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Kaine was almost at the tenement door when she spoke again. “Ferron, was it a punishment for you - being made Undying?”
He paused. When he turned back to her, his eyes held no emotion at all. Punishment. That was an interesting way to frame it, he supposed. Morrough liked to make his victims choose the manner of their punishment, to make them complicit in their own suffering, and so the illusion of choice was all Kaine had ever had.
He realised, with a hollow and heavy clarity, that he couldn’t think of a single choice in his life that had been his alone. Every path he’d ever taken had been carved by someone else’s hand, someone else’s will, and he’d merely walked where he was pointed.
And told himself it counted as choosing.
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The Paladian Civil War, and its origins and aftermath, told through the eyes of Kaine Ferron.
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03 Apr 2026
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ACOMAF Part 1: The House of Beasts (Rhys POV) by illyriantremors
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
20 Feb 2017
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The first 13 chapters of ACOMAF told from Rhys's POV. Includes some brief details of his three months without her after he comes home from UtM and some improvised scenes, but most of it concerns his time with Feyre.
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- Part 1 of A Court of Mist and Fury: Rhysand's POV
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One Wild and Precious Life by MissBinx for twistedpoetloser, lawfulchaoscat, AlaMac0801
Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
15 Oct 2021
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Surly teenager Ben meets cheery five year old Rey when they're both cancer patients in the hospital. An unlikely friendship is formed between the pair, despite the age difference, and Ben decides that he wants to be a doctor so that no one like Rey will ever suffer. Fifteen years later, Ben is the leading oncologist in the country and they meet again when Rey is diagnosed with cancer a second time.
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- English
- Words:
- 144,426
- Chapters:
- 36/36
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- 2
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- 2,717
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Bookmarked by TryingNotToLoveYou
24 Dec 2023
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A Life Day Miracle by Lula_Landry for Cee__writes, myjb11, tuppenny, Holdo77, HoldonIhaventhadmycoffeeyet, rayvyn2k, Kal11915, prettyHz, dinotopian, Hueycita, MELISSA08, ReyloEndGame, TryingNotToLoveYou
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
26 Dec 2023
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The First Order has fallen, the Emperor is dead (again), and Life Day is fast approaching. But while Rey’s closest friends are busy cooking delicious things to eat and decorating towering trees with strings of multicoloured lights, she feels like she’s losing her mind. The Force is calling her across the galaxy to a planet she didn’t know existed… to a man she watched die. Could it be the dyad that bonded Rey to Ben Solo has one last miracle to offer?
“Christmas, my child, is love in action.” -Dale Evans Rogers.
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24 Dec 2023
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Forbidden by koderenn for MyJediLife, Galatians_4_6
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
14 Feb 2020
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She is a Jedi.
It is forbidden to let emotions consume her. Especially for one of the galaxy's most powerful and influential men.
But as she stands rigid in his shadow, his most loyal protector, she fights the cruelest battle ever with none other than her own self. Because from this day forth he will belong to the woman standing next to him. The woman who will help seal peace in this galaxy.
He had told her so.
He had no choice.
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Practice Makes Perfect by violethoure666
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
14 Jun 2018
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Grumpy Ben Solo gets asked out by Jessica Pava, the hottest girl in the office. The only problem is that he's a 29 year old virgin who doesn't wanna make an ass of himself with the aforementioned hottest girl in the office. Rey offers to help him get all the awkward and embarrassing stuff out of the way before his big date. Everyone can definitely stay cool and not catch feelings. No big deal.
This is like american pie meets the office meets my own fantasies so....enjoy.
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- English
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- 15,537
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- 3/3
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Bookmarked by TryingNotToLoveYou
25 Jun 2023
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Too good not to read again and again!!
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Rey Tries Things! by andabatae
Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
18 Feb 2020
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Ben wasn’t sure how he ended up watching the video, but some combination of boredom, drunkenness, and YouTube’s mysterious algorithm had led him here, and now he was stuck, unable to tear his eyes away from “Rey Tries… Hot Sauce!”
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Corporate asshole Ben Solo falls in love with a YouTuber a decade his junior.
- Language:
- English
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- 30,802
- Chapters:
- 8/8
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- 5
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- 1,218
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- 5,527
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23 Apr 2023
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Plumeria by andabatae for sofondabooks (msdes)
Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
17 Sep 2024
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Up-and-coming actress Rey Niima has a stalker.
