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    The blackouts are getting worse.

    They aren't dangerous, in the long run, just strange. Strange because they only ever happen when Shane is at home; never on the road, at the rink, or even when in public.

    His blackouts only ever happen in his condo.

    Shane doesn't even realize something is happening at first. He'll get home after practice or a game, exhausted, and the second the front door closes behind him something in his body loosens. A warmth spreads through him and his thoughts will go fuzzy at the edges. His inner omega will start purring low and smug in the back of his mind.

    Nest, it says.

    Once the thought hits, the urge becomes almost unbearable. He usually makes it to the bedroom before the rest hits. Shane will crawl into bed still half dressed, burrowing instinctively into the blankets, dragging pillows close against his chest while warmth floods his body in thick, heavy waves. His painfully organized nest will become messy, Shane digging around until the chaotic placements feels perfect.

    And then—nothing. Absolutely nothing. Hours vanish, sometimes even entire evenings.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Shane tells himself, on the nights when one or both of them is traveling, on the nights when they can’t be together, that he is okay with Ilya doing what he needs to do. To keep his body active, his mind calm. To be able to love Shane without resentment.

    He’s almost able to convince himself he believes it.

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    Shane thinks they have an unspoken agreement for a one-sided open relationship (on Ilya's side). When Ilya suggests that Shane might want to sleep with other men, Shane panics. Sad boy antics ensue.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    How is he even supposed to respond to that?

    Thanks, I’m well aware of how people see me and how they want me. The one fumbling entanglement in the basement of a house party was enough for me though, because she found it weird when I started crying and then got so mad that I wouldn’t scent her that she left.

    And I only did it because she smelled so good, like a river, like fresh cut grass, and it made me so jealous I was dizzy with it. I wanted to be her, and I thought that was close enough to wanting her, and it wasn’t, and it took five minutes for my knot to go down after I locked myself in the bathroom to jerk off and I had a panic attack the whole time and then I threw up in the sink and vowed to be celibate for the rest of my life.

    “She’s not my type either,” he settles on, maybe more melancholic than he means to be.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    “You’re…” His voice goes low, almost stunned. “Hard again?”

     

    Shane leans up just enough to press a shaky kiss to Ilya’s mouth—soft, desperate, clinging. “Never—” he whispers against his lips, “I never went soft.”

    or Shane in subspace for the first time. (and he cums three times just because)

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Brucie Wayne is far from being boring.

    His social media, on the other hand, are.

    Until one day he posts a photo of him and his boyfriend.

    No one is normal about this.

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    09 Jun 2026

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