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“Why are you so sure he’ll reject you? He was already fucking in love with you, Roz, literally all of us knew it, it was clear just from how he looked at his fucking phone—”
“That was— That was a fucking miracle, Pike. Miracles don’t happen twice.”
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shane doesn't remember his relationship with ilya after the hit. ilya was going to break up with him anyway.
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25 Jun 2026
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blessed be the boys time can't capture by justhockey
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Dec 2025
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They had so many years of love and joy, so many tender, vulnerable moments that they were never allowed to capture - never allowed to keep.
“We don’t have any pictures together, Ilya,” Shane repeats, his voice frantic and desperate and almost pleading. “We’ve loved each other for a decade and all we have to show for it is-“
“-us, Shane. We have us to show for it. Our life, our love, our home that we have built together.”
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24 Jun 2026
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other forms of intimacy by ultravioletdaydream
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Jan 2026
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Shane and Ilya have a lot of sex. A lot of hot, intimate, dirty sex. But sometimes they don't. Sometimes, for one reason or another, they find more intimacy in the unexpected moments where their plans to fuck don't work out.
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Shane and Ilya taking care of each other.
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I: Shane Hollander has too much to drink.
II: Ilya Rozanov gets the fucking flu.
III: Shane Hollander suffers an Autistic shutdown.
IV: Ilya Rozanov misses his mother.- Language:
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20 Jun 2026
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Friendship In Retrospect by HH_Arrow
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Jan 2026
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Cliff Marleau gets assigned to keep the new Russian rookie out of trouble. Fifteen years later, he gives a speech at Ilya's wedding.
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- Part 1 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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16 May 2026
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’’I can’t tell you what you have to do to impress me. It has to be natural. Like, spontaneous. You are the one who should think about it. Five times.”
‘’Five times what?’’
‘’You said you want to know me better. And I said I don’t want to know better the guy who has a new flame every week. So, prove me wrong. Convince me you want more— If you want more. If you are willing to try. If you are not, that’s fine. We’ll be friends, or whatever, like this conversation never happened. But if you want to prove me that you don’t want what you always want… Surprise me. Five times. Think about something without any of my advice. And I’ll promise you a date.’’And, well. Who’s Ilya to not accept a good bet?
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15 May 2026
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(All I Need Is On) The Other Side of the Door by midwestmillie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 Apr 2026
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“Unlock the door, Hollander.”
Even though Shane couldn’t hear the exact words, he knew what Ilya said. He shook his head.
“Unlock the door, or I will break the glass. Your choice.”
Shane’s eyes widened again and he briefly hung his head as if regretting all of his past life decisions, and Ilya heard the resounding click of the unlock mechanism.
He felt wild, his mind in violent turmoil as he threw open the door and his palm clutched the back of Shane’s head, his fingers finding purchase in the coarse hair. “Are you listening to me?” Shane ducked his head in acknowledgment. “I’m going to call off my driver. You will not move. I am going to sit there-“ he pointed at the empty passenger seat. “-in this boring car of yours and I am going to find out why the fuck you are alone and who the fuck made you cry.”
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Inspired by Shane’s confession in The Long Game (*mini-spoiler*) about his whereabouts after leaving a certain Montreal nightclub in January 2017, Ilya leaves the club shortly after Shane only to find him pulled over on the side of the road, devastated.
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15 May 2026
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stag night by amongtheshadows
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 May 2026
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“You invited the team to our house. . . for a bachelor party.”
Ilya pauses before smiling and wincing. “Yes.”
There’s a beat of silence between them. “Ilya, they are going to destroy our house.”
“We don’t know that for sure.” he argues. “Plus, it is for Harris and Troy. We should be the ones to do it.” Ilya shrugs.
“Because we’re gay?”
(shane and ilya host a bachelor party for harris and troy and the whole thing ends up way more chaotic and way more wholesome than expected)
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- Part 7 of shane and ilya are (not) co-dependent
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10 May 2026
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when you hold me it holds me together by hollidayparty
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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They sat in silence for a few seconds and watched the surf rolling in and out, in and out. Shane eased one knee up and rested his arm across it, watching Ilya out of the corner of his eye with infinite patience.
“You wanna talk about it?” he asked, voice soft enough that the wind almost stole it.
He did want to talk. His chest was full of words. Too full. But the idea of opening all that up? Of watching Shane recoil, or worse, watching him care? It was unbearable. The thought of being comforted by Shane, of feeling that warmth and knowing he couldn’t keep it, nearly crushed him.
Ilya kept his eyes on the water and his jaw tight.
