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The Vocabulary of Exile by thesevenpercent
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Jun 2026
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At twenty-one, Ilya Rozanov is the Soviet Union’s most perfect weapon, a soldier of the Red Machine who has spent three years locked in a silent, jagged war on the ice with Canada’s golden boy, Shane Hollander.
When the Montreal Metros claim him as a "wasted" mid-round draft pick, the rivalry transforms from a professional grudge into a desperate lifeline. On the final night of the 1988 Calgary Olympics, he risks everything, his family, his career, and his safety, to start a new life in the West. Forced into a high-stakes billet under the roof of his bitter professional rival, Ilya must navigate a world where freedom feels like a new kind of prison.
As Ilya struggles to adapt, the crumbling Soviet empire reaches across the ocean, searching for leverage to help pull him back.
OR: What if Ilya fled Russia in 1988 to play for the Montreal Metros?
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- Part 1 of Defective
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19 May 2026
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I. ONE LITTLE GOD FALLING OVER ANOTHER by toyourdetriment
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 May 2026
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Lily, 9:19 a.m.
i mean they were right
just early. we hadnt won our cups yet
but yes cocksucking faggots took over the majorIlya knows what he wants; he can wait out a year.
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- Part 1 of Mother of a Spartan King
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- 6/8
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21 Apr 2026
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ret·ro·grade ˈre-trə-ˌgrād
- being in motion in a direction contrary to that of the general motion of similar bodies
- affecting memories of a period prior to a precipitating event (such as brain injury or disease)
- to go back
After an accident leaves Eddie with amnesia, Buck takes him home to recover, and in the absence of his memories, Eddie reveals parts of himself he’s kept hidden for years.
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04 Jan 2026
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This dumb little flat box with a screen gives him far too much access—too many opportunities to act like a fool. He has the sudden urge to chuck it over the railing and listen to it shatter into a billion little pieces on the floor below.
He sort of wants to hurl himself over the railing, too. He could join his stupid, evil phone in a mess of broken glass and bones downstairs, and all his problems would be solved.
He probably should have done that before he sent that damn SOS text.
Really, he should have had his phone privileges revoked ages ago.
Things get a little confusing after Buck and Eddie sext for the first time. Obviously, the only solution is to keep on sexting.
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- Part 2 of pandora's (taylor's) box
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23 Oct 2025
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Buck (9:50am)
Can't wait to suck your cock laterEddie (10:03am)
Ok 👍or: buck texts the wrong person. eddie responds anyway
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- 11/11
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13 Oct 2025
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"Too bad we can't just date each other."
Eddie laughs. "What?"
"No, I'm serious!" Buck sets his beer down, the better to gesture with both hands, face lighting up, and Eddie just—he really loves the guy, okay. Ridiculous as he is. "It would be so much easier! You wouldn't have to introduce a new person to Chris—he already likes me anyway—and you could tell Pepa so she'll stop setting you up on dates that don't go anywhere—"
"And what would you get out of this?" Eddie asks, grinning.
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Or: Buck and Eddie try something out together.
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- Part 1 of homeward bound
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05 Oct 2025
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There's a part of Eddie that's tempted to do something insane, something that'll absolutely fuck up this Eddie's day, if he's a real person with a real life that Eddie is just borrowing for the time being, and not an elaborate figment of his own subconscious. Something like hopping on a plane to Los Angeles, tracking down whatever version of Buck lives there now, seeing what happens.
He wants to know if Buck would smile at him again, without the weight of history between them. If maybe, in a different world, he'd want Eddie.
Or: in the aftermath of a deadly car accident, Eddie finds himself able to visit other lives he could have lived: other worlds, other possibilities, and maybe - just maybe - a chance to get things right.
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- 6/6
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02 Oct 2025
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He turns around. Eddie is watching him, his eyes glittering, an odd set to his jaw.
"Unless you do want me to walk you through it," Buck says, and there's something in it, some dangerous impulse he can't define that makes it come out not at all like the joke he meant it to be. Standing here in the entryway of the house that's Eddie's house again, in the spot where he dragged Tommy through the door, clumsily attached at the mouth, kicking it carelessly shut behind him. Keys rattling, and the simple animal comfort of someone's eager hands on him. The empty house, barely unpacked, briefly less empty.
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05 Sep 2025
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“Someone referred to me as your wife the other day.” Buck started.
Eddie choked on air. His cheeks were so pink. Why did he blush like that? Buck was paler than him, and yet somehow he didn’t blush anywhere near as hard as Eddie himself did.
“Do you think of me as your old ball and chain?” Eddie asked, going along with the joke despite the frankly upsetting colour of his cheeks. How was this Buck looking in love with him? Obviously they were comfortable with each other, but still.
Buck gasped, his eyes big, his back straightening out as he got ready to fight with God himself on this topic. Eddie knew immediately the rant he had started, Buck’s mockingly serious voice raising as he stared Eddie down intently.
“I would never refer to my wife as the old ball and chain. You don’t hold me down, you pick me up, you dirty little bitch. You’re the wind beneath my wings. God.”
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Buddie as The Basement Yard boys.
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- Part 1 of Buddie as the Basement Yard
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10 Jul 2025
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One day, Buck will tell an interviewer that he would be happy to make movies with Eddie Diaz until the day he dies.
But first, years before that, he sees Eddie for the first time on the set of Chimney’s fifth movie.
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or, the actors au
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19 Jun 2025
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“They just follow it around, copying it and helping it and bothering it so much that it's like, worn down into loving the duckling back and looking out for it.”
