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  1. Public Bookmark 69

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    Truth be told, Castiel has fantasized, still fantasizes about dying like this. He feels it in his bones, in his Grace, this urge, a longing to die for love. Take it, he prays. Let me be what saves you.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    What good is a soldier without a war to fight?

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    Dean, adrift without Cas in a world that doesn't remember ending and desperately refusing to believe in the hope Jack offers, stumbles out of hunting and into a life he's absolutely not equipped for -- except for how it might just be the one thing that can keep him together.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Cas dies and Dean starts referring to himself as a widower. This is somewhat confusing for everyone involved.

    (Inspired by *that* tumblr post; linked in notes)

    (Canon MCD not tagged because it's temporary)

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    01 Jul 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 11

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    Cas dies on a Thursday.
    Two weeks later, Dean leaves the bunker. It’s Thursday.

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    A study on grief through the eyes of Dean Winchester.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    It’s—God, everything is so—Dean’s supposed to be this all-knowing guy. This gifted savior come to fix all that got screwed over before. But the longer he’s allowed to make choices and the longer he squeezes himself into this body that doesn’t fit him anymore, the more he feels like he’s just not cut out for it.

    He's not smart enough for this. Not creative or artistic enough—if the past were made out of clay, vulnerable to whatever shape Dean’s hands are capable of making, then he thinks the past might take the shape of a gun. He imagines the timeline crumpling in his hands to the metaphorical barrel end of it, a dark tunnel waiting for the inevitable explosion to go off by his calloused fingers.

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    Or: During the rapture, in a moment of hopelessness, Jack sends Dean back to 2015 on a mission: Kill God. Only, he gets the day wrong and Dean pops up in 2008, freshly out of hell with too much baggage and not a clue how to stop Chuck. He also struggles with accountability (or lack thereof). But what else is new.

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    25 Jun 2026