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    16 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 7

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    He’d known Satomi would be an omega before he’d even presented.

    Most alphas can pick it out early, provided they spend enough time around the kid in question. That usually means a parent or a sibling might suspect, weeks or even months before their first real heat.

    Crammed together in the karaoke box, buckled up tight in Kyouji’s passenger seat, it had become pretty obvious pretty quick what Satomi’s secondary would be.

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    15 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 37

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    Or, Love in the Time of Low Blood Counts.

    Satomi is diagnosed with cancer at 26. Together, he and Kyouji face sickness, loss, and life in death’s shadow.

    This is a love story.

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    13 Jul 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 10

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    He was fourteen. Kyouji was thirty-nine.

    The age gap was obscene. Kyouji’s broad frame dwarfing Satomi’s small, underdeveloped body. His hands large enough to wrap around Satomi’s throat, his fingers capable of spanning Satomi’s waist.

    And Satomi wasn’t even an omega. Just a regular beta. A child in comparison to Kyouji.

    It should have been impossible.

    It was impossible.

    And yet, as he stood there, his body still thrumming with the aftershocks of Kyouji’s touch, Satomi felt the tears spill over, hot and bitter on his skin.

    Because he wished he was an omega.

    Wished it with every fiber of his being.

    So he could have a chance—however small, however impossible—to be his.

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    12 Jul 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 8

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    “I can’t do this. I can’t do this anymore.” Once again, fear washes over him. The pain he felt during the car crash and everything after, Satomi could manage, but this? Loving someone – loving Kyouji – was just too painful. The endless long nights he stayed wide awake, the countless daydreams he had with every free moment of his time, the bitter longing and anguishing yearning he had felt for years, Satomi might just die if he had to go through all of this again.

    I want to be happy. I want to be happy, but you make me so sad, Kyouji-san.

    The man that once made him so happy, has become the greatest source of sorrow in his life.

    Satomi knows that Kyouji doesn’t like him like that. What they have is something similar to friendship, and although he wants something more, he knows that it’s not going to happen. The months of no texting, few hours of getting food, and only a few words of comfort, it’s clear that Kyouji has drawn that line, and Satomi knows not to cross it anymore.

    What he doesn’t know is that Kyouji wants him more than anything.

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    08 Jul 2026