Shane reached out slowly and carefully and let the tip of one finger trace the outside of Ilya’s forearm. Just a whisper of contact. A question, not a demand.
Ilya looked at him. Shane gave a small tilt of his hand, beckoning him closer.
“Come here.”
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A deviation from the All-Star weekend in Tampa:
Instead of finding Shane on the bench, it’s Ilya alone with his ghosts and falling apart in ways he never lets anyone see.
Until Shane sits beside him.
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- Part 1 of hollanov one-shots & shorties
Bookmarked by onepanic_boy
01 May 2026
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“You lie to yourself, Hollander. Not to me.”
“What, because you know me so well?”
“Yes. I do. Don’t I?”
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01 May 2026
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a sound is still a sound around no one by dykeries
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Feb 2026
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Shane lifts one eyelid again to look at Rozanov. His eyes are red-rimmed. Like he’s been crying. “Why…why aren’t you in Boston?”
Rozanov’s brow furrows. “Why would I be in Boston?”
“You, you’re captain. Raiders. Boston.”
The room is silent except for the beeping of monitors.
In 2023, Shane takes a bad hit on the ice. When he wakes up, the last thing he remembers is a tuna melt.
There’s a lot to get used to.
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25 Apr 2026
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Find Lily by virtual_typewriter
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Apr 2026
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“Got someone special waiting for you?”
Shane’s breath hitches and he looks up, big, brown orbs settling on the person behind the camera. There’s a blush crawling across his freckles, his voice unsteady as he answers.
“I wanted to celebrate with Lily, but she isn’t here.”
The video ends shortly after, and the internet collectively loses its mind. Within minutes #FindLily is trending across all social media platforms, women from across the globe begging Shane to dump her ass.
OR on the night that Shane wins the cup for a second year in a row, the internet learns of Lily and goes absolutely nuts.
Inevitably, so does Ilya Rozanov.- Language:
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20 Apr 2026
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love was a myth (now it’s my morning coffee) by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Mar 2026
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“What were you doing?”
“Oh.” A sweet flush colours Shane’s freckled cheeks, and his fingers twitch where they’re still resting on Ilya’s back. “I was just tracing your moles.”
Ilya is going to die. His heart is actually going to give out on him because of this sweet, perfect man who he loves more than he knows what to do with. Who he loves more than anything in this entire world.
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13 Apr 2026
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“Okay, but I have to ask… who said it first?”
Ilya tried to play it cool, a faint smirk tugging at his lips. “Who said what first?”
“You know,” Haas chimed in, voice teasing. “I love you.”
——> the Ottawa Centaurs debate who said 'I love you' first.
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- Part 2 of heated rivalry coda
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12 Apr 2026
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So, you like New Yorker? by oxfordcommachameleon
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Dec 2025
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“So,” Ilya cleared his throat, the word sounding too loud in the stillness. “Shane tells me you like New Yorker.”
Shane’s dad looked at him from where he was rinsing out a glass in the sink, visibly surprised that Ilya had spoken first.
“Oh. Yes,” he said after a beat. “I like to read in the mornings. I love the crossword. Do you read The New Yorker too?”
“No.”
“Oh.”
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While Shane is outside with his mother, Ilya finds unexpected understanding and warmth in a quiet kitchen conversation with the man who helped raised the boy he loves.
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10 Apr 2026
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Yuna’s entire body aches, and it would appear that her instincts were right— Rozanov is small, and he’s vulnerable, and he’s tired, and he needed somewhere safe to rest.
And Yuna can’t help the weird sense that she’s honoured— her home was somewhere for Rozanov to go, even if she and David knew nothing about any of it, even if they still don’t, Shane knew it would be safe for Rozanov here. Shane told him to come home.
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06 Apr 2026
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Shane doesn't fall apart loudly. He spirals, shuts down, missteps. Ilya pays attention. He stays. He helps Shane learn what it feels like to be noticed without being corrected.
or, 5 times Shane needs help regulating his autism, and Ilya is there for him + 1 time Shane is there for Ilya.
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03 Apr 2026
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Such a Pretty Crier by Bruja_oscura
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.
Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.
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03 Apr 2026
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Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording.
“Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.”
Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating.
His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next.
I have to see him.
Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now.
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OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...
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01 Apr 2026
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Still, With You by jp_ruzu
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Jan 2026
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Winning their first game together should have felt simple.
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29 Mar 2026
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Forgotten Language by manyfandomsmember
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Jan 2026
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Ilya gets his bell rung while playing for Ottawa against Montreal
He forgets how to speak English and can only speak Russian
Luckily, Shane Hollander, the light of his life, has learned Russian
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26 Mar 2026