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    Forgive me with tulips, forget me with lilies.
    Remember my kisses as bluebells and cherries.
    Dream me in lavender, violet, and white.
    Trust me with tulips, and love me with lilies.

    Dazai Osamu loves flowers.
    "Dazai-san?"
    Dazai smiles softly at Atsushi’s voice, although his gaze never leaves the resplendent cherry trees blooming in the park across the street.
    "The sakura blossoms are beautiful today, don't you think?"
    "Oh?" Atsushi pauses, taking them in for the first time that day. "Yes. Yes they really are."
    It was a well-known fact throughout the agency.
    However, no one expected the chaos that would unfold when a simple bouquet was left at the agency's front desk, with a simple note left attached to a string.
    A bouquet of white tulips, for forgiveness, and white roses, for new beginnings.

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    15 Sep 2025

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    “You are still a kid too, you know.”

    Dazai narrows his eyes. “I’m nearly twenty three.”

    “Compared to me, twenty three is nothing.” Fukuzawa chuckles at his own joke. “I still feel like a child sometimes, even at my age. We never really grow out of it.”

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    In learning how to feel happiness, Dazai gets the chance to finally live the childhood he never got to have. Maybe there is no greater meaning to life, but that’s something he has to figure out for himself. This is a story of healing, learning to love, and acceptance, in every sense of the words.

    Inspired by all the “de-aging” fics out there that use time travel to deal with the trauma these kids went through (which I absolutely adore!) Time moves forward, and they can’t change the past, but it’s never too late to start to heal.

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    11 Sep 2025

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    “Chuuya?”

    “Hm.”

    “I promise to stay by your side for the rest of your life.” It’s a promise he knows he can keep.

    Dazai cannot die. He lives on as the world changes around him, finding Chuuya in every lifetime and learning all the little things that make Chuuya, Chuuya through all the different people Chuuya is.

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    03 Sep 2025

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    ‘This is Chuuya Nakahara, your new caretaker.’ his mother stated. Dazai’s eyes only widened in shock.

    ‘A robot?’

    ‘Kind of a degrading term, but yes; a robot.’

    Dazai’s glaring only intensified. ‘I don’t need some pathetic excuse of a toy as a caretaker. No one can replace Odasaku anyway. Couldn't you have gotten me a pet instead?’

    Chuuya didn’t seem to be affected by Dazai’s insults, which only showed how very non-human he actually was.

    ‘Stop behaving like a spoiled brat! We could have sent you to a clinic the moment you decided to behave like this, but instead we spent a lot of money on getting you this expensive solution.’

    ‘You could have spent more money on getting protection for Odasaku.’

    (In which all 7 year-old Dazai really wants is to get back Odasaku, but gets Chuuya instead. Though in the end, perhaps the hatrack isn't all that terrible)

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    03 Sep 2025

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    “If you’ve just come to verbally accost my employees then I’ll have to ask you to leave, Ougai.” Fukuzawa’s gaze sharpened. “This is the life of a hard-working individual you are altering forever. I don’t appreciate your games.”

    “Apologies.” Mori spun on the heel of his dress shoe to face Fukuzawa, his long black coat swishing behind him. “You see, my decision is quite obvious. I thought you all were detectives.”
    Mori turned to Fukuzawa with a sinister, razor-sharp grin.
    Atsushi watched Chuuya’s jaw clench as Mori spoke the dreaded words.

     

    “Obviously my answer is Dazai-kun.”

     

    Dazai and Chuuya survive Mersault only to be thrown into the complicated recovery process. Their past returns to be picked apart, leaving the two no choice but to force the truth to the surface and face it head on.

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    14 Aug 2025

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    Every victory is the careful result of a hundred decisions. Every loss is just one mistake. When a desperate last ditch attempt to shatter the Detective Agency from Nikolai goes wrong, he brings something that doesn't quite fit into this world. It isn't the failure that hurts, so much as the knowledge of what could be. Or, where the book is concerned. What Is.

    (BEAST Chuuya is brought to the main timeline after loosing the one man he'd been swore to defend and die for. They battle the implications of a world where nothing they do matters while trying to send him home... If that's what he wants at least.)

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    12 Aug 2025

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    “Four months from now will be the seven year anniversary of when you and Osamu Dazai released your hugely successful first and only album Double Black and its diamond single Corruption. After performing with Dazai earlier this year, are you planning anything special to celebrate?”

    “Corruption is insanely overrated, and I would prefer to never hear Dazai’s voice for the rest of my fucking life.”

    gorgeous art by @Letnia919 and liz

     

    [Russian Translation]
    [Vietnamese Translation-Facebook]
    [Vietnamese Translation-Wordpress]

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    04 Aug 2025

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    An Ability traps the ADA certain PM members in an illusion that shows them Dazai's life, before and as he became the man they know today.

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    04 Aug 2025

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    When Chuuya wakes up in an unfamiliar room, with an unfamiliar man who offers to make him breakfast, he will have to figure out just how he got here, and why. Nothing is as easy or as simple as it seems, and nothing makes sense. There's far too much that he doesn't remember, and everything's confusing.

    So what will he do when he realizes that the unfamiliar man is actually someone very close to him? What will he do when he realizes he is no longer able to recognize his own home?

    Russian translation here
    Vietnamese translation here

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    04 Aug 2025

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    "We don’t need to kill,” Fukuzawa said over the com, ever calm, and Dazai heard it in his earpiece, the surety. Ranpo had a way out. Fukuzawa would have allowed it if there was no other way. 

