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    Stranger: a/s/l
    You: What?
    Stranger: age sex location
    You: Oh.
    You: 24, Male, Canada
    You: You?
    Stranger: 24m usa
    You: Do you like hockey?

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    17 Jun 2026

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    “You are very particular with when you eat,” Ilya says, finally.

    Shane tilts his head, moderately offended as he scrambles to say, “No, I’m not.”

    “You are.”

    “I’m not–”

    “It is not question, Hollander,” Ilya says, and there’s no room for discussion. He’s moving on, popping another chip into his mouth. “It is fact.”

     

    or, Ilya making observations about Shane's eating habits.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    The more desperate you are, the easier it is to slip up, and then you lose more control, and you become even more desperate. It's a vicious cycle. The issue is, Hollander seems kind. And here’s the problem with kind people: when backed into a corner, they tend to hurt themselves instead of others.

    illegal gambling / underground fight club AU

    Shane has a background in boxing and needs to make a lot of money fast and Ilya isn't a gang leader, but he sure as hell seems like one sometimes.

    (angst and smut included)

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    08 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    absolutely loved this do micj I LOVED IT read it NOW

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    Shane flees to the cottage four hours before his marriage to his biggest hater, Ilya Rozanov. He doesn’t expect to find Ilya, who thought of jilting him first, at his destination.

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    08 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    no vows but IM HAPPY CRYINF

  5. Public Bookmark 48

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    Ilya wakes up with amnesia. Apparently he has a husband, a dog, several Stanley Cups, and an alarming number of people who love him.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya,” Hollander breathes, which—Ilya isn’t sure Hollander has ever called him by his first name. Surely he has sometime in seven years of acquaintance? But the sound of it is novel, unfamiliar. 

    And far from unpleasant. 

    Then Hollander says, “Baby,” and Ilya knows for certain that he’s never called Ilya that, because it takes the air right out of Ilya’s lungs and makes his guts twist and fuck, he would have remembered if Hollander had ever called him that. Especially in that reverent tone. 

    It’s nice. 

    Ilya doesn't remember being married to Shane Hollander. Probably, he should tell someone.

    He decides not to.

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    07 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    yes ilya, i too would pretend i remember marrying shane hollander

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

    -
    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    06 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    thisbs so good i loved it do much

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    Hayden Pike: Fuck you??
    Again who the hell are you.

    Unknown Number: relax
    shane says you know about me
    this is lie?

    Hayden Pike: I know about who?

    Unknown Number: he says you are so nosy and always ask about me and do not leave him alone
    now you have honor of talking to me and u will not even appreciate it
    maybe i will not text you then goodbye

    Hayden Pike: HOLY SHIT?
    Boston Lily? Are you serious?

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    or Ilya steals Hayden's number off of Shane's phone "in case of emergency". Hayden starts to figure out why exactly Shane has kept this apparent not-relationship a secret from him, maybe he'll find out a little too much. And so will everyone else 😉

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    06 Jun 2026

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    Lily Hollander
    @hollalily81

    It has been 28 days 17 hours and 35 minutes since I last kissed @ShaneHollanderHockeyPlayer

    --

    My take on Ilya having a Boston Lily twit account

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    05 Jun 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 98

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    The winner’s room is built for alphas and omegas, for something clean and controlled, for a clear outcome that burns off fast and doesn’t linger. Not for two alphas. Not for the kind of tension that doesn’t break, not for a stalemate that doesn’t resolve cleanly, no matter who wins.

    The first time, Ilya Rozanov ignored that entirely and chose Shane Hollander anyway. Like he wanted the fight more than the release, like he knew exactly what he was starting.

    Shane’s been thinking about it longer than he wants to admit. Now he’s the one who’s won. The room is his. The rules are his.

    Payback is going to feel so damn good.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    04 Jun 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 94

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    “I—” Hollander took a deep breath. “I said you could—”

    His face reddened deeper, but he soldiered on. The words came out in a rush. “Dowhateveryouwanttome.”

    Ilya tightened his grip on Hollander’s chin. “What was that?”

    Hollander raised his eyes to the ceiling, looking pained in a way Ilya knew had nothing to do with the hard press of Ilya’s fingers.

    “We agreed you could do whatever you want to me,” he said more clearly, sounding a little bit despairing.

    OR: Shane and Ilya make a bet. The winner takes it all.

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    04 Jun 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 77

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    When Yuna calls to tell him she convinced Ilya to spend a few days recovering at their place, David was not shocked.