When flowers appear on her car inside a locked garage, the studio assigns her a bodyguard. Rey is immediately intrigued by the quiet, intelligent Ben Solo. He's former military special ops, protective to a fault, and strong enough to keep her safe against anyone.
Anyone but himself, that is.
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- English
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- 85,143
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- 17/17
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12 Apr 2023
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Crown of Thorns by AlfadogThunder for TryingNotToLoveYou
Fandoms: Le Fantôme de l'Opéra | Phantom of the Opera & Related Fandoms, Phantom of the Opera - Lloyd Webber, Le Fantôme de l'Opéra | Phantom of the Opera - Gaston Leroux, Phantom of the Opera (2004), Phantom - Susan Kay
21 Jul 2023
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A Superstar tears carelessly through life, surrounded by addiction and misery. Her fame is insufferable, her mind lost to depression and darkness. Only one man is able to see inside of her shattered soul; a reclusive billionaire that begins to mend her heart through music...that, and so much more. Modern day AU, E/C, WIP.
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03 Apr 2023
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The Rapid Imagination of a Lady by Lula_Landry
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
27 Oct 2022
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Ben Solo, the Viscount of Kylo, is a gentleman with a tragic past. Miss Rey Niima, a baron’s daughter, finds herself trapped without a dowry.
Together they attend ONE house party. With DOZENS of eligible ladies and gentlemen. Enjoy MANY breakfasts, lunches, dinners, and balls. Survive SEVERAL unfortunate accidents. And experience TWO different proposals of marriage.
As Shakespeare once said, the course of true love never did run smooth.“This has to be the most self-centred thing I've ever said, but I think you just wanted to vex me.” -Kate Sheffield (aka Sharma) in Julia Quinn’s The Viscount Who Loved Me.
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- English
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- 24/24
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- 203
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20 Mar 2023
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A Spitfire Treasure by DinkyKate
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
19 Mar 2023
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“When did I become your teacher?” Ben asks, stern and serious.
Crossing his arms over an empty shelf, he ducks down far enough to watch her through the gap. Eyes piercing into her, taking note of the way she looks away and wavers with insecurity.
“… When you made it your sole purpose to torment me about my own ignorance,” Rey whispers back.
(In which Ben Solo joins the Resistance and takes a little too much pleasure in antagonising their newest recruit)
A counterpart to ”I Think I Loathe You” written in Ben’s POV
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- Part 2 of A Scavenger and Her Parasite
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- English
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- 199,572
- Chapters:
- 24/24
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- 957
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19 Mar 2023
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Ok, I know I don’t need to bookmark this, because I can find it through the first story, but it is SO good and SO perfect, I’m going to anyway!!! I fkn LOVE these two fics.
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I Think I Loathe You by DinkyKate
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
29 Jan 2023
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“There’s no shame in it, by the way,” Ben murmurs over his shoulder, the barest hit of teasing creeping back in along the edges of his low voice. An unmistakable downward dip of his eyes that she does not understand nor wish to analyse.
“What?” Rey mutters quietly, feeling as though all the fight has left her mind and body.
“Not knowing certain things… and needing a teacher.”
(In which Rey tries to navigate her new life on the Resistance’s base while the newly-defected Ben Solo makes himself the bane of her existence)
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- Part 1 of A Scavenger and Her Parasite
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- English
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- 194,277
- Chapters:
- 21/21
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05 Feb 2023
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Chapter 6 damn near killed me. And the Ben POV companion story is To Die For.
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Go Your Own Way by Lula_Landry
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
22 Apr 2022
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Ben Solo is at the lowest point in his personal life when he escapes to his mom’s place in desperation. Leia lives in the middle of nowhere, which is perfect because all Ben wants is mind-numbing solitude. Upon his arrival, however, he finds himself the focus of an excitable stranger who, for reasons he cannot understand, makes him her new obsession. Ben is torn between wanting to swat Rey like a bug or kiss her breathless just so she stops talking, but grand romances have been built on less than this.
“You can cut all the flowers, but you cannot keep spring from coming.”- Pablo Neruda.
