Smoocher_of_evil



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    Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.

    The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Ilya closes his eyes.
    He blinks back his tears. He wants to nod or shake his head or something, but he can't.
    This can't be happening.
    He blinks and blinks and blinks again but he's still in the hospital and he still feels like shit and his mom is dead and Shane is far away and he thinks he's depressed and there is something inside of him that he doesn't know what to do with.
    Fuck, he thinks, in russian and in english and in french, even. Fuck.

    Or, in 2020, Ilya has a (very) unplanned, (very) complicated pregnancy, Shane has to learn that sometimes things don't work out the way he planned, and some other things. Set in The Long Game, kind of.

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    04 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 26

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    “Shane Hollander calls Ilya Rozanov ‘baby’” on repeat

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Shane snickers, like he’s realized the whole situation is a little ridiculous: his concussion, his hospital bed, his secret fuck buddy calling his parents and making him breathe and talking to him like a fucking T-800. 

    “Okay, maybe you could sit down, at least?” he suggests.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s heart skipped as he watched Ilya’s eyes squeeze shut, a groan leaving his mouth. Not the deep breathy groan Shane was used to hearing; the one that sent a familiar heat curling low in his gut, that made him absurdly proud of how easily he could undo Ilya Rozanov.

    No, it was a bit higher, more strained.

    “Hey, what’s wrong?” He quickly pushed himself more upright, hands hovering but hesitating to touch Ilya’s still frozen form.

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    Ilya has chronic pain.

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    01 Jun 2026