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“And if you were-” Mike swallowed hard, the words ripping out of him, painful, slurred, and honest in a way he’d never let himself be sober, “I just wish you were a girl.”
Will froze.
Mike kept going, unable to stop himself now, like the admission opened the flood gates. “It’d be so much easier if you were a girl. Everything would make sense. No one would question anything. I wouldn’t have to feel like… like I’m wrong.”
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Mike and Will have kept their relationship tightly locked behind closed doors. But when they decide to start a youtube channel with Lucas and Dustin, fans notice how close the two seem to be. And the spotlight on the relationship Mike isn't ready to be public deepens a crack between them.
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- Part 1 of Fear and Acceptance
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28 Jan 2026
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Every time Josh looked at him with something akin to reverence, it made Tyler want to throw up. Josh had so much faith in him. Yet all Tyler could think about sometimes was Josh’s laugh, his smile, his lips, his toned stomach and the curve of his waist, the way he—
If Josh knew the way Tyler really felt, he’d be so disgusted by him.
day 25: loss of faith
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- Part 17 of starrswillfade's joshlerween
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06 Dec 2025
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Jung Wooyoung never had a plan, but he had a direction. He wanted to dance. He wanted to lose his breath on the dance floor because that is the only time when he feels like he has his life under control. But recently, he's been losing his breath a lot not from the dance, but from the excitement of having a certain pair of brown eyes settled on him. It was exhilarating to have Choi San's attention, and it was even more exciting to have his lips pressed against his skin.
San couldn't tear his eyes away from the dark haired boy from the first second they found him. It was like all the control was slowly dissipating from his body, his breath picking up the pace, thoughts staggering… and all it took was one look from the very irksome, very stubborn, very very hot Jung Wooyoung.
And it was all too scary.
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23 Apr 2025
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Wooyoung helps babysit San’s twins.
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17 Oct 2024
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During an interview, the host unexpectedly asks the ATEEZ members what their ideal type is for a girlfriend. No one is thrown off more than San, who becomes painfully aware of the possibility of the members someday getting girlfriends. The possibility of Wooyoung getting a girlfriend. Feelings that have previously stayed under wraps begin to surface and San can no longer go back to seeing his best friend the same way.
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24 Sep 2024
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Choi San navigates life, love, and the mortifying ordeal of having friends who really really care about him.
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31 Aug 2024
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san knows exactly what distraction calms an uneasy wooyoung, and he learned it in a way he didn’t quite expect.
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30 Aug 2024
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Well holy shit that's some well written woosan
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San quenches his thirst for water and, perhaps, for Wooyoung.
Yes, this is a story about homosexuals and hydration.
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24 Aug 2024
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I think I've re read this 6 times over the years gives me all the warm and fuzzies 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
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“Cap’s a beaut, isn’t he?” Yeosang chimed in, making it clear he’d caught the way that Wooyoung’s gaze had gotten stuck on one particular player.
“...Your team captain is Choi San?” Wooyoung asked, barely able to hear his own voice as his heartbeat drowned out every other sound.
“Our team captain is Choi San.”
Well, shit.
As teenagers, whether as teammates or best friends, Wooyoung and San had been inseparable. Which was why, when the lines of their relationship finally bled until they blurred together while traveling for a championship weekend and their euphoria gave out immediately to complete disaster, Wooyoung is left heartbroken, confused, and ashamed.
Now, having spent a few years struggling to get scouted to a collegiate team, Wooyoung is finally feeling some peace when he’s confirmed for one of his top schools. Peace that is completely shattered on the first day of training when the star center and team captain is none other than his own estranged ex-best friend. San is over eager to reconnect but Wooyoung is more than cautious knowing his heart and his future are on the line if whatever he once felt for San affects the team or if the truth about their past makes it out.
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27 Jul 2024
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This hits, as the kids say. The perfect amount of angst, realism, romance, friends to lovers to exes to always-have-been-soulmates. Gosh dang beautiful.
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“It’s complicated.”
“It’s really not, Wooyoung.”
Yeosang slides a hand around Yunho’s forearm. “Woo, we’re just worried. If something is going on, we need to know.”
“It’s not that easy.” A tear slides down his cheek. As soon as he feels it, he wipes it away with his shirt sleeve. “I wish it were that easy.”
“Are you okay?” Yeosang asks, voice dropping to almost a whisper.
Wooyoung nods. Yunho is still staring at him like an intruder, but Wooyoung thinks he can see the anger crack with concern. Wooyoung doesn’t cry. He swallows his feelings and shelves them for another time with an undetermined date.
He takes a deep breath.
