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    No matter how much he loved his husband, Shane had always wanted to be a star hockey player first and foremost, not a 'gay hockey player' defined first by his sexuality.

    He had also made peace with what their marriage meant, and the challenges they faced in hockey because of it; he had found happiness in the bubble they had in Ottawa with the Centaurs.

    That safe bubble burst one day with an unexpected call from Hockey Canada, and by the time it was all said and done, there was going to be a picture of Shane beside ‘gay icon’ in the urban dictionary.

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    27 May 2026

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    “He’s such a jock,” Cassie says with a chuckle. She puts her glass of dark liquor on the bar so she can fold her arms. When she sees Ilya looking at Bood, she laughs and shakes her head. “Oh no, I’m talking about your man. That guy is hockey if it was a person. And thank god for that, I’ve seen those Reebok ads.”

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    25 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is, maybe, perhaps, a little unhealthily obsessed with his cycling instructor, a man who does not know he exists. Or, Ilya corrects himself, he may know he exists—he is Ilya Rozanov, after all—but, the point still stands.

    Shane Hollander is a former college hockey player turned Peloton instructor with some very dedicated fans.

    Happy (early) Shane Hollander's birthday to all who celebrate! This story starts May 10, 2021.

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    20 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    19 May 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.

    “There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”

    “I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.

    “No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”

    // shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.

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    19 May 2026

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    ...oh,” his mom says. “Oh, honey, you were seeing someone? You never said anything.”

    “It’s-it’s complicated.” He catches the present tense too fucking late to do anything about it, and he barely resists the urge to either groan or slip forward to start beating his head against the coffee table.

    Fuck his fucking life.

    “You’re still…seeing this person?” His mom asks, and the amount of control he can hear her exerting is almost painful. “Who is-”

    “Yuna,” his dad cuts in, voice quiet, “maybe give him a second, yeah?”

    Yeah, Shane agrees in his head. Give him a second.

    Maybe give him a decade while they’re at it.

    (when shane's old fake id falls out of his wallet around his parents, he has to explain that it was to book hotel rooms before he was 21)

    (...and then he has to explain why he needed to book those hotel rooms in the first place)

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    19 May 2026

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    18 May 2026

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    Rose Landry’s iCloud account is compromised in a series of targeted hacks and her locked folders become a topic of intense discussion. And wait, is that Ilya Rozanov’s dog?

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    17 May 2026

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    shane hollander is drafted to the boston raiders in 2010, one year after ilya rozanov. it changes a lot.

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    16 May 2026

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    They’re alone at the bar now. No one is watching. He could press a finger to Hollander’s lips, wait for Hollander to open for him. He could slide the pad of his thumb across Hollander’s tongue, tip his chin up, and pour the liquid into his mouth. He could watch the bob of Hollander’s throat as he swallows it down.

    Ilya takes a drag from his cigarette instead.

    “What?” Ilya asks as Hollander stares him down, not unlike an enraged bull. “You are going to tell me not to smoke? Is Vegas, Hollander. No one cares.”

    “Neither do I,” Hollander mutters, turning away toward the bar. “Are you going to give my drink back?”

    Ilya glances down at the shot glass in his hand and shrugs. “No. Is mine now.” He throws the shot back, suppressing a wince at the taste of subpar hotel bar vodka. When he looks up again, Hollander is already walking away from him into the sea of brightly colored slot machines.

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    After hooking up at the MLH awards, Shane doesn't go back to his room. He goes to a party. Ilya can't help but follow him to the casino where he realizes something is wrong with Shane.

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    15 May 2026

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    Ilya:
    what are you saying to hollander
    what does he say

    Rose:
    I promised him I'm not going to hook up with you
    Bros before hoes

    Ilya:
    shane hollander is not my bro

    Rose:
    No WE'RE bros
    Shane and me
    You're the ho

    Ilya:
    wow
    wow

     

    When Rose Landry and Shane Hollander break up, Ilya Rozanov is determined to help Rose find a new man. It doesn't go exactly how he intended.