    He was so not shocked that he’d actually already changed the sheets in the guest bedroom and had a pot of miso soup simmering on the stove in the event they had a last-minute guest.

    He was, however, not quite sure what to do with Yuna’s whispered, “I think Ilya’s Jane is actually our Shane.”

    ~

    Yuna becomes absolutely convinced “Jane” is actually “Shane” and starts planning for every contingency she can.

    David, because he loves his wife and values his life, pretends he’s entertaining this idea.

    But there’s no way, right?

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    01 Jun 2026

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    “We all get our bell rung eventually, right?”

    When Ilya Rozanov wakes up in the hospital, he doesn’t know how he got there. He doesn’t know it’s 2019, his second season as captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. He doesn’t know he got hurt defending Shane Hollander on the ice.

    All he knows is that he must have hit his head really, really, hard, because when he wakes up, there are three Hollanders looking at him with love in their eyes and concern on their faces.

    This is especially confusing since the last time Ilya Rozanov remembers seeing Shane Hollander was at the 2014 Winter Olympics.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    “Got someone special waiting for you?”

    Shane’s breath hitches and he looks up, big, brown orbs settling on the person behind the camera. There’s a blush crawling across his freckles, his voice unsteady as he answers.

    “I wanted to celebrate with Lily, but she isn’t here.”

    The video ends shortly after, and the internet collectively loses its mind. Within minutes #FindLily is trending across all social media platforms, women from across the globe begging Shane to dump her ass.

    OR on the night that Shane wins the cup for a second year in a row, the internet learns of Lily and goes absolutely nuts.
    Inevitably, so does Ilya Rozanov.

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    01 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    fuck the voyageurs #findlily

  16. Public Bookmark 2904

    Mystery Work

    Part of mid servetas
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    01 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    we love u rose

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    Ilya Rozanov is called to the king to receive an unexpected reward for his triumphs.

    The king places a leash in his hand and offers him a single night with his most prized possession, the omega concubine known as Jane.

    Ilya has no interest in palace pleasures, and even less interest in touching something that clearly belongs to the king. But Jane is nothing like the obedient pet the court whispers about—sharp-tongued, manipulative, and very aware of the effect he has on people. Worse, he has been watching Ilya for a long time… and he very much wants him.

    And Jane has plans.

    After all, if Sir Ilya Rozanov is going to ruin him…
    He might as well keep him.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    “I’m…. I have a boyfriend, actually,” Shane whispered. “So…”

    “So?” The demon’s expression broke into an amused grin. “I don’t really care, but I can be polite. Where’s he, then?”

    He ditched me just an hour before our date for something definitely more important, and that’s how I got in a shitty warehouse with my friends, summoning a sex demon, who hit my balls while I was asleep and it was so fucking good I got the hardest orgasm in my life, though Shane.

    “Like, currently?” he said. “I don’t know.”

    _____________

    Demon summoning go wrong. Or right?

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    31 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    hell yeah fuck u brad

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    “Ilya, hey, hey,” Shane says, setting the plates down and hurrying around the table to Ilya’s side. “What’s wrong, why are you crying?”

    Ilya hiccups. “Is fine. Is nothing. I am just crying because Pike is so ugly,” he blubbers. “And it is so sad that these beautiful children have to look at his face every day.”

    Pike waits until Ilya’s got his hands over his eyes to meet Shane’s gaze and mouth 'what the FUCK'.

    Or: after Shane moves to Ottawa, Ilya develops a habit of randomly bursting into tears.

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    31 May 2026

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    thisbis canon i nyhesrt

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    “You know, there are a lot of kids that look up to you—“

    It’s the refrain of Shane’s life. Everything circles back to this: a lot of kids looking up to you. That’s why you need to spend your summers doing ad campaigns. That’s why you need to let a social media manager handle your every interaction online. That’s why we need to sit here after family dinner with flash cards rehearsing the different ways you’ll answer reporters’ questions after you face Boston next week, and, oh, when we’re done, let’s do some French vocabulary flashcards, too, because it’s important to the Francophone fans that you’re thinking about them. There are lots of Asian Francophones in Quebec, Shane. Almost 13% of primary schoolers are of Asian descent, compared to less than 4% of hockey players. Isn’t that pathetic?

    As if Shane doesn’t know that it’s pathetic. As if Shane doesn’t know what he fought through to get here.

    Abruptly, Shane is furious.

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    31 May 2026

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