“I met someone.”
Yunho scoffs bitterly. “So you get a girlfriend and ditch us?”
“Not a girlfriend.”
“Oh.”A whirlwind romance of teenagers falling in love and learning that there isn't a right way to do it.
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06 Mar 2024
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It's normal for San to call Wooyoung beautiful, because objectively he IS beautiful, in and out, up and down, from the tip of his growing hair to the sole of his big ass shoes.
It's a thorough battle San, the other members and even the fans, fought ,trying to convince him. Sometimes he'd accept it, sometimes he wouldn't.
And it's okay, really.Or Five times san called Wooyoung beautiful and the one time Wooyoung listened
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31 Dec 2023
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“I think I just met my soulmate!” a voice yelled over the music.
San found himself suddenly staring at the first guy who had ever hit on him in his life and he proceeded to say the only thing he could think of. Which was, coincidentally, also the stupidest thing he could think of.
“Are you hitting on me?” San asked.
Soulmate tattoos show the first thing your soulmate will ever say aloud to you and San has resented his pick-up line tattoo for years. So, when a drunk Wooyoung hits on him at a party saying the words from his tattoo, San doesn't know what to do. San doesn't want a soulmate and he's not even gay.
Wooyoung has been waiting his entire life for his soulmate, he hasn't even tried dating anyone else. His soulmate tattoo disappeared after a drunken night and he's determined to retrace his steps to find the guy of his dreams. And he's pretty sure tutoring his new acquaintance, San, in the meantime won't turn into a distraction.
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07 Sep 2023
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24 Jul 2023
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omnomnom don't mind me just eating this fluffy angst up and going back for seconds
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Wooyoung feels more comfortable sleeping in San's room than his own and it's definitely because of the bed. No other reason. None.
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15 Jul 2023
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I am a mess this is cotton candy sweet perfect canon
one shot perfect I tell you -
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08 May 2023
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The Heart Rate of a Mouse by beggarsnotes
Fandom The Heart Rate of a Mouse Series - Anna Green
29 Apr 2012
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25 Jan 2023
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I read this when it came out on livejournal... still haven't found a fic that quite manages to live up to it. A true Classic of fanfiction.
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Wooyoung has always ignited a fire inside of him. Whether it was for petty arguments or affection, it was always there. And now it seems like all those bottled up emotions came pouring out all at once, and he doesn’t know what to do. No matter what, San had to make sure he wasn’t alone with him. He was too afraid of Wooyoung wanting to talk to him, because then what would San even say in return? How is he supposed to explain his feelings to his best friend when he doesn’t even know them himself?
God, everything is so fucked up now, isn’t it?
or San and Wooyoung try to navigate their feelings for each other while not letting anyone, not even their bandmates, know what is going on between them.
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19 Jan 2023
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“I was talking to someone. On- an app.”
Wooyoung blinked at him. “An app…” He echoed. “What kind of-” San gave him another look, and he got it. “Ohh…”
Oh. That kind of app.
That wasn’t that bad, right?
Wooyoung was in the middle of trying to figure out how he felt about this when San continued, “and, and I think they know who I am.”
Oh. “Oh.” Wooyoung said, unhelpfully. And then, “oh, shit.”
or: san almost gets caught on a gay dating app. wooyoung deals with this fine
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“I’m San,” San says, voice dropping in a force of habit, something that has latched onto him from years of living the same humdrum life and his lifelong acquaintance with introducing himself to people who truly didn't give a fuck about him or anything he did, introductions serving merely as a necessary evil.
The stranger looks at him for a brief moment before he tilts the disinfectant bottle into the ball of cotton, soaking it as he leans forward and presses it against San’s stitches. San grabs his wrist.
“I’m gonna need a name before you treat me, pretty boy,” San says, making sure that it doesn’t come off sounding like a request.
The stranger raises his head to meet his eyes, something like sadness pooling in his eyes, smudged black and purple distracting San for the umpteenth time this evening and whispers softly, “Wooyoung.”
It’s a pretty name for a pretty face, but San is presented with an even prettier smile, shy and curling at the edges of his mouth, lilac field for his hair and cherry blossom cheeks, as he repeats it under his breath.
Or, San is working in the task force as a mercenary for an intergalactic law enforcement authority, and Wooyoung's the anomaly he doesn't see coming.
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23 Nov 2022
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“Let’s swim,” Wooyoung murmured.
They let go of each other to let their feet pull off the ground and they started swimming further into the lake, safe under the light of the moon. They went in circles, turning around each other with teasing smiles, swimming together with knowing eyes.
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11 Oct 2022