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    In late 2014, celebrity photos start dropping. Ilya deletes his texts, his photos, a video he should never have taken. It isn't soon enough.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    One delayed flight. One closing airport bar. One truth or dare game that gets significantly out of hand.
    Ilya Rozanov came to his ex-girlfriend's wedding to prove he was over it. Shane Hollander came to his best friend's wedding to prove he was fine. They were both lying, but they didn't know that about each other yet.

    Then they had to share a room.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander is on vacation.

    This is, objectively, a great idea. There is sun. There is a private villa. There is Luca, who fits into Shane’s life with the ease of something long-established. Brotherly, familiar, and currently eyeing the entire resort like it’s a personal challenge.

    There is also Ilya Rozanov.

    This was not mentioned. This was not in the plan.

    It’s fine. They’re fine. They’ve always been fine. Years later, different lives, perfectly capable of sharing a beach, a drink, and conversation that slips a little too easily into something familiar.

    Fine enough not to think about it.

    Around them, things stay uncomplicated. Luca is already making decisions Shane will have to deal with later. Marley is encouraging him. Svetlana is watching like she already knows how this ends.

    And Shane, who is absolutely, completely fine, starts to realize something mildly inconvenient:

    nothing else ever really measured up.

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    08 Jul 2026

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    After Ilya breaks Shane's heart in Sochi, Shane builds a life out of control.

    Three cups. Captaincy. Precision. Routine. Emptiness.

    When no achievement manages to make him feel anything, he turns to a mysterious phone service instead.

    Intimate in ways that should be impossible between strangers. A man who understands exactly how to pull Shane apart without ever touching him. Who gives him structure instead of chaos. Relief instead of performance.

    Shane finds himself pulled toward something he thought he buried years ago.

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    Set 4 years after Sochi, where both Ilya and Shane were left with shattered hearts, this is a story about second chances and being brave enough to trust again. To want anew.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    The nights were already cold and Berlin's streets were poorly lit, but Shane didn't mind. Berlin wasn't a pretty city; apartment blocks repeated themselves in washed-out mustard tones, aseptic blues and greens, off-putting reds. The windows of the newer buildings were so small he wondered if those rooms even got any light.

    Now that he thought about it, he could barely remember Hannover's architecture. He'd never paid attention. Hannover simply was.

    How many things in his life simply 'were'? When was the last time something had demanded his full attention?

    Or: Shane and Ilya meet in an erotic massage parlor in Berlin in 2012. They're both sex workers.

    Or: an exploration of desire as a world-building force.

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    17 Jun 2026