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Buck is confronted with the undeniable truth: Eddie Diaz, as it turns out, is beautiful both as a man and as a woman.
Fuck my life, Buck thinks faintly.
Unfortunately, his mild panic does not go unnoticed.
“You—you like me?” Eddie asks quietly, voice disbelieving. “Other me? Me as a woman?”
Buck turns wide, panicked eyes to Eddie. “No!”
“I know what your face looks like when you’re into someone, Buck,” Eddie says under his breath. “You’re—looking at her.”
“Politely. I’m polite,” Buck stresses. He bumps into the counter and comes to an abrupt stop. He realises only then, of course, that both Lady Eddie and Lady Buck are staring at him.
OR: Buck and Eddie crash the car. The universe, finally sick of their shit, kidnaps them.
OR: a totally, super-serious spec fic featuring inter-dimensional travel.
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- Part 11 of ejo + 911
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11 Jul 2026
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“We get out of the room. We stay together. We don’t answer the phone.”
“And we don’t split up.”
On a road trip gone very wrong, Buck and Eddie must stop for the night at The Four Aces, a beautiful, impossible motel in the middle of the desert that seems to know exactly how to hurt them. As hallways stretch, rooms shift, and phones ring with familiar voices, the motel begins weaponizing everything they refuse to say: Buck’s fear of being useful but not chosen, Eddie’s guilt and repression, and the life they’ve built together without ever naming it.
The only way out is through — and this time they have to go together.
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08 Jul 2026
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The chances of being struck by lightning twice are incredibly minute, but Buck still manages to pull it off. During a double date with Marisol and Natalia, nonetheless. Eddie manages to resuscitate him, but as Buck recovers from yet another trauma, Eddie can’t help but notice there’s something very different about him. He’s not quite sure what version of Buck he got back.
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02 Jul 2026
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this fic shattered me like porcelain and repaired me like kintsugi. how am i supposed to be a functioning member of society after reading this? we may never know...
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Eddie's never been much of a dreamer.
When he was a boy, he'd been too preoccupied changing his sisters' nappies and teaching them the ABCs. His shelves carried his ballroom dancing trophies, but he never took the competitions seriously enough to consider dance a career path. His eventual high school baseball ambition, too, was short-lived, with a baby on the horizon.
But maybe it wasn't so much that Eddie had little time to dream, but that his dreams were those of his parents and the Church. He didn't bother making any of his own, happy to follow the advice of those who seemingly knew better what to make of his life.
But now, with his recent realizations at the forefront of his mind, Eddie's learning to dream — writing his own version of a life grander than it is now.
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OR As Buck and Eddie settle into sharing a house in a post-Bobby world, Buck notices that something's up with Eddie.Bookmarked by cactushaed
01 Jul 2026
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“I can’t sleep,” Spooky Doorway Eddie says. “Can we just keep fighting tomorrow?”
The annoyance drops from a boil to a simmer. He reaches for the covers, holding up a corner in an invitation for a temporary truce. “I’m still mad at you.”
“I know,” Eddie offers, crossing the room and slipping beneath the sheets. “I’m mad at you, too.”
Or, a first fight and a truce.
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27 Jun 2026
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"Want to tell me what happened?"
Eddie doesn't. In fact, he can't think of anything he'd want less. Yet, there's something in her voice that soothes, just a little, the inferno and eases the anguish. He exhales.
"I just got angry. I'm not sure why. He didn't do anything wrong." Eddie is a monstrous creature baring its teeth. A shapeless shadow made from broken bones and despair. He's barely human. He's a child dressed in his father's too big clothes choking on his own words. "I don't know what's wrong with me."
Maddie hums thoughtfully, understandingly, "it happens sometimes. We all have bad days, Buck understands that. I'm sure it'll be all forgiven by tomorrow"
A guttural groan claws its way out of him. Maddie takes it for the what if it isn't that it means.
"Come on, you're Buck-and-Eddie! Nothing could ever pull you guys apart."
OR; Eddie breaks a glass and Buck fixes it: an exploration of Eddie's struggles with anger, joy, and himself.
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27 Jun 2026
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From: [email protected]
Subject: Hi
Hi Eddie,
That seems almost too informal to capture the complicated mess of emotions involved in starting this email. How do you say hello to your (former?) best friend of 7 years who fundamentally changed you after almost 5 years of silence? I definitely don't know. So I'll start with hi. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I let the silence stretch out. I'm sorry I let the gap between us widen. I'm sorry I let time slip by. It was days before I realized I hadn't replied your texts or answered your calls. And I let it turn into weeks, months, years. I don't want the silence to have lasted longer than our friendship.
