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    Ilya wishes this could be easy for them, like back when they were kids, camping under the stars in Shane’s parent’s backyard. Things didn’t seem so big then, so terrifying. Ilya fell in love with Shane when he was 16 too, he found him boring and naïve and innocent, but he was also beautiful and endearing and he gave Ilya everything he didn’t know he needed.

    A friend, a companion, a partner, a family.

    He’d been with him through all the big moments in Ilya’s life, and no matter how hard he tried to fight it, he knew. Falling for Shane Hollander would always be inevitable for him.

    — Or Shane and Ilya meet a year before Heated Rivalry and Ilya spends two summers with the Hollanders before their rookie year. AU

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    Ilya was going to murder him.

    He should have just corrected Scott. Should have said, "No, that's my best friend, we grew up together." Simple. But instead he'd agreed to bring his nonexistent boyfriend on the trip like an idiot.

    How was he going to talk Ilya into this?

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    The one where Shane accidentally lets his coworkers assume Ilya is his boyfriend and instead of telling them the truth, he convinces Ilya to play along for the weekend.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    The last thing Buck remembered was the zipper.

    He remembered the heavy, black plastic sliding shut, sealing away the pale, mud-streaked face that had been looking at him with such cold anger just hours ago. He saw the blue tinge of Eddie’s lips, the absolute stillness of his chest. He heard the sound—that sharp, final zzzzzt—cutting through the rain, erasing the last piece of Eddie Diaz from the world.

    Then, the silence hit him. Not the quiet of the storm, but the suffocating, heavy silence of a world that was suddenly empty.

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    Buck gets stuck in his personal Hell - watching Eddie die over and over again in that well.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    When he finally came back almost eight months after the ladder truck bombing, Buck hadn't expected a warm welcome from his teammates. But as their resentment towards his choice of suing the LAFD never wavers, he finds himself falling into a spiral of depression that could lead to severe consequences.

    The Earth never stops spinning on its axis, and just as the sun rises and sets every day and the moon reflects its light, the universe never stops forcing Buck to deal with new and old traumas.

    A visit from someone from Buck's past fundamentally changes the 118's views about their teammate, as old wounds are poked and left exposed, and everyone is forced to learn how to navigate their resentments and guilt.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    It started with a headache.

    Or a hug, after the gate slammed down on a rented U-Haul, ready to take his Alpha friend 800 miles away from him. His nose buried in Eddie’s neck, chasing his scent straight from the source before it moved out of reach.

    Or maybe it started with a lightning strike, a gunshot, a wave, a bomb, a grenade. An unfamiliar Alpha in the locker room, with a killer smile and an 8-pack.

    But Buck first became aware of it as a thumping in his skull as he closed the door to Eddie’s his house.

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    Or, my take on Omega Buck left behind by Alpha Eddie

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