“So,” said Eddie, furrowing his brow. “In this scenario, you are—”
“A baby duckling, newly hatched into the world with no idea what’s going on.”
“And I am—”
“The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes.”
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Eddie has no idea how to cope when a temporary case of amnesia causes the return of Buck 1.0. Buck has no clue why his future self hasn't made the moves on his hot best friend. It all goes pretty well, considering.
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- Part 1 of make way for Buckling
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02 Jun 2025
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So about the other day…
Eddie stares at his text chain with Buck for a few seconds, then quickly deletes.
Sorry about the homoerotic vibes. MY BAD.
Delete.
I seem to be having some kind of quarter-life gay crisis. Which is funny because I’m currently starring on the world’s most heterosexual reality TV show. LOL.
Eddie groans and bangs his head against the back of the couch in his trailer a few times. Did people even say LOL anymore? Maybe he should ask Ravi.
Delete delete DELETE.
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🌹 Eddie is the star of a reality TV dating show and Buck is the show's longtime producer. Will they find love on the most dramatic season ever? 🌹
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31 May 2025
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In the comedown, Eddie lets himself drift. He waits for it—the shame, the guilt, the panic over thinking about his best friend while he got himself off.
It comes, but not for the reasons he expects. Eddie melts into his mattress in the aftermath of his orgasm, and doesn’t stop thinking about it. He’s gay. He finds Buck hot. Buck is his best friend, his co-parent, his partner in just about everything. Buck likes men too. It’s a possibility, a real one. Eddie can see a future with Buck, and that’s when the panic hits him.
Eddie wasn’t a good husband. What he has with Buck right now isn’t worth losing. Eddie is in love with his best friend, but he thought that about Shannon too—and look where that ended up.
or: Eddie fucks an ex-priest, has a crisis of faith, and figures it out.
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28 May 2025
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“Did you know that kissing is good for you?”
Buck asks the question out of absolutely nowhere, and Eddie blinks as he tries to process the words. To be fair, it’s barely seven in the morning — on their day off, after Eddie’s night on the couch — and he’s yet to have the coffee that typically kicks his brain into action.
Also, what?
“Buck,” he says, rubbing at his eyes. “What?”
Or: Eddie and Buck start platonically kissing.
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28 May 2025
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“Eddie,” Buck breathes, laughing humorlessly, his voice wet and thick. “If we sat here and-- and went through the list of things I want…” his hands gesture aimlessly. “We’d-- be here all night.”
Eddie nods, catching Buck’s eyes again. “Maybe-- we start with mine, then.”
The space between them feels charged with static, like the second before the thunder finally rumbles.
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Eddie’s finally choosing to be better-- finally choosing joy. He just needs a push or two in the right direction, first.
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- Part 1 of seabird 'verse
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28 May 2025
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So he’d been having more nightmares, and he’d tried to medicate with alcohol. It had happened before, but this time Bossuet and Musichetta weren’t content with promises and placations, and in truth, neither was Grantaire. It had been almost twenty years since he’d left the village. Was he supposed to live like this for the rest of his life, haunted by a place he could hardly remember?
Once he’d decided, the others wouldn’t let him change his mind. They changed direction at the next crossroads and started heading east, heading for Carentan.
In an effort to confront the source of his nightmares, Grantaire returns to his childhood village in order to burn down his father's old house and get some closure. When he arrives, he discovers that in order to do that he'll have to provide a new home for the family now living there, and though he can afford the expense, he has to lodge with the mayor's son, Enjolras, while he waits for building to be completed.
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31 Jan 2025
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Enjolras is as reliable about his passion as he is about everything else. Which is why, when they encounter the infuriating bigot-of-the-day during rallies or meetings, the Amis have protocols.
The hand to shoulder requires dignity and calm that Grantaire does not possess; linking arms a camaraderie they’ve never shared. Holding hands is too intimate, Grantaire’s secret dream. He could haul Enjolras over his shoulder, but it’d be disrespectful. So he does the only thing available to him, in the two seconds he gets to decide.
He gets a wrist in the grip of each rough hand. Enjolras goes very, very still.Series
- Part 1 of unrelated oneshots
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09 Dec 2023
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When Merlin’s least favourite customer at Monmouth Coffee suddenly stops coming, life gets just a little bit strange. Forced to acknowledge a grudging attraction to the wealthy businessman, Merlin turns to his friends for guidance and resolves to find Arthur.
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14 Sep 2023
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“There are many more of us south of the Wall,” Feuilly told him, not bothering to hide his amusement as Grantaire absorbed the sight of a thousand tents set up in wobbly lines and irregularly-shaped clumps around small clearings where cook fires had been laid. “We did want to come north as soon as possible. We are looking for people we know…”
“Everyone is looking for someone,” Joly said tiredly. “Most of them, anyway.”
Grantaire is a Finonn Traveller who saves the lives of three Southerling refugees. With nowhere else to go, he stays in their camp for a while, and grows close to Enjolras and Combeferre, two Southerlings who have a complicated history of their own.- Language:
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23 Jun 2023
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epiphany by Abidatchery
Fandoms: Les Misérables - All Media Types, Les Misérables - Victor Hugo
19 Apr 2022
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“Wait, wait, pick a queen, R!” Joly shouted, “Double coronation!”
Grantaire’s lips twisted as he smiled. One tooth angled out slightly from the others, it made his grin sharp.
“Our mighty leader was born to be a queen of sorts, more Boudicca or Margaret of Anjou, but my point stands I think.” He said, and he turned to look at Enjolras.
There was a beat of silence.
“Grantaire,” Enjolras said, as if that covered everything.
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18 May 2023