Or; 5 years after Eddie leaves LA again for El Paso, 5 years after he and Buck stop talking, Buck decides to send an email. (A story told through email correspondence)
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20 Jun 2026
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Eddie: I think your brother is flirting with me.
Maddie: He has been doing that for years.
Eddie: Oh.
Maddie: What are your feelings about that?
Eddie: Good. Great, even. Fantastic. Exhilarating.
Maddie: Do you want to elaborate further than just descriptive words?
Eddie: No thanks.
Maddie: You’re two birds of a fucking feather.
Or, a collection of messages between the 118 & co throughout the month of June post the season nine finale.
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15 Jun 2026
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It’s not sudden or shocking. Just there. Something inevitable Eddie kept trying to rename into safer shapes. Best friend. Partner. Family. Anything except the truth sitting underneath all of it. His chest caves inward sharply.
Pepa’s expression changes immediately. “Hey,” she says. Eddie presses the heel of his hand against his mouth hard enough to hurt. His eyes are burning violently. Not now. Not here. Not after spending thirty-three years keeping this contained.
“I tried so hard,” Eddie whispers. Pepa goes still. The words slip out before he can stop them. “I tried so hard to be right.” his voice breaks on the last word.
And it finally destroys him. The exhaustion from spending his entire life trying to earn the right to exist comfortably inside himself. Tears spill before he can stop them. Eddie laughs once immediately afterward, humiliated on instinct.
Or
Eddie Begins Again
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02 Jun 2026
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You’ll be the prince, and I’ll be the princess (it’s a love story, baby, just say ‘yes’) by this_is_moony_lovegood
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
12 Jun 2025
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“Your eyes… they’re… wow.”
Normally, Eddie is pretty good at reading Buck, being able to have a full conversation with him with just a few looks. He can tell Buck is surprised to see him, and he should be. Eddie’s never worn makeup around Buck before, and he hadn’t sent him any of the photos that he’d taken with Mara, Jee, and Nash earlier, so he shouldn’t have known that Eddie would come home like this. But, maybe the little bit of anxiety swimming in his gut is clouding his best-friend-telepathy, because he’s not sure how to interpret Buck’s wide eyes and parted lips.
“Is that a good ‘wow’ or a bad ‘wow’? Eddie asks, nervously shifting on his feet. His hands find their way into their pockets, subconsciously hiding his painted nails. He can feel his fingers clasp around the mascara tube he’s shoved in there, and grips onto it tightly as he waits for Buck’s answer.
“G-good, ‘wow’. Your eyes… they look beautiful, Eds.” He replies, voice a little breathy.
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While babysitting the girls, Eddie gets a little princess makeover, and ends up finding his Prince Charming.
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30 May 2026
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“So, you’re saying,” Eddie starts carefully, hoping beyond hope he’s wrong about this, “that Christopher can, in fact, lose you.”
Buck stays serious. He’s fucking serious. “Yes,” he says, as if that didn’t just blow Eddie’s chest wide open.
Or, the conversation I wish they'd had after the kidnap-debacle. (Buck still doesn't say anything about sacrificing himself for Eddie, but they get to the root of the problem anyway.)
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14 May 2026
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Eddie Diaz realizes he’s bisexual at approximately 11:30 PM.
By 9:14 AM the next morning, he has:
- Dumped his girlfriend,
- Proposed marriage to Buck,
_ Emotionally compromised an entire fire engine,
- Held Buck hostage in radiology, and
- Turned a Level 1 Trauma Center into a live studio audience.The thing is, Buck would’ve handled this better if Eddie had:
- NOT proposed marriage in the middle of a gas leak,
- NOT immediately started flirting like a menace,
- NOT weaponized ER paperwork,
- NOT trapped him in a CT room,
- NOT weaponized eye contact,
- NOT somehow become hotter in a hospital gown, and
- NOT had an entire emergency department acting as witnesses.Evan Buckley, is, in a word, doomed.
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13 May 2026
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When the doors open, she is instantly relieved to see a familiar face. She even manages a small smile at her former colleague. “Eddie, hey—”
The smile instantly drops from her face as she fully takes him in. His brow is lowered and his eyes narrowed, and he is slightly hunched over with his hands clutching his side. His bloody hands.
She rushes to him just as the elevator doors close behind them. “What happened?” she asks, letting him lean on her for support.
“There’s… a shooter,” Eddie says.
No no no no no no.
Not him too.OR, May rushes to the hospital when her mom gets shot and finds Eddie bleeding out in the elevator.
