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  1. Rec 9

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    Buck survived months of captivity, torture and physical, psychological and sexual abuse at the hands of Michael Newstead.

    Coming home, however, is not the same as getting his life back.

    While his body slowly begins to heal, Buck has to learn how to live with the aftermath of his horrendous ordeal, how to accept help without surrendering control, and how to find his place in a family and a relationship that have both been changed by his absence.

    Eddie wants to build a life with him, but love cannot erase trauma, undo what was done or protect either of them from every truth left buried in the aftermath.

    Because Michael Newstead may be dead, but the damage he caused is still unfolding—and not every danger waiting for Buck belongs to the past.
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    or: A very dark and explicit story about Buck discovering that surviving prolonged captivity, torture and abuse does not mean the nightmare is over—especially when recovery comes with new limits, love comes with buried truths, and some dangers are much closer than anyone realises.

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    4/?
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    26
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    13 Jul 2026

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    Part two of the insane fucking fic about Buck being kidnapped and assaulted that I didn’t read more than six chapters at the beginning and then the final one. this is about his recovery and it’s genuinely incredible. Long chapters but it has: discussion of relearning limits and healing, a scene description of a crash they respond to that is genuinely fantastic, adorable buddie supporting each other, Buck Bobby and cooking and the whole 118 family and just Buck being supported in a way that makes me want to cry (all as of chapter 4)

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    A fairly ordinary morning is turning into a nightmare of unreal propotions:
    Buck has to deal with an unexpected turn of events, and his family has to deal with the consequences.
    While everyone tries to uphold their hopes that he's out there, Buck fights to keep his sanity and to find a way to keep himself alive.
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    or: A very dark and explicit fiction about Buck being victim to a predetor who is in over his head (even if he doesn't know just yet), when he tries to get away with kidnapping someone, who is dear and important to a certain fire fam.

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    61/61
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    12 Jul 2026

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    So I skimmed the first five chapters and then skipped to the last one just to see how it ended. Bookmarking it simply for the fact that the conversations about intention and causing pain to loved ones were really fu king good. Like Eddie has a nightmare and scratches Buck and feels super guilty about it and Buck is like you can feel bad for hurting me but not for needing me. I knew you were trapped in your head and you didn’t mean to do it, I was there to help you feel safe, that was my choice. Anyways insane story??? Insane switch up in the writing of the first few chapters to the last one?

  3. Rec 24

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    Buck investigates the voice in Theo's room and discovers more than he could've ever imagined.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Buck Eddie and Theo and bed time stories :)

  4. Rec 11

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    Denny comes over to Buck’s with a question - why does Orpheus always turn back? This leads to Buck reflecting on love within his own life.

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    1/1
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    69
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    11
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    12 Jul 2026

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    Cute interactions with Theo (chocolate milk call back) and Chris (very teenager of him to join a convo drop a life altering bombshell and dip)

  5. Rec 25

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    Theo had wandered into the kitchen rubbing sleep from his eyes. “Dad?”

    “Morning, Bubba.”

    “I can’t find Mr Moo.”

    Buck barely looked up from spreading peanut butter. “Did you leave him in bed?” Theo shook his head. “What about under the bed?” That earnt Buck another shake, Buck smiled reassuringly. “He’ll turn up. He always does.”

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    Theo’s teddy bear, Mr Moo goes missing and Buck panics

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    1/1
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    25
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    12 Jul 2026

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    Really cute and heartbreaking parallel of loss and attachment between Buck and Theo