    “Osamu. Shoot.” Mori’s voice crackled through and it was silence and screaming all at once—a sound he had not heard in an age. That tone, the initiation. He didn’t even breathe as his muscle twitched and fired. There’d been a head there a moment before. Now he was just looking into a skull, shattered into a million pieces. 

    The blood dripped down his cheek and it was so familiar, so crushingly familiar, that seeing out of both eyes was dizzying. 

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    04 Aug 2025

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    There are two reasons why Chuuya tolerates Dazai:

    1.) The god inside Chuuya hates him;
    2.) Chuuya definitely hates the god more than the stinking demon mackerel.

    Or, alternatively, that one time Dazai and Chuuya swaps abilities, and Arahabaki was never the same.


    “Arahabaki says you’re nothing but trouble.”
    “…and do you believe him?”
    “I think he’s right.”
    "..."
    “He also said I should stay away from you."
    “…and what did you say?”
    “I told him he also got that right, but being right isn't enough to make him my boss.

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    04 Aug 2025

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    “Jesus Christ, Chuuya is going to kill this idiot for worrying him like this, for being a suicidal maniac who decided to put himself in the damn trajectory of a machine that they don't even know all the effects of yet.”

     

    When a stranger starts stealing people's abilities, the ADA and the Port Mafia team up to figure it out. However, something goes wrong and Dazai loses his ability in the process.

    The big problem? His ability not only nullified the abilities of others, but also his own emotions. And now, for the first time in his life, Dazai has emotions, chaotic and in turmoil. In the midst of this identity crisis, Dazai sets out to explore the world with Chuuya as his grumpy bodyguard, only to discover that he has never felt so...alive. And then they find out that if they don't find a way to give him back his ability, Dazai will die within two weeks.

    In a race against time, chaos ensues.

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    04 Aug 2025

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    Mentoring comes easily to Dazai because his tributes die so quickly that he doesn't have to worry about their survival. Chuuya's only wish is to bring someone home alive. With a history intertwined by the Games, Dazai and Chuuya navigate life through the haze of victory and self-destruction.

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    04 Aug 2025

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    There’s Atsushi, Dazai’s star pupil.
    There’s Fyodor, arguably Dazai’s soulmate, a single mind in two bodies.
    There’s Kunikida, Dazai’s partner.
    There’s Oda, the reason Dazai wants to live.
    And then there’s Chuuya.
    If he asked Dazai to define him, to name his purpose, Chuuya already knows what he would hear.
    Chuuya is his dog, Chuuya is a slug, Chuuya is a chibi.
    And sure, maybe he is. But none of that is enough.

     

    Or, Chuuya can’t figure out what he means to Dazai exactly, but if he would only listen, he would realize that Dazai has been telling him all along.

    art here <3

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    04 Aug 2025

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    from S2E9:

    “Do you still wear the coat that I gave you?”
    “I burned it.”

    They’re the wrong words to say.

     

    Mori’s abuse runs deep—deeper than anyone, including Dazai, had realized. And he’s doing it all over again.
    [WARNING. *PLEASE* MIND THE TAGS.]

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    04 Aug 2025

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    “No, don’t do that now,” Dazai warns him, looking coldly at the redhead.

    “Do what?”

    Dazai sighs.

    “Open your heart. Feel sympathy for others. It won’t do you any good if you want to win the Games.”

    “Then why are you opening your heart and helping me?” Chuuya responds, sharply.

    It’s silent as Dazai turns away to look out the window, his eyes fighting a flicker of some kind of emotion that Chuuya doesn’t recognize.

    “Because at least one of us should win and it’s not going to be me."

    ——

    For the 89th Hunger Games, twenty-two year olds Osamu Dazai and Chuuya Nakahara find themselves as the Tributes of District 10.

    Dazai is prepared to die. Chuuya is prepared to win.

    With a string of secrets threaded into the world, the boys are dumped into situation after situation that neither of them signed up for. With the choice between life, love, and death on the line, they will make their choices, both right and wrong, in an attempt to survive.

    Or

    A Soukoku Hunger Games Trilogy AU

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    04 Aug 2025

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    Dazai Osamu has been in a coma for exactly one year, seven months, and twenty-two days. But Death still refuses to take him.

    Trapped in the space between worlds and unable to die, Dazai waits, killing what precious time he may have left and hoping—praying—that his family will pull the plug and move on. He doesn't expect someone to move into his old apartment instead.

    Nakahara Chuuya, two-time Grammy awards winner, and freshly unemployed pessimist, has never believed in fate, much less the supernatural. But the lively—if a bit annoying—ghost of his apartment's previous tenant, might just change everything.

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    04 Aug 2025

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    This is the day everything changed.

    Izuku is fourteen again.

    That means he needs to plan. He needs to find a way to fix the mistakes of the future and stop his friends from dying. He refuses to fail this time.

    He'll be the Hero he couldn't be.

     

    Or, Midoriya Izuku was Quirkless, was gifted a Quirk from All Might, went to Yuuei, fought in a War, lived through the After and was supposed to die. Only he finds himself back in the past with a skewed moral code, PTSD, and an extreme desire to stop his friends from dying brutal deaths. He is going to change the future, make some friends, maybe find a boyfriend, give some Villains a reason to be better and stop some Heroes. For better or for worse.

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    06 Apr 2024

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