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  1. Public Bookmark 75

    sometimes it seems like you won't survive this by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    17 May 2026

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    “It’s getting bad again,” Ilya croaks out.

    It had been getting bad for weeks, but it’s hard to admit when it's so subtle. It morphs from a shitty mood to a bad day to an unlucky spell. Then all at once you’re underwater, unable to pry yourself from your bed, salt dried on your cheeks, head, and heart, somehow a thousand pounds.

     

    Or, Shane helps Ilya through the beginning of a depressive episode.

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    02 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 91

    The Third Option by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    03 Jul 2026

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    There were exits in life.

    He’d decided that if things became unbearable for long enough, there was always a way out.

    Now, there was the option to stay, and keep going. And there was the option to go back to Russia, and keep going. But then, there was also the third option. Always there, waiting for him if he ever decided to take it.

    Or: A teenage Ilya arrives at development camp already planning to kill himself. Shane keeps accidentally interrupting his suicide attempts because he’s obsessed with rules, routine, and following proper protocol.

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    02 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 66

    do the tall kids wanna play? by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    23 Mar 2026

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    The seven year old took a shaky breath, sniffling as he kept his focus on Shane’s hand. He traced up his middle finger before he spoke.

    “Am I weird?”

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    shane and ilya's seven year old has a tough day.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Our House by

    Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)

    10 May 2026

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    A glimpse into Shane and Ilya’s life as dads to three kids: Nikolai (Niko), Maxim (Max), and Mila. This will be a series of oneshots exploring different moments in their parenting journey. All fics can be read as a standalone!

    p.s. title is in reference to the song Our House by Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young 🩵

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    27 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 38

    cause under all that fire, there knots that i can help undo by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    18 Apr 2026

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    Nadia, Dimitri, Luka, and Shane were the lights of his life. They were proof that Ilya Rozanov was exactly the man Irina Rozanova raised him to be.

    So when he had these episodes, where he was reduced to an emotionless body, shame found ways to make itself known through the fog. He found small comfort in the fact that the absence of everything was also the absence of anger.

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    things are hard when you’re a father and have clinical depression. things are even harder when your well meaning husband jumps to conclusions.

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    26 Jun 2026