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   Though My Mind Could Think (I still was a mad man) by Cassiara

   Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   20 Sep 2019

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter
   • Harry Potter
   • Draco Malfoy
   • Kreacher (Harry Potter)
   • Ginny Weasley
   • Pansy Parkinson
   • Ron Weasley
   • Hermione Granger
   • Dean Thomas
   • Angst
   • Heavy Angst
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Depression
   • Depressed Harry
   • Bottom Harry
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Recovery
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Bisexual Harry Potter
   • WARNINGS IN TAGS
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Except it's not implied - it's explicit
   • Self-Harm
   • Self-Harming Harry
   • Tags Contain Spoilers
   • Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • mental health recovery
   • Slow Build
   • Bipolar Disorder
   • bipolar
   • referenced canon child abuse
   • Therapy
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • Minor Seamus Finnigan/Dean Thomas
   • Minor Pansy Parkinson/Ginny Weasley
   • Hogwarts Eighth Year
   • Minor Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley
   • Happy Ending
   • Complete
   • Podfic Welcome
   • POV Alternating
   • POV Harry Potter
   • Mostly just Harry's POV
   • Getting Together
   • Slow Burn
   • Eventual Smut
   • Eventual Happy Ending
   • Bipolar Harry Potter
   • depressive episodes
   • hypomanic episodes
   • Self-Destruction
   • Mental Health Issues Aren't Magically Healed
   • Romantic Relationship Doesn't Cure Mental Issues
   • Harry Potter Epilogue What Epilogue | EWE
   • Hurt Harry Potter
   • Roommates
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Coming Out

   Summary

   After years of pretending he's fine and just waiting for the day he isn't needed anymore Harry wins the war. He tries to kill himself, but of all people, Malfoy saves him. Harry realises that if he has the courage to die, he should also have the courage to live.

   Ultimately this is a story about recovery, but it's also about all the things you sometimes have to go through to get there.

   Language:

   English

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   Bookmarked by lilylichun34 (kellyspacecadet_34)

   05 Apr 2026

   Bookmarker's Notes

   Lots of depressed and bipolar harry. Suicide attempt and lots of cutting. Lots of therapy and lots of talking. It was well written and I love Draco in this!