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Eddie's sick of personal, intrusive questions about his love life whenever he visits his family, so he starts bringing Buck for the holidays as his (fake) boyfriend. He only wants to shut them up, and doesn't expect that the small crush he has on his best friend could actually turn into something more...
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“I'm gay.”
He's looking at his feet, because he hasn't quite come to terms with the fact that he's saying this in a room where other people, strangers, can hear it.
But this is still the first time he's said it this way: out loud, in a declarative sentence. Being nervous is fine. Frank said that being nervous is fine, and Buck just said he's proud, and the only thought Eddie has in his head is that it's embarrassing he can't raise his head and say it like a man, so clearly, he's going to need to hang on to other people's words for the time being, someone who isn't his dad trying to explain the ways Eddie's allowed to inhabit the world.
He doesn't need to ask anyone's permission to be who he is. That's also a thing Frank said.
in which eddie attends a self-empowerment group for gbtq men to supplement his therapy, and is empowered to: forgive himself, say "i'm gay" to his own reflection in the mirror, accidentally adopt an adult, make fried rice, and tell his straight best friend that he's in love with him. not necessarily in that order.
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AU: Buck is still drifting through different jobs, trying to find his place in the world. His unlucky habit of being in the wrong place at the wrong time, and being prone to injury, makes him a regular acquaintance of the 118.
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“I really shouldn’t do this over the phone—on a fucking voicemail, of all things, but I—”
Eddie breaks off with a choked noise. He’s sitting in the parking lot of Trader Joe’s, for Christ’s sake. Peak of romance, Diaz, he thinks, and then laughs. Buck deserves so much better than this. Then him. But Frank said be brave, and Eddie is—really, really fucking trying.
“But I love you. I’m in love with you. And I want you to come home.”
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Eddie is not a proud man, but he has the things he’s proud of. He’s proud to be a father, he’s proud to be a first responder, a military man. He’s proud to be organized, self-assured, self-disciplined, and self-aware, and that is precisely how he knows the exact moment he tripped into love for Evan Buckley. He could describe it down to what shoes he was wearing, what the weather was like, it was so ingrained into his person at this point.
But there was so much more, with that exact moment. So much he couldn’t put it into words even as Buck had—frosting, extra and sweet.
Nonetheless, Eddie starts from the beginning.
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Eddie POV of a curse in a young man's bodySeries
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27 Jan 2024