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29 Dec 2022
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From A Whisper To A Roar by Lula_Landry
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
19 Jun 2022
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There is no greater challenge to London’s ambitious mothers than a duke without a wife. Unfortunately for all concerned, Ben Solo has no intention of getting married, and is rich and powerful enough to make that insultingly clear. Ben has merely emerged in society to sponsor his godmother’s young ward. He cannot wait for her betrothal so he may vanish into obscurity once more.
Rey Niima is a young lady determined to find love in an unfamiliar setting. She is grateful to the duke for his reluctant support, but she’s also curious about his mysterious past. As time passes in his company, Rey finds the unthinkable taking place. Surely she isn’t foolish enough to fall in love with the ton’s most determined bachelor?
“It was those eyes as much as anything that had earned him his reputation as a man to be reckoned with. When he stared at a person, clear and unwavering, men grew uncomfortable. Women positively shivered.” ― Julia Quinn, The Duke and I.
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- English
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- 59,872
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- 23/23
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- 488
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20 Dec 2022
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The Spark & The Fire by Lula_Landry for meetingyourmaker
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, The Last Duel (2021)
06 Apr 2022
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Lady Rey Niima is a noblewoman placed in the care of her husband’s best friend, squire Kylo Ren. Kylo secures Rey an apartment within the estate of Count Armitage Hux, but she is shocked to discover the debauchery that flourishes inside the count’s household. Until one day her outrage turns to curiousity, and curiousity fans the flames of unnatural desire.
-A fic inspired by Ridley Scott’s The Last Duel which gave us Adam Driver riding a horse in full armour.
“Is this the generation of love? Hot blood, hot thoughts and hot deeds?” Shakespeare, Troilus & Cressida- Act 3, Scene 1.
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- English
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- 62,877
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- 25/25
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18 Dec 2022
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“Alright Little Kitten, let’s see if we can’t get some answers out of you.” He turned Rey around by the neck at arms length, and then held her up with one hand, toes almost leaving the floor. Pushing his thumb up under her chin with his massive hand, he forced her to look up, craning her neck back until her hazel eyes met his dark ones. “Hello there. I’m the Big Bad Wolf, what’s your name?”
-or Rey is a journalist who gets caught on a midnight stakeout by organized crime boss Kylo Ren and he decides to keep her.
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- English
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- 39,999
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- 21/21
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- 390
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08 Dec 2022
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we could plant a house, we could build a tree by Like_A_Dove
Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015), Star Wars - All Media Types
19 Dec 2018
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Ben takes a deep breath. “It’s—it’s a project. Conceptual art. You wouldn’t get it.”
Rey presses her lips together to keep from laughing. She plans her next words quickly and carefully, determining what will get her the best reaction. “Really? Looks like you ruined a bedsheet to me.”
His reaction does not disappoint. “Get out.”
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Seven-year-old Rey decides it's her duty to annoy the crap out of Ben Solo every single day she's alive.
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- Part 1 of we could plant a house
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 124,031
- Chapters:
- 59/59
- Collections:
- 11
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- 8,708
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- 310,259
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27 Nov 2022
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Kylo Ren has a problem. He's 30 years old with a body and dick to die for (shame about the face and ears), armed with a keen understanding of women garnered from Cosmo, GQ, and any advice column he can get his hands on. In his fantasies he's the greatest lover of women since...ever. Too bad he's an awkward virgin.
Rey has a problem too. Condemned to spend her last summer before college with her grandparents in boring suburbia, she's looking for something (or someone) to do. Her grandparents' next door neighbor Kylo Ren might just be it. He won't know what hit him...
(An RP fic between the authors.)
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- Part 1 of When Life Gives You Lemons
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 130,196
- Chapters:
- 28/28
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- 2
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- 2,597
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21 Nov 2022
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03 Aug 2022
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Unsung by wheel_of_fish
Fandoms: Le Fantôme de l'Opéra | Phantom of the Opera & Related Fandoms
07 Mar 2018
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Christine Daaé has spent eight months imagining what she might say to the Opera Ghost if she ever saw him again. Now he is here in her flat, quite by accident, and the fact of the matter is she can no longer speak.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 105,387
- Chapters:
- 23/23
- Collections:
- 2
- Comments:
- 788
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- 2,637
- Bookmarks:
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- 68,008
Bookmarked by TryingNotToLoveYou
24 Jul 2022