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    “What videos, Ilya?” David asked, his tone laced with concern, but Ilya couldn’t deal with that right now. He was never putting his phone on Do Not Disturb again.

    He had more notifications than when he’d checked it at the gym. Transactions made with the card from their shared account, alerts to change Shane's email passwords. Shit, shit, shit.

    “Ilya…” David said again, more demanding this time, making him finally look up.

    Videos of us that are going to make you look at me differently. Videos that might make you hate me. Videos that could ruin everything.

    His throat went dry.

    And maybe… send me to prison.

     

    or When Shane’s phone is stolen and he ends up in the hospital, Ilya has to deal with his severely injured husband, and with videos that could leak and change their lives forever. The video Pike had accidentally leaked years ago would be child’s play in comparison.

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    01 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 17

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    The emergency landing of Ilya’s plane makes Shane realize that he needs to shift his priorities. While he and Ilya scramble to come up with a new plan about how to come out this following summer instead of ten years down the line, Shane sees some of his worst fears coming true while at the same time finding support he had never dared to even dream of.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    June 2010. Ilya Rozanov is delayed after the CCM shoot. By the time he gets to the locker room, Shane Hollander is out of the showers and Ilya’s entire plan is ruined.
    Only not quite fully ruined. Hollander invites him to dinner with his parents as a thank you for arranging the shoot and Ilya, in a burst of insanity, agrees. He hits it off with Yuna and David. They all exchange numbers. He and Hollander become friends.
    At no point does Ilya stop wanting more from him.

    June 2016. Ilya Rozanov is a superstar. A Cup winner. An MVP. Women want him, men want to be him. He’s fucking miserable.
    He’s in love with his best friend. He can’t deny it anymore. Only now Shane is dating a movie star and happier than Ilya’s ever seen him. Ilya can’t ruin that for him, can’t ruin their friendship by asking for what he knows Shane can’t give. No matter how much it kills him.

    A charity event in San Francisco. A catastrophic computer failure. A fateful decision to drive, not fly. Two days in a car, just the two of them. Alone. Together.
    Ilya’s sick with excitement and with dread, because how can he keep his secrets with Shane so close for so long?

    What he doesn’t know is that Shane has secrets too.

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    30 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 15

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    The day after the CCM shoot, and for the 2nd time in 24 hours, Yuna bumps into Ilya in the elevators and decides then and there that he and her son should be friends.

    5 years later, Ilya gets traded to the New York Admirals a year after winning the cup. Luckily, the Hollanders are there to help him out, no matter how undefined his relationship with Shane is.

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    30 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 37

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    Ilya was addicted to social media. He knew this. Everyone knew this. Everyone loved his posts because he was known for oversharing and chirping. But half of his posts were just for Shane, pictures of loons and inside jokes that no one else would ever get.

    People were just perplexed when he got a tattoo of a loon feather and captioned it, “The scariest things in life are the best.” When people questioned, him he replied, “They scream like wolves and have demonic eyes.”

    But there was one post he didn’t make. He never posted directly about Shane. He and Shane were always private. For a long time there hadn’t been a plan to go public. They wanted to be closer than Boston, and they wanted Ilya to be safe if they ever got outed. They hadn’t intended to come out. But the years were wearing.

    Shane and Ilya decide to come out. That means revealing things they would rather not think about. But they say the truth will set you free.

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    30 Jun 2026

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