softhollander (cautiouslycas)
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my soul stirs so gently, it blends in with yours by softhollander (cautiouslycas) for totheverge
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Jun 2026
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This might hit the spot too. Shane laid down on the bed, legs slightly parted. The perfect landing ground for Ilya.
Shane had bought the panties after Ilya saw them while scrolling on his phone, at the cottage. They had been lounging on the deck, a cold beer next to them. They had been doing nothing, but such a perfect good nothing that it was forever engraved into Shane's brain.
Ilya had shown them to Shane, told him how hot he would be in them and Shane had placed an order for three different colors and patterns the next day.
They had waited their time in the back of his underwear drawer.
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somewhere in the silence by softhollander (cautiouslycas)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Jun 2026
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"Ilya, honey?” Yuna sounded calm, composed, but there was a crack in her voice. A crack that he had never heard in it before. It chilled the blood in his veins, froze him to the spot. “Are you home?”
"Da. Why?” His free hand was tapping against the kitchen counter. 1,2,3 - repeat.
"Shane was in a car accident.”
"My Shane?” Ilya’s brain was spinning without grip, like tires during heavy rain. It did not make sense, in his thoughts–this was not real. She was lying. “No, he is a careful driver. He would not. I joke all the time. Even a grandma will take him over.”
The silence on the other end of the line thickened. It felt like it was eating him alive.
Late at night, after Shane left Ilya during the Christmas fight, Shane gets into a car accident.
While the world keeps turning and Ilya deals with the uncertainty of grief and guilt, Shane meets the one person Ilya no longer has: Irina.
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I think about you often, lately by softhollander (cautiouslycas)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Jun 2026
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Deep in his chest, he knew there was a chance he would not be a first draft pick.
It was not a big deal. Other hockey players made it into halls of fame not being the first pick, not even third, fourth. His entire career did not hinge on this one decision made for him.
His brain, his dumb, perfectionist brain that loved to fight him, kept fixating on it. Like the blade of a skate continuously getting caught on the same patch of shitty ice. It felt like he was circling, like a shark, around the same idea, the same ideal.
Shane Hollander, on the evening of the draft. Before, during and in the gym after.
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a heart you can always come home to by softhollander (cautiouslycas)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
01 Apr 2026
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If Shane was honest, he had not seen much of the movie at all. He kept getting distracted, looking at Ilya instead. It was stupid, really, but lately, he had been noticing the little things.
The way that the freckles on his back seem to make perfect constellations on his shoulders. Shane noticed the reflection of the colors on the screen in the set of his curls. The grin that slipped onto his lips so easily at any of the witty and dumb lines being said by actors who were seriously underpaid for the things they needed to do.
Shane and Ilya have spent the last seventeen years of their lives together, from daycare, all the way to senior year.
With life threatening to pull them in different directions, Shane needs to be brave.
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When the weight of the world is so close by softhollander (cautiouslycas)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Mar 2026
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When an injury benches Shane Hollander, his thoughts spiral and he struggles keeping a grasp on the world around him.
For most of his life, he had thought that something major would need to happen. Life altering, for him to quit hockey. Now, he was not so sure anymore. Hockey had given him a lot, it was true. Hockey had given him Ilya.
Hockey had also taken a lot away. In just the past few weeks and months, he had lost friends, respect and maybe also passion.
Ilya was home here. He saw it, in his eyes. Ilya was tired, but he was home. He enjoyed himself. Even if his body would decide to give up, he would appear as a coach, as staff. He would find his way in.
Shane was not so sure that he wanted that anymore.
Recent bookmarks
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Monty Stays by 16sueszlon1
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
28 Jun 2026
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Shane Hollander hates chaos and loves rules. His days at the Montreal Prophet, where he works as political journalist are strictly structured, his desk is always clean and he follows a strict diet.
He doesn’t know that his life and his perspective on things are about to change when he gets send to interview some activists in a close by forest occupation where he meets a smug russian anarchist(Please read the notes at the beginning of the first chapter and mind the tags)
Bookmarked by softhollander (cautiouslycas)
30 May 2026
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but it's golden (like daylight) by sozvezdiye
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
18 May 2026
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Today is their golden anniversary, a day to remind Ilya of the thousands upon thousands of golden memories from the last fifty (née sixty-three) years,
Shane remembers enough golden times for the both of them—
Bookmarked by softhollander (cautiouslycas)
20 May 2026
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Despite the distance between us by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
06 Jun 2026
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"Hi Rozan... Ilya, It's Shane. But of course you know that. I... huh... I know you're busy and that things are probably... insane right now. I just wanted to check in, I guess. I know you won't listen to this, but I just... I keep thinking about you all the way there, alone. I wish... I wish I could be there with you. I... I miss you. (Shane exhales, then inhales deeply). Fuck. I do miss you. So much. I'll see you in two weeks, ok? Take care of yourself Ilya. Bye."
He almost deleted the voicemail as soon as what he had just done hit him. His heart was beating so fast it made him dizzy, he felt heat creeping up on his face and a rising panic settling under his skin. He needed to sit down. While running his hands through his hair, face down between his legs, he kept going over his words. That was the most honest Shane had allowed himself to be with anyone, let alone Ilya. He was forever grateful for the knowledge that Ilya would never listen to that.
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Shane pours his heart out on his voicemails to Ilya.
It's too late when Ilya finally listens to them.Series
- Part 1 of silence like a cancer grows
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what if i told you none of it was accidental by rainchance
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 May 2026
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Ilya makes Shane a friendship bracelet.
Series
- Part 1 of Shane Hollander's Alter Egos Tour
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The Scrum by KupferRost
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
10 May 2026
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It's too fast, Ilya's brain can't catch up, his spiraling thoughts and his body moving before he can even think... words leave his mouth and everything is silent, everyone holds their breath at the scene unfolding, in the final minutes at the game Montreal Metros vs Boston Raiders.
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Shane on the ice, people on top of him and the fear of losing him gets Ilya to dive in and forgetting that he is mic'd up for the game.
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- Part 3 of Heated Rivalry finished OS ❤️