Gifts for dearestdee
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your sickness never ever scared me by rivers_and_blades for dearestdee
Fandoms: Video Blogging RPF
13 Apr 2023
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Sometimes, when you struggle, you push people away. Tommy did this-- a lot. He didn't plan to speak to Deo ever again, but one thing lead to another, and suddenly, Deo was Tommy's only lifeline.
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There was nothing graceful about how Tommy brought the cigarette to his lips. He was clumsy and his movements were shaky, not only from the winter weather biting at his hand but the nerves, the idea of getting caught. He almost dropped it a couple of times, trying to hold it between two of his fingers as he’d always seen people do. It didn’t seem to fit right in his hand.
When Tommy inhaled, the taste infected his mouth so strongly that he coughed. The boy with the cigarettes laughed. “I didn’t think you would like it,” he said, fluently taking a drag of his cigarette. Eager to prove him wrong, Tommy tried again. He didn’t quite know when to exhale. He coughed again.
It tasted like shit, he wouldn't deny that, but it made him feel important. It was stupid, the way smoking a cigarette made Tommy feel like he meant something. As if the more risks he took, the more mistakes he made, the more people would look his way. The more they’d feel sorry for him.