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    Carol and Zosia Meet before the joining AU

    Carol is in Berlin for a writing residency, she becomes friends with a group of her residency mates who introduce her to Zosia, a young ex-pat who lives with more confidence than Carol has even been able to muster.

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    09 Apr 2026

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    berlin au

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    “Look, it’s not because I don’t,” Cassie breaks the silence, then shakes her head and looks away, a quiet noise of disbelief leaving her, “We just can’t. Okay?”

    Another nod. Victoria’s mouth is incredibly dry.

    “But..you want to?”

    McKay lets her head hang. “We can’t. I can’t.”

    “Because of your ex?” Victoria probes. Everything inside her is screaming at her to stop. She doesn’t know why she can’t. She doesn’t know why she can’t just shut up. But McKay is…right here and her messy bangs and her heavy eyes and her wet mouth just -

    “Because I wanna be good,” McKay says simply.

    Javadi is a nervous wreck and McKay struggles with self-restraint. Until she doesn't.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    Now on official government record: Carol let the hivemind fuck her, Carol fucked the hivemind.

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    01 Apr 2026

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    mean zosia

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    “I didn’t keep most of the memories. Other people’s memories. I get flashes of big things, births, deaths. Except about you.”

    Carol feels the confusion slip onto her face. Nervousness creeps up her spine again. “Me?”

    “I know everything that anybody has ever thought about you, Carol. Every memory. Every feeling. Helen. Your ex-girlfriends. Your dentist. It’s like I have a Carol encyclopedia in my head.”

    Carol had thought that she was done experiencing fresh horrors. What a nightmare it is to realize that she is not. “Oh, god.” She says.

    “Oh, god,” Zosia agrees.

    After they manage to break Zosia free of the hive, Zosia and Carol try to navigate the field of landmines that is their relationship.

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    07 Jan 2026

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    DXCELENTE EXCELENTE EXCELENTISIMISMO LLORE REI ME DIO TODO

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    Turn me back. Please, please, Carol. Please, I want to go back!

    Carol reaches for Zosia, then doesn’t.

    “I don’t think that’s possible,” she says.

    Or: One more take on deplurb’d Zosia for your reading pleasure :)

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    05 Jan 2026

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    buenisimo