. But as he looked down there was nothing but white ice all around him.

    In his last moments of consciousness, just like every night before falling asleep, Ilya thought of Shane. His lovely shane with his beautiful freckles.
    As ilya’s world succumbed to darkness he had just enough time to think “I would take a sword to the chest for him” ,then everything went black and Ilya could no longer feel.

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    Or, Ilya should have known one day his body wont be able to bear Ilya's awful habits and sad life, he just didnt expect to have a fucking heart attack on the ice.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    “Alcohol is a blood thinner, you realize. You shouldn’t be giving him that.”

    “Well, we just cut his fuckin leg off, so we figured he deserved a little treat,” Marlow snapped.

    Ilya blinked. He stared down at his leg. Wrapped in a torn jersey and tied off with a belt. Also, it ended just past his knee.

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    or: The Boston Raiders plane goes down sometime in November, 2016

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    05 Jul 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Fifteen-year-old Dennis Whitaker is sent away by his family to atone for an illness bringing turmoil to their farm. As a punishment from God, he is left alone, injured and unwilling to ask for help.

    Jack Abbot is an ER doctor with a soft spot for a certain blonde haired kid who won't say a word to him.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Dennis Whitaker knew the signs of Acute Myeloid Leukemia intimately. The first time he was diagnosed he was seven, he remembered the brutal battle of fighting the disease that had taken over his body, then again at twelve. Now, he's twenty seven, just become a doctor and his body is once again showing the signs. He wants to believe it's not happening, trying to will himself to be fine, but the reality is, his cancer is back and he's going into battle once again.

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    01 Jul 2026