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12 May 2026
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Buck cradles him, almost, moves Eddie’s head to rest gently in the crevice of his elbow. He doesn’t stop touching him, feather-light all over, from his cheek to his hair to his waist to his thigh and all the way back up again. Like he’s trying to fit a lifetime of love in a single movement. Like he’s finally starting to accept that this is all they’ve been allowed. Like he can see the color draining from Eddie’s face despite him just having been shocked back to life.
Buck and Eddie get trapped in an elevator.
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12 May 2026
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The feeling came late (I'm still glad I met you) by paleredheadinascifi
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
25 Nov 2024
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"Come on, Buck. Let it out. I hate this, too. I hate leaving you. Tell me how much you hate it. Yell at me, Buck. Come on, yell at me,” he begs.
Buck snaps. He pushes off the couch and crowds into Eddie’s space.
“Is this what you wanted?” He spits, pushing hard enough against Eddie’s chest that he takes a step backwards. “Hmm? You want me to lose it on you?”
Or, Eddie cannot handle Buck pretending to be fine about his move to Texas. He, in fact, refuses to let him.
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08 May 2026
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Eddie is all fucking over him.
He falls asleep with his body sprawled over the broad expanse of Buck’s chest and wakes up with his face buried into the skin of his neck. They watch a movie together on Eddie’s couch and Eddie practically sits in his lap, head tucked under Buck’s chin as he blinks at the screen. When they’re alone, Eddie can’t stop himself from peppering kisses to Buck’s lips and his cheeks and his forehead as Buck giggles and pretends to try and duck. Under the dinner table every night, Eddie will hook his foot around Buck’s ankle and make Buck duck his head into a flushed smile. And Eddie is always, always holding Buck’s hand—running errands and in their own bed and at the grocery store and across the console while Buck’s driving them to work.
Maybe he’s just in the honeymoon stage. Or maybe this is how he’ll always feel—like every second he’s not touching Buck is a second wasted.
in which eddie is in love and a bit clingy about it.
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07 May 2026
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“Are you kidding me?” Tommy interrupts. “You’re both going to sit there and ignore me after whatever the hell that was?”
“Well, you were doing such a good job with all the ignoring you were doing earlier that I just had to give it a go myself,” Eddie says snarkily. “How’d I do?”
Tommy sputters.
“You tell him, bro!” a voice calls out from a few rows back, and Buck snorts out a laugh.
It draws Tommy’s attention, unfortunately.
“You think this is funny?” Tommy asks, towering over them both. “Cheating on me right in front of my face?"
"Does it really count as cheating?" the woman beside Eddie mutters, looking away hastily when Tommy glares at her.
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(Buck's soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend chooses to ignore him every time the kiss cam points in their direction. Eddie does the opposite.)
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05 May 2026
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“Asked me if I was the Chinese food delivery guy on my first day.” Chim contributed in a whisper, like he was afraid Buck might wake up and hear. Maybe he felt disloyal admitting it now. It was no secret to anyone paying attention how much Chim loved Buck, even if he often pretended to be exasperated with him.
Hen nodded solemnly. “One of the many people who wouldn’t even acknowledge me when I started.”
It was news to Eddie, and apparently Ravi too, but not Cap, who resolutely stared down at the table in front of him, shaking his head.
“Oh, so he fucking sucks.” Ravi contributed casually, never one to pull punches with his thoughts.
No one responded, but the agreement was in the air.
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Eddie starts gathering information about why no one trusts Tommy. As he grows to hate their relationship more, he learns more about himself and what he wants.
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04 May 2026
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“Come on, you’re telling me you wouldn’t consider sneaking into a storage closet with me?”
“Obviously, I would!” Eddie was whisper-yelling now, and Buck wasn’t sure exactly what point he was trying to make, but he was enjoying every second of this. “But one of us is going to have to have restraint and it has to be the—the one with the most experience.”
Buck felt his mouth drop open in delight. “Eddie,” he admonished. “Are you calling me a whore?”
“No!” said Eddie, looking increasingly flustered. “I just mean—clearly you have the power to do—” he gestured at Buck, “that, so you have the—the responsibility to, like, use it. Responsibly.”
“Did you just quote Spiderman?”
Eddie propped his elbows on the table and dropped his head into his hands, groaning dramatically. “I’m going to die. The first date, and I’m going to die.”
“Been there, wouldn’t recommend it.”
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Buck and Eddie and the first date.
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03 May 2026
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In The Blink Of An Eye by orphan_account
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
08 Apr 2026
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"Mafuyu, just go back to your room—"
"No." Mafuyu's hand found Ena's, their fingers interlacing. "I'm not leaving my wife alone with some asshole who shows up in the middle of the night."
Oh fuck.
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Mafuena gets traumatized by a MAN.
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02 May 2026