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Nile Freeman, eyes closed, looking skyward as she pulls herself together in the elevator before the Merrick fight. Bright blue background. White tiara at a jaunty angle above the left side of her head.



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    "I don't mean to come here and freak you out," Scott said, though he knew there was no avoiding it. He'd been where they were before. It had felt like he was dying, back then. "I just don't want you to think you're the only ones, okay? There's lots of us."

    Their eyes snapped to him in unison, startled and intense. Hollander croaked, "What?"

    "There's over sixteen hundred guys in the MLH and AHL," he reminded them, because it had felt improbable to him when he first heard until he remembered the sheer size of the hockey world. "There's — well, we don't know how many of us there are, but there's at least seventeen of us that know each other. Plus you two. We watch out for each other."

    His eyes enormous, Hollander asked, "There's, what? A secret underground gay hockey network?"

    Scott shrugged. "Yeah, basically."

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    Ilya and Shane find their way into The Tennis Club, a network of closeted hockey players that hook up - so long as everyone keeps it casual. Which is no problem! They can do casual, right?

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Ilya has been thinking about his mother again. Not that he ever really stops but lately...Yes, lately he is thinking about Irina Rozanova but also about Irina Sokolova. About Irina before Alexei or Ilya. Before Grigori Rozanov. Irina Sokolova - the champion figure skater. The world championship title she won. The routine she developed and agonised over and perfected but never took to the Olympics.

    And he has been doing something stupid. Something he absolutely should not be doing. But he is one year away from reaching an age his mother never got to see and he needs...something. He’s pretty sure it’s this particular something.

    But Dr. Galina has been implying that perhaps it is only stupid in the way that falling in love with your arch-rival is stupid. So maybe he should just give up already and get on with it.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    Plenty of players have looked at Shane for too long, double-checking something they can’t name. This feels different.

    (Or: the shower scene/first time redux.)

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Shane wasn't really a... 'good' gay. He knew it.
    He was, however, an exceptional lesbian.

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    31 May 2026

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    “Surprised?” Rozanov asks.

    “There’s nothing – this is nothing,” Shane forces out.

    “Soulmates is something,” Rozanov says.

    “You know you should say Connected Person, not soulmate,” Shane says. “It’s old-fashioned and sugar-coating.”

    Rozanov takes a drag of his cigarette and looks Shane up and down. “Sugar? You think is always sweet and fun?”

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    Shane and Ilya are soulmates. A lot of it is sweet, and some of it is hard.

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