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    15 May 2026

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    Yuna thinks that if her baby could talk, he would have a lot to tell her. Perhaps he already has opinions on her parenting.

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    Baby Shane growing up, from Yuna's perspective

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    15 May 2026

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    ”It’s not bad” says his mom, carefully. “Very Canadian, sponsors are happy about that.” That, and not much else, he can tell. A loon is neither masculine nor impressive. A disappointment, to those who hoped he’d have something like a wolf, himself included. His dad tries to bake him the traditional settling cake, in the shape of the new adults’ daemon, but his cake decorating skills aren’t great, so it mostly looks like a grey football. And Shanes’ strict diet doesn’t allow for cake.

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    Shane Hollander, the soul he didn't choose to have, the boy he didn't choose to love, and the life that, despite all odds, might just end up worth living.

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    13 May 2026

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    Rozanov reached for him, caught his elbow, turned him back, and pressed him against the glass slider.

    Then he kissed him.

    An easy kiss.

    One hand at Shane’s waist. The other lower. Gripping.

    Shane answered it immediately.

    Jesus Christ.

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    OR… A David Hollander POV s01e06 missing scene with David/Yuna backstory about fathers, sons, names, tables, and the plural of phones.

    David Hollander only meant to retrieve a charging cable.

    Instead, he finds Shane and Ilya against the glass, kissing like this is not their first time and not their first secret.

    What follows is one long afternoon at the Hollander cottage: pasta, vodka, rain, old grief, repaired hinges, awkward questions, parental panic, and the slow, practical work of making room.

    Chapter 1. Against the Glass
    Chapter 2. First Faceoff
    Chapter 3. The Room
    Chapter 4. Intermission
    Chapter 5. Second Period
    Chapter 6. Below the Goal Line
    Chapter 7. Three Stars
    Endnote Pushkin

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    06 May 2026

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    “Uh, hello,” Ilya says when the cat rises up on its legs and stretches, back bending and paws curling down. Its ears flick and it gives him a dour sort of mwor in return. Witches have familiars, Ilya knows that. And this is a perfect spot for a familiar to be, on the stoop of the witch's house. Logic follows that the cat must be the witch's familiar.

    So he says, very politely, “Shane is expecting us,” even though he has no idea if that’s true or not.

    The cat yawns, tiny sharp teeth flashing at Ilya. Its ears flick again and then it curls up into a ball of fur, right there on the brick wall despite the fact that they’re hurtling towards the end of November and it’s fucking freezing outside.

    “Is that good or bad, do you think,” Ilya asks Seryozha in Russian, gesturing at the cat when the familiar doesn’t move again except to curl its tail over the tip of its pink nose.

    Seryozha’s phone screen flashes white in the darkness. That is a cat, he types, and Ilya scowls. It’s a fucking magical cat.

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    01 May 2026

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    Shane tries to grab at the right words. "She's not - it's not that simple. Shane Hollander is me but it's also like - it's a thing people use to sell something. It's like a cardboard cutout of me."

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    29 Apr 2026

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    Rozanov made a dismissive noise. “No, no, I will pick you up. Send me your address.”

    “I’m not giving you my home address.”

    “Why not!”

    “Because you’ll probably post it on social media to psych me out before our next game.”

    That made Rozanov laugh. “It is good idea,” he said. Stopped laughing. Started again. Blew out a breath like he had to get himself together. “I might do this to you,” he allowed, “but you have nice boyfriend living with you now. I would not do this to him. You are safe.”

     

    In which Ilya Rozanov adopts himself into Scott and Kip's household and refuses to leave. Kip finds this very sweet. Scott is going to kill him.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    After they came out, Shane was ready for people to be weird.

    It was weird with other guys in the league, weird with reporters, weird with angry fans who thought his relationship had tanked their fantasy teams and their sports betting parlays, weird with sponsors and their very enthusiastic pride campaign pitches, weird on all the social media that he avoided like the plague.

    What he hadn't expected was for things to be so fucking weird with other gay people.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    A series of somewhat haphazardly connected social media fics that take inspo from pop/stan culture

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    11 Apr 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    06 Apr 2026

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